What sometimes scares me is how quickly I'm getting older (and not necessarily wiser) as everyone younger seems to be growing faster.

Why the rush? What's the hurry? I'd like to live on a farm and churn my own butter. And pick fruit.

My second day back from a prolonged hiatus was naturally spent reacquainting myself with the past. Albeit a bit embarrassing, it's times like these I regret not having been more dedicated. But there's some major comfort in knowing that some things have remained the same... family during the holidays, friends who've been here through thick and thin, and of course, random excited utterances about food.

Easter effs > Easter eggs.

God created us to live with a single passion: to joyfully display his supreme excellence in all the spheres of life. The wasted life is the life without this passion. God calls us to pray and think and dream and plan and work not to be made much of, but to make much of him in every part of our lives. - John Piper.


One step at a time...

Okay, so that didn't last long. In fact, it was over the next day.


But these games are starting to wear thin and I just don't know what they mean.


I get as giddy as a junior high-schooler when I talk to the cute, younger guy from my section. I'm hopelessly pathetic.


Thanksgiving's this week and for the first time in my life, I'm not thinking about the dinner itself but just trying my best to stay thankful despite impending finals. I have good moments and bad moments.


On the last day of crim, we had a guest speaker who was incarcerated for the past 25 years for a murder he didn't commit. He's fighting back after teaching himself the law while in prison and his case is pending in front of the USSC. It kinda puts life into perspective...

My fingers and hands have been tingling with pain and in the mornings I can barely squeeze my hands into fists. It doesn't help that my typing is abysmal, so I have to concentrate extra hard to make sure my note-taking makes sense. How sad.


I will never take a 5'9" 남자 for granted again. God has definitely been humbling me in law school.



언제 까지 버틸 수 있을까? 참 궁금하다...

My poor neglected blog. I thought I'd never see the day where I'd stop writing in this thing, but a better part of the year has gone by since my last entry.


"Though the questions still fog up my mind
With promises I still seem to bear
Even when answers slowly unwind
It's my heart I see you prepare
But it's now, that I feel, your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip, washing away my pain

I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see, I still believe"


I believe...

... that Brian will get better and the family will be healed.
... that friendships can be mended and that I will have the chance to talk to him again.
... that though I desperately want to be taken care of, I'm already in the hands of the ultimate Provider and Caretaker.
... that God spoke to me yesterday, and for once, I was able to listen.


"I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge — that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." - Ephesians 3:16-19.

"Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.
Because of his great power and mighty strength,
not one of them is missing.

Why do you say, O Jacob,
and complain, O Israel,
"My way is hidden from the LORD;
my cause is disregarded by my God"?

Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."

Isaiah 40:26-31


I remember the first night we arrived in Phnom Penh, Cambodia and riding in the back of the truck. I remember the bumps, the dust, and animals croaking. I remember singing old school praise songs and gazing up at the thousands and thousands of brightly shining stars, scattered throughout the endlessly black night. I remember the awe and wonder of seeing something so beautiful and grand. And I remember the sudden realization that He alone is greater than even this...

Happy 1 Year Anniversary to ME! =]


Praise God for His unending love, mercy and grace.

"After my all has been run through
I'll give what's left of me to You
Knowing in time I'll be renewed
And walking again

Teach me to know that I need You
Simply because, Lord I need You
Not cause I'm tired from what I do

So before my all has been run through
I'll give the whole of me to You
Wait for Your will in all I do
And walk in Your strength."


A new focus and a new vision for my remaining time here in Korea. There's a grander purpose in everything, and I need to open my eyes and heart to allow Him to show me.

Cafe Harue waffles are delicious.

Happiness is...

-a light dusting of snow over everything.
-reading The Princess Bride.
-watching 현 play computer games.
-snuggling under a cozy blanket.
-establishing real, God-centered friendships.
-an already peeled tangerine.
-Tim Oh and his 된장찌개-encrusted lips.

2008

I don't know why, but I'm filled with peace and excitement for this upcoming year. No doubt this year will present its fair share of drama and hardship, but rather than be afraid and overthink everything, I'm going to resolve to allow God to take control by depending on Him more.

Though there's been this funk hovering over me since I returned back to Korea, I'm trusting that there is a reason for this, and that in due time, it will all be revealed. In the meantime, I am so thankful for the time I've spent here and the remaining time I have left here... it is seriously only by the grace of God that I was brought out here to Korea and stripped of my familiarities and comforts to rediscover Him on His terms.

So with that, I eagerly anticipate that this year will be particularly different, and in all that may happen in 2008, I pray that I will continue to be obedient to His calling.

Happy New Year! =]

"Like the appearance of a rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the radiance around him. This was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the LORD. When I saw it, I fell facedown, and I heard the voice of one speaking." - Ezekiel 1:28

"If you wait for a man to give you a seat, you'll never have one! If they don't give you a seat at the table, bring in a folding chair." - Shirley Chisholm.

"It was then I realized it was all too perfect. Here in this fisherman 's camp, I had found the magazine and the ad. I looked over at the old sycamore log. There I had asked God to help me get two hound pups. There were the pups, rolling and playing in the warm sand. I thought of the old K. C. Baking Powder can, and the fishermen. How freely they had given their nickels and dimes.

I looked up again to the names carved in the tree. Yes, it was all there like a large puzzle. Piece by piece, each fit perfectly until the puzzle was complete. It could not have happened without the help of an unseen power." – Where the Red Fern Grows.

"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around." - Leo Buscaglia.

"Nothing worth doing is completed in our lifetime;
Therefore, we are saved by hope.


Nothing true or beautiful or good makes complete sense in any immediate context of history;
Therefore, we are saved by faith.


Nothing we do, however virtuous, can be accomplished alone;
Therefore, we are saved by love.


No virtuous act is quite as virtuous from the standpoint of our friend or foe as from our own;
Therefore, we are saved by the final form of love which is forgiveness."

- Reinhold Niebuhr.

Atrocity

I can't believe Del Taco raised their prices for their Chicken Soft Taco. My heart is breaking. 50% more chicken my right numb toe.

"Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?" -Evan Almighty.




An opportunity has presented itself and I just can't seem to shake the feeling that I can't let this one go.

Cambodia!