Karen's 21st birthday party. 45 minutes in a few hours. The Grove with Kwansoo, Andy and Karen. Gawking at Finding Nemo. The Christmas tree and the lights. The water show. Trying to get tickets validated. Sitting around looking at each other. Karen getting annoyed. Dduk bo sam. Eating more than Andy and Kwansoo. Making an idiot of myself about mushrooms. Jane and I asking for so much. Jane's accident. Bonaventure and the moving floor. Accepting Roy's money. Uncomfortable wedged between Andy and Roy. Getting pictures shot by the paparrazzi. Being the butt end of the joke again. Ugly pictures. A virgin Pink Flamingo. Grauman's Chinese Theater. Handprints with Sean Connery and Denzel Washington. Talking with Esther about the classic movies we haven't seen. Walking around at night. Danny's jacket. Roy's reckless driving.

Brea Promenade with Kwansoo, Roy, and Karen. To not be so stupid when liking someone. Roy slipping up on Sea World and Karen. Love Actually. The way Keira Knightley as the bride looked. Love is truly amazing. Bj's and being excited about pizookies. Legally Blond 2. Being introduced as Karen's best friend. The parents. Calling Jacob Shin and wishing him a happy birthday. The drive home. Yet another cheesecake.

Starting Dae Jang Kum. Absolutely no cranberries anywhere. 40 people. X-Men 2. Pumpkin cheesecake. Father of the Bride. Harry McCormick, Jr. v. Harry Connick, Jr.

Waking up at 2pm and frantically packing, only to leave 1.5 hours later. An interesting talk with Kwansoo. Josh Groban. Talk of testes, penises, and breasts. Two ice cream cones for $1.59. A long drive. A box of pears. Driving through OC and familiarizing myself with home again. Getting sick. Random thoughts.

"The turkey?" Running around frantically. The trees at Safeway. Frantic baking. Miscommunication with Sewon. Thanksgiving fellowship with Eugene and Sewon's small groups. Esther the CA roll Nazi. The funky sweet yam casserole. Yummy pumpkin cheesecake. Lime sherbet. Movie charades: great songs, Adaptation, Fargo, Andy's excitement over someone. Being an unbiased moderator. Korean taboo: Pinocchio, flaccid, hickey: "mohk eh suh jjook jjook bba lah muhk ee nun guh" "ee dong mool eun ha yan sek gwah heu geen sek ee yah." Ghetto Taboo: cornucopia, and Mary Sunshine. Freaking projectile and mechanism. Mafia: lasting two rounds in a game. The boringest game of Mafia ever.

Family at Thanksgiving. Having less members with us when we're older. Paul farting on Lori. Outdoor weddings like in Father of the Bride. Fresh falling snow and fall autumn leaves. Some movie with an overarching arch. Mentally wanting a girlfriend. Being cultured. The Brothers Karamazov. Boxers v. Briefs. No Fear, pogs, and other childhood memories.

Boston Market with Sewon and Eugene. Safeway's ribs. Papyrus. EAP. Jonga-Jib with Kwansoo, Karen, and Carroll. Never getting really mad. No ice cream. Ah My Goddess! Andy's testimony. Sushico and fried green tea ice cream. Ugly Korean writing. Praise songs. Making up songs for individuals. Basketball players' names. New beef and potatoes. Eugene getting annoyed and leaving. Future plans.

The Mighty Ducks. King Yen. Kill Bill. Black Toilets and low doors. Creepy, sinister music that made everything feel like a dream. Lowered movie screen. The freezing cold. Weird fortunes.

Running into Debbie at Costco. Agitated mood. Taco Bell Bean and Cheese Burrito. Falling asleep girls. Restless. Ofoto. Talk with Kwansoo.

La Burrita Northside with chunky salsa, eaten on plates, and unlimited chips. One red chip. Dramatic girls. Not talking about Andy behind his back. How to respond in a certain situation. No more Susanna. Rowdy rowdy kids. "What kind of Chinese are you?" Spaghetti sauce out of dirty water. Lila thinking I was clueless. Why learn to park when there's always valet? Talking of food on the way there. Chasing Papi. More pictures and movies. The beautiful moon: a low crescent in the sky with hazy fog surrounding it.

Emotional tears. Fruit salsa with chips. No motivation. Walking into a room filled with the smell of flowers. I can be nice and appreciative. Yummy watermelon. Missing my family dreadfully. Being spineless. Two new songs. A bum arm and cramps.

One of the best days of my life. Feeling truly truly happy and at peace. Bawling like a baby. Flowers. =] Sour Patch Kids from Kwansoo. ?? and sukiyaki with Kristy. Kahlua cake. Pictures from Carroll. Overwhelmed by everyone's kindness.

