Thank you, Andy Chon for fixing my archives. =] I've been having fun re-reading my old posts and reminiscing. And I promise to publish more often.

Sewon, Jane Kim, and I visited Julie and her family in Vacaville. I really wish we did it sooner with the rest of the nursery folk. I had so much fun just chatting with Julie and Kook and playing house with Hailey and Morgan. Julie makes the best lemon bars and biscotti ever. When we asked Julie what the one thing was that she loved the most about Kook, she instead told us one of his most annoying habits. We also finally discovered the secret to Kook's coolness. As we were leaving, I realized that this visit was the last time I would ever be able to see Hailey or Morgan again. I absolutely adore these kids and I can't believe that it really was time for me to say goodbye to them. Look at how beautiful they are.

Hearing Justin McRoberts made me wish that I had enough balls to go see him last year, but very thankful that another opportunity presented itself. I find myself again unable to articulate exactly how I felt tonight so instead I'll list a myriad of miscellaneous thoughts and words that I gained from this experience: feeling very thankful, happy, and blessed, a reminder to use our brokenness to reach those around us, a reminder of Christ's unconditional love, "Love is a decision", to make every single day matter (for example, by not dealing with "stupid boys"), to not live a good and perfect life, but to simply live life well, to measure success in life as simply having the faith to follow Jesus Christ, "People who don't have, have one another."

 
I was also struck again by the extreme patience and tolerance that guys can have for girls. I was positive that something would be said or done to provoke Billy Ku, but he was surprisingly very amiable and cordial the entire night. It was actually a bit unnerving, but nevertheless still nice. I will never forget Billy Ku and Kwansoo playing house and acting like our pseudo-mother and father by taking care of us and carting us about wherever we pleased, albeit I'm sure, it was much to their chagrin. =T

Endless cookies. Nicole. Communication is essential in a relationship. A desire and need to do the digestion dance curbed by the intense Mario Kart and EA car racing playing. Sore thumbs with indented patterns on them. A Tigger Mosaic puzzle and completing 5 pieces in 4 hours. Discovering that those I trust still have big mouths. A reminder again to not have so many expectations of friends.

I think I've finally realized the danger of walking home alone at night and have realized just how scary it is to have to do so. 
 
Yes, it took me over 4 years of college to realize this. Yes, I am the biggest idiot. Yes, all the "I told you so"s and "What did I say?"s are ringing in my head. Yes, I am reminiscing about a particular comic strip accurately depicting my stupidity. Yes, I am currently picturing three beloved hot potatoes who I'm positive will kill me if I ever tell them this.

But better late than never, right?

It's nice when a guy takes the heavy shopping bag from your hands without asking you first.

It's been a while since a guy has left a positive and favorable impression on me. Tonight I realized why I like David so much. I respect and admire David immensely for his selflessness, his patience, his humbleness, for the little things he does to make one feel comfortable and at ease, for his insight and wisdom, and for his genuine love and kindness manifested into his everyday actions. It is actions, and not words, which reveal a person's true heart.

Over this past year, I've become very cynical and disillusioned about boy-girl friendships and have generally lost faith in them. But while at Bing Ling's, I came across an article which temporarily fostered a tiny bit of hope. And then that hope dissipated when I realized that things like this can only happen in imaginary little worlds where people think that I can be fun and nice, and simple honesty and love underlie the meaning of our lives.
 
 
"Those moments when you can't bear another instant of whatever it is that makes them... well, them. Worse still are the times when you see they've used up all their patience for you. But as with any friendship, you each put up with the idiosyncrasies and annoyances for as long as the relationship feeds you, for as long as it seems worth it. That's the verdict, really. I'm still friends with her because she's worth it. I continue to listen and give, even when I'm exhausted, because I know she will do the same for me."

I went to Ruth's Chris for the very first time tonight. The food was undoubtedly delicious, but the company was the highlight of the night for me. I learned something new today about steak: If I cut up all my pieces of meat before eating it, the meat will get cold faster, thus resulting in a not as satisfying Ruth's Chris experience. I will also remember tonight as being one of the very few and precious moments where I was able to triumphantly trump every single one of Kwansoo's fallacious and erroneous comments about me. Indeed it was a very exciting night.

We have real cable now so I've made the resolution to maximize it for the remaining month that I have here at Berkeley and to leave the apartment as little as possible. Unfortunately, I have yet to take advantage of it so while I sit here miserably at work, Esther and Sewon are generously fulfilling my wish and watching my cable tv instead of me.

