외할머니(84) & 친할머니(90).


Porto's Bakery.


Allison(4) & Kristin(10).

Hooray for snail mail. =]

Currently feeling... burnt out, exhausted, unable to function, harsh realizations, regrets.


I've literally lost track of the days of the week.



But it rained tonight.

I hope when all this is over, I never set foot on the UCLA campus again.





And what are the chances of getting stung by a DEAD bee?! Sigh.

Goodbye, Mr. Cadillac. Despite the many misfortunes whenever we were together, it has been quite a memorable sixteen years.

Halfway mark. Exactly sixteen days.



Rally on, rally on.

I finally had CCC in Westwood. It was good, but did not, however, live up to its hype. I was very disappointed.



EuroChow, however, I simply adored.

Never mistake my kindness for weakness.

And so it begins...

Who the hell goes drinking on a Monday night? There is no one who is less photogenic than Mike Choe. My new friend who I cannot be friends with. Forever tainted as a monster thanks to E.Shin and A.Chon. Dunhills. A bruised hand from the tambourine. 최승권. Bruised knees, Hite, and the thumb game. My Barbie girl and me for life.

I hope you have a lot of fun. Don't forget what 엄마 said. Hahaha. =]

Chocolat.

Ack. Inundation.

"til Oct. 1st..."

I feel as if I'm re-living my senior year all over again.



Literally, in some sense.

"Know the true value of time; snatch, seize, and enjoy every moment of it. No idleness; no laziness; no procrastination; never put off till tomorrow what you can do today." -Lord Chesterfield.

My current track record while completely crunked is 0-2.


However, I did get to do something I never even thought I was capable of doing.

It will be extremely difficult to find another drama better than "내 이름은 김삼순."



"Dance as if no one is watching;
Love as if you've never been hurt before;
Sing as if no one is listening;
Work as if you don't need the money
Live as if it's your last day on earth."

"Everything is not going well without you."



Facking piece of shat.

The Confessions of Max Tivoli by Andrew Sean Greer.



Tivoli, København [August 28, 2004]

Roscoe's. I miss our waiter with the sexy radio voice.

1600+ emails. I keep thinking that my email account at Calmail is going to disappear but oddly enough, it still works. I couldn't bear to see the mailor demon's warning that my email quota is approaching the allotted 100M given, so I've recently started deleting my old email. I came across my emails from senior year and all of a sudden, a rush of memories came back to me. Damn, I was so stupid back then. I have emails I exchanged with people who I don't even speak to anymore, and back then, I remember spending a lot of time and thought in constructing some of those emails. Emails mean CRAP. Especially since they have the ability to be erased permanently and be cast into oblivion. I can't believe how different everything is now. I wonder whatever happened to snail mail...

I met up with some high school friends this past weekend. I forgot how much I like them. I also realized how I might not be the greatest at keeping in touch. Two speculated that I must have died and were offended that they weren't invited to my funeral. I rebutted by questioning the possibility of my marrying a tall and rich bloke who whisked me off to an exotic haven far far away. They weren't amused.


I resolve to do better. But to be frank, there are some who I wouldn't mind ever seeing again. Hahaha.


I now quote one of my friends:


"there are a lot of guys in this world. hot guys, pretty guys, God-forgot-to-add-in-a-dose-of-handsome-but-dumped-in-the-great-humor guys, God-forgot-even-the-humor-but-didn't-forget-the-outstanding-personality-quality guys, God-has-forsaken-you guys... same as there are all types of girls.

but in the end, i always feel the worst for really hot guys that are super short. it's like baking a cake but intentionally withholding the icing.

i guess God really is fair. in a way."


Cake without icing...

"Most likely to... date a guy for his good looks."


"But I dated *********!!!"



Oh, I thought I was going to die.

"...빵 아져시..."

"누구요?"

"빵? Bread?"

"Oh, Brad?"


And then I commenced to spend the next fifteen minutes trying to teach my co-worker the difference between the two words. The slight nuances of the English language.

Julie Lee.

Sharon Kim's 23rd Birthday: The Spanish Kitchen, Raffles L'Ermitage, Blink.

Berkeley Rose Gardens. =]

Kristy showed me her pictures from college and seeing her pictures brought back even more memories that I had completely forgot. Since the only pictures I have in my possession are now from senior year, freshman through junior year have ceased to exist for me, save for a few tidbits of precious experiences that have significantly influenced me. How quickly one can forget...

Berkeley was bittersweet. It held too many forgotten memories that I must have suppressed in my subconcious mind because everything I looked at, everywhere I walked or drove to, and everywhere I ate at, all triggered the sensation of something familiar and a memory of an experience or a person that I didn't even realize I had forgotten. I successfully avoided certain people, and couldn't help but run into others. My memories of Berkeley were different from the reality and I realized all the more how everything does change, whether I want it to or not. I hated how Berkeley no longer was as it once was for me, and yet I've now accepted that Berkeley will always be an unforgettable pit stop along this journey which is life.



The food however, did not disappoint. A chronological order of the delicacies I consumed in Berkeley: Naan N Curry, Alameda Sushi House, Brazil Cafe, Hog Island Oysters, Virginia's Bakery: Pink Champagne Cake, Cha Am, Cheesesteak Shop(twice), Genova Delicatessen, Smart Alec: cornbread, Fat Apple's: Lemon Chiffon Cake, and Foster's Freeze.



Additional memories: Finding the best parking ever at Berkeley Bowl with Hannah. Our failed endeavor to find beef jerky at Harris Ranch. Having the freshly baked bread with our tri-tip sandwiches at Brazil Cafe. The #33 Santa Nella exit with the cheapest gas prices ever at 76 with $2.25 a gallon. Driving over 1000 miles in one weekend. Hiding behind the floral department at Safeway to avoid certain people. Hannah stealing ribbon from Safeway. The ugliest Genova sandwich ever. And I can't remember anymore.




I seriously haven't laughed so hard in such a long time. =]

Molasses Clove Cookies from the Dancing Deer Baking Co.

"you can vent whenever you need to."



Lying bastard.

"I just wanna sock him in the face." -Joseph.


Hahahaha.



I wish we didn't have to grow up.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

"Courage brother, do not stumble, though thy path be dark as night: There is a star to guide the humble, Trust in God, and do the right. Let the road be dark and dreary and its end far out of sight. Face it bravely, strong or weary. Trust in God, and do the right." -Norman Macleod.

"Faith is not a thing which one 'loses,' we merely cease to shape our lives by it." -Georges Bernanos.

Resetting for five.

The class of 2005's senior banquet came and went, and looking at everyone's pictures, I can't help but reminisce about senior banquet last year and being flooded with an entourage of various emotions and feelings. My life sucked ass that specific time of the year: my thesis was nearly due and I remember I could care less about particular things, people, and certainly did not feel up to the partying and joyous occasion that was the mood of senior banquet. It's sad how little I remember of banquet and how quickly times pass... I remember stupid things like being seated next to someone who I had avoided all four years of my college experience, I remember not talking to once close friends the entire night, I remember my beautiful small group girls, I remember that I only got to read the personalized postcards once before that and my pictures were all taken away from me. So over time, I've learned not to place such value in sentiment and feelings, because I've had too many experiences where they were too fleeting. Sometimes I think I've gotten over it, but other times I know I haven't.

"Even though we get older, we're still stupid. We're dumber, longer." -Boy.