Small group pictures. =D

Rubio's. No fries. The Down-Low. A million hugs from Nancy. Repeating waiter. Screaming, screaming girls. Julie's terrifed look. Dan Choi and Paul walking us to our car. The guys playing pool.

Office hours. The rain. Horseback riding. A ridiculous number of cookies. Care packages. Andy ditching me twice. The ludicrous idea of being a co-emcee. An amazing testimony. Seeing Andy nervous. An inappropriate and unnecessary flyer. Sharing a thankful story with Melanie. Praise with 1000 people. Fearing too much the wrong things and not fearing the little things enough. Fruit Breeze cough drops. Stupid Andy Chon not thinking he has talent. Leftovers for Fred. It's now #3. Video talent.

"Lackadaisical." Eugene Shin uses this word in everyday conversation. Hahaha.

Flyering with Dennis Chon. Being made fun of the exact same way. Cheese N Stuff. Freaking Chon brothers. More birthday coincidences. The library during the day. It's been getting gloomier. A random stranger at the door. An unsettling feeling. Care packages. I miss eggplant. More pints. Talk with Karen: being psychotic, being funny mad and not, vexing Andy Chon and others.

Fred hitting me in the crotch with his umbrella.

A crazy long day. Almond M&M's. Trader Joe's. Quality time with myself. Passing the test and saying confessions of who Christ is in our life. SGL Sewon. A talk with Julie and Sewon about having faith despite the questions and doubts. A Mud Pie Cake for Janet. 16 juniors. An interesting talk with Kwansoo: disturbing punishments, being feminine only when the thought processes are involved, and him convoluting everything I say. Trying to find a Windows XP Professional CD Key and feeling cool and dangerous for breaking the law.

Happy Birthday Susan Kum. =]

"I must learn that the purpose of my life belongs to God, not me... When I stop telling God what I want, He can freely work His will in me without any hindrance. He can crush me, exalt me, or do anything else He chooses. He simply asks me to have absolute faith in Him and His goodness. Self-pity is of the devil, and if I wallow in it, I cannot be used by God for His purpose in the world." -excerpt from My Utmost for His Highest.

Thank you Sewon and Andy Chon. =]

Andy's normal voice. Pho. Alice and Fred's puzzle. No ice cream at Costco. Only minimal samples. A box of popsicles. Strawberry, lime, and wild berry, in that order. Fred driving. Andy and me sitting in the back. Picking up Dark Abe. Loitering because so early. Orange slushies and popcorn. Elf. Rainbow colors. A random fountain. Pictures from Costco.

It seems like time has just run out. When does it be what you want and when is it what God wants? Confused and seeking God. Prayer.

A long day of shopping. My one happy purchase. Butter and cornbread. Being true heifers at Fresh Choice. Taquitos and cream puffs. Prayer. Plans for Love Actually. An open talk with Sharon. Seeing things on a different side.

Being hobbits. Living dreams and not letting them diminish. Toddler gibberish. Manly features. A Symphony chocolate bar. A guy willingly carrying shopping bags. Pastor Eugene's raw and sudden emotional state. Being hobbits. Andy stealing my big chicken leg. Madison's "You are Holy" and Nicole's "My God is so Big." Nighttime and Good mornings. A good talk about relationships during work. A shopping frenzy.

No limits on bets.

The rain as it should be. =]

Andy's sexy voice. Coldness from the knees down. Caedmons' Call and Jars of Clay concert. Being obnoxious and acting like the high school kids Sewon and I were surrounded by. Nice ladies next to us, not being able to sing, but just singing.

Denny's with Andy, Kwansoo, Frank, and Kristy. Being bald. Andy completely conking out and not even knowing it. Scary pranks. Movie quotables and food we dislike and can't eat. Talking about Andy's top list of girls. Then talking about Kwansoo's top list of girls.

Costco and Safeway with Karen, Kwansoo and Andy. Prayer meeting with Alice and the same passage that spoke to us: James 2, 3. Freshman lock-in. Having 5 glorious minutes. Loving the freshies. They all liking my cookies. Spraying myself with water again. Q&A and tension between Jenny and Karen. Esther and her assist.org answer. Andy's little fanclub. Reminiscing and feeling nostalgic. Kwansoo and I feeling old. Hating Andy. A Krisy Kreme doughnut from Brian. Being the most horrible moderator. Playing spoons with quarters. Richard's black and white photos. Jennifer, Richard, and Brian all taking pictures. Sun taking black and white pictures of people with mafia faces. The Chon brothes as mafia. Joyce as cop 3x in a row. James and Joyce being cop and angel two times together. Yellow socks. Dennis rubbing his head. Solomon's forgetfulness of names and his fetish with shiny things. Kwansoo scaring the crap out of me. Getting lost to buy chips and then randomly finding a market.

