Alex Hyun is a cheater. He is also stupid enough to leave something cooking on low heat and not realize it until four hours later.

"Music is about the only thing left that people don't fight over."

"The piano is the foundation, and that's it."

-Ray Charles, What I've Learned.

Today's a nice morning.

My Life.

"Say Hello, Dad."
"Hello."

We have a God-shaped hole in our hearts.

Life's little things do not steal away the joy, but instead help to affirm it.

Psalm 37:23-24.

���� and ����. Yellow watermelon. Twix Brownies. Sister Act.

Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines. Artery clogging 1/2 lb Hot Pockets and Pringles. Generalization of girls' reactions.

Sleeping with freshly washed sheets. =]

FicB picnic. Kristy and my inventive way of cutting watermelon while Karen and Kwansoo stood gawking. Very ugly and painful sunburn after holding the lifesaver tray for a mere 15 minutes. Sewon's ���ܸ� way of splashing water on herself.

Being locked in and then abandoned. Pier 39 for fireworks. Kevin's plaid shirt from the 8th grade. Royee's burnt, prominent proboscis. French fries and ketchup. Mini-doughnuts. Frigid, numbing wind. The picturesque sky. Basile's photos. Stupid bets. Jane Kim's sweatshirt pocket and arm. Girls huddling around Stephen. Oohing and aahing.

Kristy's race against the hordes of people. Criminal sister. Smelling Royee's armpit. Realization of how truly girlie Stephen is.

Dennys. Strawberry milkshake. Ice water. Scary movies. Unfortunate bad luck. Feeling so old with the little ones.

Aloe vera is my new best friend.

I was re-reading some of my old blog entries and I came across this quote that I took off Royee's aim profile.

"When the world pushes you to your knees... you're in the perfect position to pray."

I've changed. This quote now denotes a different and new meaning.

Kwansoo showed me his pictures from our Las Vegas trip and they made me happy. He then gave me some of his doubles and that made me happier.

My �� is amazing. I do not deserve anything that she does for me.

I will cling to whatever it was that made me care for you in the first place.

It's not even the first day and I feel like I've failed already. The worthless disappointment that I am. =[

Low clouds and misty gray fog. ���ö� ���. Worshipping with 1st, 1.5th, and 2nd generation Koreans. Simple praise songs sung in Korean revealing a much deeper meaning. Praising Him at the top of my lungs. It not being about what we will become, but about who we are right now before Him. It not being about how high on a hill we'll be at, but simply being the light right now. Being at peace for the first time in two weeks. Coming back and desperately wishing that this will not go away. Struggling to know who my real friends are. Sheepish feelings for writing lengthy and vulnerable emails to indifferent recipients.

Do people intentionally try to be jerks?

Cassiopeia.

Sometimes you just have to take risks. Otherwise you'll end up risking more.

-Walking at night. Being punished. Selfish trip to Treasure Island. Hung up phone call. Invisible cut on ankle.
-Palace of Fine Arts. Very illegal turns. Columns resembling those of the Vatican. Amazing reflection of the columns in the clear, dark water. Five swans. Hearts. Chicken carcasses. Little clouds.
-Cold bench. Moving star. Wandering skunk. 1st level, 2nd level, 3rd level. Are your 3rd level worriments only intended for God to know? Stupid humans with their stupid human concerns. Frozen toes and chattering teeth.
-LBL. One deer. Mood lightening with the sky. Rainbow haze. Begrudging assertion of particular friendship. Lion's head. A bear. An elephant's butt. God-given friends and stupid humans.

-Crowded streets. Dancing kids. Happy families. Having to decide where to sit.
-Shoe falling off. The Hulk. Hollywood Homicide. Golden Grahams. Laughing by myself.
-"How Do You Talk To An Angel?" by The Heights on repeat.

-Turtle Cake from Andronico's. Blue candles. Sewon's own green box from Tiffany & Co. "Marvelous Light" by Derek Webb.
-Analyze That. Performing 4 illegal driving maneuvers in approximately 3 minutes. Hitting the curb and parking in a space that was half-red. Ever-present favorite pen.
-Foot warmer and defroster combination. Big big muscles. Acrid nose hair-burning Chinese food. Being mad but not really. Snowboarding socks. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. Hot white guys. Tap water in bowls and tea. Mount Rushmore and playing pool. Infomercials. SNL and Conan.
-Old school episode of Batman and Robin. Cutout purple nose on Batman's black mask. Slow cars in high-speed chases. Hydraulic Trash Crusher. Penguin and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

Me: only if u marry [name of chick]
Person: that's not fair
Person: you get the better end of the deal
Person: hahhaha
Me: ooh
Me: im telling
Person: don't tell her i said that
Person: i'll die

Today's 10 things to be happy about:

1. jigsaw puzzle dust
2. a growing bonsai
3. lounging by a pool all weekend
4. barbecued food
5. plunging waterfalls
6. golf tournaments
7. the mutter of distant thunder
8. the ice cream truck
9. a spotless car*
10. a baby napping in the shade

*I loathe Solar Car Wash. Today was the worst car washing experience I have had in years.

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-LBL trip. Trying to figure out the map of campus. The Big Dipper. Random little lights.
-Winning the third game of Monopoly I've ever played with approximately $12,000. Kwansoo throwing money at me like I was a prostitute. Feeling lonely like Scrooge must have felt. "These magic moments..."
-How Now Brown Cow.
-Bruised middle knuckle. Stinging papercut on pinky finger.
-Costco rendezvous. Hidden Valley Light Ranch Chicken Wrap with Guacamole.
-O'ding on excessive amounts of caffeine.
-Rib-eye steak. New York strip steak. Sirloin steak. Filet Mignon. Prime Rib.
-OG Korean music and memories. Dirty windows. Cold feet.
-Sudden sad mood swings and need for contemplation and solace.