Kpxgrlx012: it mus thave been tough for you
samoanboy72: yeah
samoanboy72: i was actually contemplating whethe or not i should move back to LA to be w/my mom
samoanboy72: but she told me that i should go back to nyc and continue on w/my life
Kpxgrlx012: wow
Kpxgrlx012: your mother's a strong woman
samoanboy72: she is
samoanboy72: i love her so much
samoanboy72: =0)



Kpxgrlx012: so next year ill come visit oaky?
samoanboy72: definitely!!!
Kpxgrlx012: it sounds so far away
samoanboy72: it's not so far away
samoanboy72: it's soooo much fun
samoanboy72: =0)
Kpxgrlx012: hahaha
Kpxgrlx012: yes
Kpxgrlx012: we will haev ltos of fun
samoanboy72: definitely
Kpxgrlx012: you can show me around to all your hangouts
samoanboy72: ahhh yes
samoanboy72: i'll take you to the hot spots
Kpxgrlx012: hahaha
Kpxgrlx012: i'm already imaging how crazy you get
Kpxgrlx012: ahahahahaha
Kpxgrlx012: i remember those whitney dances
samoanboy72: oh indeed
samoanboy72: i'm even crazier
samoanboy72: hahaha
samoanboy72: esp when i'm drunk
samoanboy72: i'm a big fat ho
samoanboy72: hahaha
Kpxgrlx012: HAHAHAHA
samoanboy72: fo real
samoanboy72: hahaha
Kpxgrlx012: =D
Kpxgrlx012: i really cant wait
Kpxgrlx012: hahaha
Kpxgrlx012: but its in about 6 months
samoanboy72: the time will fly by
samoanboy72: it already has
samoanboy72: think about it in 8 years we'll be 30

It's crazy how everything can change within such a short period of time. Sigh. Keep your head up, Tame. Six months isn't that long a time. I'll see you soon, buddy. =]

Who would have thought that the post office actually sold envelopes?

More revelations about the Kum family:
-None of us are musically inclined, except Brandon and Kirsten who are forced to play for us during Christmas.
-None of us are physically active, except Eugene who�s good at snowboarding, and Eunice�s mom, who's good at golfing.
-Eunice and I both like to douse everything with hot sauce.
-Edwin and my sister are both completely useless when in comes to anything.

I bought a travel book for Sweden today. But the cover is so ugly, I've lost any incentive I initially had to read it.

I always thought that I was relatively comfortable with the idea of physical contact with members of the opposite sex. But then I realized that after four years of being around the boys who I've been around, most of my interaction has drastically been reduced to hugs or the pummeling of their arms with my fists in angry retaliation of an insulting or stupid remark made about me. I realized even more today how much I dislike boys touching me. Stupid boys.

I've forgotten how nice it is to drive down to the Marina to absorb its beauty and to just openly talk.


"And it was during those moments where I realized that my head and my heart were believing in two very different things."


One day, I'll be able to finally sample the Chicken with White and Wild Rice from Costco. And that'll be a very happy day indeed.

I bowled a score of 88 last night which included one strike and two spares. I think John Song and Kwansoo were very proud of me. Hahaha.

David Kim also got a turkey in the last three frames of the game. I've never seen this happen before in my life. I've known David since our elementary school days at Helen Wittmann Elementary School. After school, we used to play with Preetesh Bengali and Jane Ahn at Frontier Park. Preetesh and David used to say "sexxxxx" to each other all the time in very sensuous and provocative voices. It was very unsettling.

I have a friend who is deemed to be one of the nicest people ever, whose favorite animal happens to be the dinosaur and not the tiger, who detests seafood and eggs, who considers himself a genius in everything but academics, who always manages to have an infinite supply of Big Red chewing gum, who is able to always somehow hear every under-the-breath comment and slip-of-the-tongue remark I make, who seems to revel in humiliating me, and who is so popular that he has an entourage of admirers constantly vying for his attention. Yet ironically, this same friend continues to unconsciously (and hopefully unwillingly) bring about much distress and angst in my life. It really is quite remarkable. =]

I put myself on the degree list tonight. Wow. It really feels like it's all coming to an end now. I don't think I'm ready for it.

I spent more time with my cousins this past weekend than I did in the past 22 years of my life.

Three Zagat rated restaurants: King of Thai, Hunan Home's Restaurant, Panta Rei.

Things I discovered about my family:
1. The Kums generally have not been blessed with the gift of singing melodiously.
2. The Kums have all generally been cursed with acne.
3. The Kums have all been blessed with relatively good eye-sight unless it was inherited from the other parent.
4. The Kums and their children are all relatively dark-skinned with the sole exception of myself.
5. The Kums are all monstrous heifers who always appreciate fine dining.
6. Even though our family seems to be open-minded and liberal, when it comes to their own children, the Kum lineage is actually quite particular and picky. This is most evidently revealed in terms of dating and relationships.

I don't know why I was so nervous to spend so much time with my cousins. But what fun we had, what money we spent, and what food we consumed. =]