Wishing I was up more at 6 am driving along the Bay Bridge and watching the sunrise. Wishing for more days like this.

The bad of today:
-Computer being broken again.
-Being hated by the English professor.
-Rewinding my camera film at 5 and missing out for the rest of the night.

The good of today:
-Andy putting in quarters into the wrong parking meter.
-Janet buying chocolate gummi bears, and Andy buying malt balls while both complaining non-stop about hunger.
-Andy and Carroll as our photographers.
-The cruise: watching the birds fly in a straight line and then into a V-formation, seeing the sea lions heads pop up out of the water, going under the Golden Gate Bridge, passing by Alcatraz, feeling like we were in a surreal scene in a movie, warning Carroll to be careful of the waves and then Esther, Julie, and me getting splashed instead, goosebumps on Judy's cheeks, Julie's red nose and tears, the Tetris-shaped lights, the trampoline, Captain Hans, Andy's random thinking, Judy's not so subtle insult, Esther always knowing when Carroll's taking pictures.
-Looking at Carroll's pictures, falling asleep and forgetting about where we were, Peasant Pie's chicken and potato and blueberry pear, Sriracha, A Szn Tung, one per person, hilarious fortune cookies, opening presents, kimchi and onions, Carroll filming me, Hannah's thorough enjoyment of her food.
-A car ride with obnoxious Kevin, snapping fingers at Kevin and my new handshake, "What is the purpose of an umbrella?" "What is the point of having an umbrella?" "Why?" Providing Karen with endless amusement, talking about GPAs, the LSAT, and what colleges we could have ended up at.
-Fentons: the berry go round, trying to push Kevin off the bench, pinching and hitting heads, Carroll's ugly video of me and the place where it ends, Karen's insisting on putting it on his blog so that Andy Chon could make fun, Julie and Jenny's fallen mound of ice cream.
-Carroll: Carroll focusing on ugly shots, his amazing pictures of panoramic sunsets, good times talking and reminiscing, discussing how we first met certain people.

An amazing and unforgettable night tonight. Rachel's Challenge. Start a chain reaction! To tell one another how much we love one another. To approach life with compassion and kindness. To look through a situation and not at it. Parallels with Anne Frank and Christ. Pictures. The simple and amazing conviction of one girl. Honestly feeling how real and alive God is.

Radio with Julie. 86 seats. "I like french fries. Ooh, I like black-eyed peas." Crying and shivering in cold. Good talk with Julie.

So excited about tomorrow. Wanting to truly appreciate God's creation.

The sunset and sunrise. Just the earth rotating and turning.

"You can start a chain reaction!"

A talk with Nancy about friendships and laughter.

A traveler's notebook. Avant Card. Sophia and other girl being Captain Hook. Last confirmation meeting. "Onerous." First real chat with Pastor Eugene. Amazing perception. Studying with the Piedmontians. Unable to concentrate. Making a list. Being faced with it, and now knowing how to deal with it. It's all about bringing it to the gospel message. Carolina is my pan de queso friend. My motto with Carolina: No more stress and drama.

Love and Basketball. Fresh baguettes and spread. A lovely class senior picture. Being humiliated again. Andy scaring the crap out of me. Red splotches all over my face. A hot face, and cold back. Lesson learned from Pastor Eugene. Despising boys. John Yun is one funny guy. Butt warmers. Laughing seriously so hard. Issey Miyake.

Learning to trust God. Heidi slapping my face and throwing herself at Royee. The rain. =] Berry Kiwi juice. Joo's heavy blanket and looking like an ���ܸ�. Andy's feminine throw. Crazy slipping and sliding. Staring up at the rain falling. In-N-Out. Whispering and giggling behind my back. Eugene's car spinning out. Non-existent force fields.

"God gets us grounded on strong reality and truth. He does this until our cares for ourselves individually have been brought into submission to His way for the purpose of His redemption. Why shouldn't we experience heartbreak? Through those doorways God is opening up ways of fellowship with His Son. If God can accomplish His purposes in this world through a broken heart, then why not thank Him for breaking yours?" -My Utmost for His Highest, Nov.1.


Wow. Thanks Stephen.

Finally fixing the futon. Carolina sleeping sitting straight up. Stupid Guesstures. Ice cream. =]

Blue raspberry Jolly Ranchers.

Cafe Do Brasil. All you can eat Brazilian BBQ. Hurray for the pao de quiejo club. =D

Talk with Sara.

Pho with Danny. Nothing in my sauce. Talking about the future and marriage. Talking about praise. The difference between a voice sounding good and not.

Hail and rain. The black brown sky.

Hallelujah Night. Cute cute kids and cute cute costumes. Driving back with fogged up windows.

Tired of seeing the same people. In need of some change.