Finding Cassiopeia by myself. The Marina.

It's not about doing what you want to do, but doing what you have to do.

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven..."
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8.

An 8 ft tree and Isabella. "She looks like an angel." The Fast Pitch. The Astro Jump. Soozee (Suzy) and Darren. Heartbreaking news.

I haven't been this cold for a long time.


"I'm kind of hungry. Are you?"
"I could eat."
-Antwone Fisher.

JUDwhaEE: good nightjahndee gahndi
Kpxgrlx012: haha
Kpxgrlx012: good nite judy booty (_I_)
JUDwhaEE: cmon that's weak sauce
JUDwhaEE: (_______|________)
Kpxgrlx012: aahahahahahaha


T hed eRFTheory: i'm looking up stuff to make!
T hed eRFTheory: exciting
Kpxgrlx012: hahha
Kpxgrlx012: whos the lucky lady?
T hed eRFTheory: dennis
T hed eRFTheory: hahahahahahaahahahah
Kpxgrlx012: oh
Kpxgrlx012: blech
T hed eRFTheory: hahahahah
T hed eRFTheory: i wish it was a hot lady though
T hed eRFTheory: like you.
T hed eRFTheory: mmmmmm.

"And as I live this daily life
I trust you for everything
And I will only take a step
When I feel You leading me
Isn�t that crazy?"

Starting over with Alice's Compilation.


"Close my eyes and hold my heart
Cover me and make me something
Change this something normal
Into something beautiful"

Today's 10 things to be happy about:

1. Cleaning the garage
2. A brook brimming after the rain
3. Slipping a dollar to a kid
4. Sessions with old photo albums
5. Succumbing to sleepiness
6. Natural rock pools
7. Curling up in snowy linens
8. Pink twilight
9. Frittatas
10. Waiting out a sudden downpour

Hummus virgins. Possums and racoons. Nocturnal means being awake at night. God's grace is like a cookie. Great quotables.


Today's 10 things to be happy about:

1. A perfectly folded omelet
2. Stumbling upon a great Website
3. Sleeping in your socks
4. An evening cup of tea
5. A flirtatious wink
6. Snippets of conversation
7. Playing on the swings
8. Apologies accepted
9. The taste of tears
10. A good laugh

"Jeremy is very sick. We need to pray for him."

Snuggling under freshly laundered sheets. The weather. Kailoni is a cutie. Captain Underpants and the Attack of the Talking Toilets. Vanilla Almond Crunch. "Wow, and how?" Secret locations. A book each. Strong skin. George's Marvelous Medicine.




Now THIS is a monster dance:

To not be a man-pleaser. Promises of homemade spaghetti sauce. Thai Iced Coffee.


Today's 10 things to be happy about:

1. Bow ties
2. Heating a cheese Danish
3. When everything fits into a suitcase
4. Atonement
5. A kid learning to jump rope
6. Smooth wooden building blocks
7. Wisps of hair blown back
8. Making caramel apples
9. A tape of your favorite TV show
10. Blank verse

Men and their incompetency to pack. Otter pops. Abominable weather. Oreo Blender Blast. It begins today, I say.

Today's 10 things to be happy about:

1. A blue Le Creuset casserole
2. Sitting in a tree house
3. A just-jeans day
4. Colorful street markets
5. Picking apples
6. Clarifying your priorities
7. Salt air blowing through open windows
8. Admiring someone�s bookshelves
9. Pavarotti�s greatest hits
10. A dark autumn evening

The history section at Borders. The night air. A despondent heart. Matilda. To lead a purposeful life. I feel like crying these days.

Lunner with Carolina. "Grotto." One cherry only. Monaco, Morocco, Monte Carlo. Andrew Chon, John Song, Jason Higgins, and Aaron. Yvette and I are hot commodities. Being prude to the core. Cartilage piercings. A talented artist and a beautiful photographer. Deep appreciation for smart and intelligent guys. Green apples. All the firsts: kisses, crushes, loves, boyfriends, and sexual experiences. The importance of how a guy hugs you. Loving the simple things that life offers. Truth and Kings. To the past, the present, and the future. Let us live happily ever after.

"Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.
Because of his great power and mighty strength,
not one of them is missing."
Isaiah 40:26

"We gather strength from sadness and from pain... Each time we die we learn to live again."

Nessun maggior dolore,
Che ricordarsi del tempo felice
Nella miseria.
-Dante

Rubio's. I'm A Manatee. Getting lost amongst children's books. Aimless walks in the still of the night.

.:I called because I've missed the sound of your voice:.

The tingly feeling in the pit of your stomach during that initial conversation with a boy. The unraveling of a sad story. A spontaneous and wonderful talk with a good friend. Being blessed and rebuked at the same time. Perplexity at being a "beacon." Six final options.

"Welcome back, walls."

I know now what I need to do.

Look not at what you have lost, but at what you have left.



No more "What If?" questions...



... at least for this moment.