Saturday, August 31, 2002
yesterday was probably the weirdest day ever... *sigh* so much freakin drama and so many weird incidences all happening too quickly in a short span of time. it really made me sad. it's crazy to see/hear/witness drama and hurt in the world. even if it isn't directly inflicted upon you, it still hurts and stuns you when a loved one is involved. argh. i'm so sick of it. i don't get it. i really don't.
Monday, August 26, 2002
it amazes me to see how quickly time can pass by and a thing that i was once dedicated to seems to lose its significance. and i plod through life forgetting, until one day it suddenly hits me and i am reminded of a fervor i once possessed. needless to say, this blog of mine is an example of just this. *sigh*
so life has majorly been sucking for me these past ...days? ...weeks? i don't know. i've lost track. i suppose it's the constant emotional rollercoaster ride of life that i've been on. or maybe i suffer from bipolar disorder, which makes me switch from being high to low in a matter of minutes. unsurprisingly, i feel like crap. and i've been wondering what the hell is wrong with me. i guess it can seem like i'm wallowing in my own self-pity and maybe that could be one aspect, but right now, it's more of self-disgust and repulsion.
school's starting tomorrow and unlike the excitement i used to feel, it's one more of fear, dread, and apprehension. it's a sign showing the inevitable: i am going to be an upperclassman and with that, there comes certain liabilities. in so many different aspects this fact holds true. it's a sign to take responsibility and leadership for the underclassmen, it's a sign showing that time is running out, and it's a sign showing that one is growing up to face the real world. i feel like this past summer up here was extremely unproductive and wasteful. true, i worked and took two classes, but what i could have done in addition to that, was definately not enough. i wanted to do so much more, and maybe cuz i was being too selfish, i ended up with what feels like nothing. with a couple of exceptional cases, i don't think there was much good to this summer. i saw everyone at church today, and everyone looked so different with this refreshing air about them and excited looks in their eyes. and i just stood there observing, and enviously wishing for that same feeling. i've become indifferent to so many things. *wait... scratch that.* i struggle with emotions so much that the only way i deal with them is to become emotionless and stoic. and i think and i think and i get mad for thinking so much.
i have no idea what to expect this semester. but it's what pastor eugene said today... how only God is the one who remains true. i'm realizing this more and more daily... that everyone flakes, that everyone stumbles, and everyone is weak. everyone and everything will fail but God. what scares me to death is that despite knowing this and experiencing all this crap, it is still so difficult for me to place what i'm feeling towards God. "Turn to God and away from sin." i'm at the midpoint where im half-turned to both and i desperately don't know which way to turn. i place too many expectations on people and when they hurt or disappoint me, i fall. and i fall hard. and to recuperate, i become hardened and i put up my infamous wall that blocks everyone out and doesn't allow anyone to come through. the way i justify this is that people that hurt me are not deserving to know what goes on in my life. i mean... why should they? maybe it has to do with my stubborn pride, but i feel like if i don't get to hold onto this one defense mechanism of mine, to protect me from the big, bad world out there... then everything is lost and i really am nothing. yet i know that i should not do this, but i cannot help but do so. *correction* i am too stubborn to do so. "Turn to God and away from sin."
so life has majorly been sucking for me these past ...days? ...weeks? i don't know. i've lost track. i suppose it's the constant emotional rollercoaster ride of life that i've been on. or maybe i suffer from bipolar disorder, which makes me switch from being high to low in a matter of minutes. unsurprisingly, i feel like crap. and i've been wondering what the hell is wrong with me. i guess it can seem like i'm wallowing in my own self-pity and maybe that could be one aspect, but right now, it's more of self-disgust and repulsion.
school's starting tomorrow and unlike the excitement i used to feel, it's one more of fear, dread, and apprehension. it's a sign showing the inevitable: i am going to be an upperclassman and with that, there comes certain liabilities. in so many different aspects this fact holds true. it's a sign to take responsibility and leadership for the underclassmen, it's a sign showing that time is running out, and it's a sign showing that one is growing up to face the real world. i feel like this past summer up here was extremely unproductive and wasteful. true, i worked and took two classes, but what i could have done in addition to that, was definately not enough. i wanted to do so much more, and maybe cuz i was being too selfish, i ended up with what feels like nothing. with a couple of exceptional cases, i don't think there was much good to this summer. i saw everyone at church today, and everyone looked so different with this refreshing air about them and excited looks in their eyes. and i just stood there observing, and enviously wishing for that same feeling. i've become indifferent to so many things. *wait... scratch that.* i struggle with emotions so much that the only way i deal with them is to become emotionless and stoic. and i think and i think and i get mad for thinking so much.
i have no idea what to expect this semester. but it's what pastor eugene said today... how only God is the one who remains true. i'm realizing this more and more daily... that everyone flakes, that everyone stumbles, and everyone is weak. everyone and everything will fail but God. what scares me to death is that despite knowing this and experiencing all this crap, it is still so difficult for me to place what i'm feeling towards God. "Turn to God and away from sin." i'm at the midpoint where im half-turned to both and i desperately don't know which way to turn. i place too many expectations on people and when they hurt or disappoint me, i fall. and i fall hard. and to recuperate, i become hardened and i put up my infamous wall that blocks everyone out and doesn't allow anyone to come through. the way i justify this is that people that hurt me are not deserving to know what goes on in my life. i mean... why should they? maybe it has to do with my stubborn pride, but i feel like if i don't get to hold onto this one defense mechanism of mine, to protect me from the big, bad world out there... then everything is lost and i really am nothing. yet i know that i should not do this, but i cannot help but do so. *correction* i am too stubborn to do so. "Turn to God and away from sin."
Wednesday, August 07, 2002
i went white water rafting this past weekend with small group... which i guess i can say has been the highlight of this summer. i had a pretty good time, especially for someone who has the physical competence of a ten year old and who despises the sun as much as she despises getting dirty. oh, and my closest encounter with death also made the experience quite memorable. haha. i don't think i'll ever forget being submerged completely underwater and being dragged down the rapid appropriately coined "the mother," all the while staring up at my right shoe, tangled in the raft, refusing to let me go free and float away safely.
needless to say, after that exciting event, the rest of the time spent rafting rather dragged and was almost tedious at times. however, there were parts along the river where we just floated along, letting the river's natural currents take our little raft of me and josei wherever it pleased, and that was quite nice. later josei and i were talking and we were both amazed that something so simple as a river could wield so much power over us. it made me realize how little of my life is actually controlled by me. in the large scope of things, we are so very insignificant and our existence can be obliterated if fitting. it was so easy to be swept away by the river's current... especially during the crazy mother. no matter how much josei or i struggled against the current, we were no match for the river's strength. *watch me now connect my thoughts* thinking back always puts things into perspective for me. our lives are already destined to run a certain way according to God's plan. basically, there's no use fighting Him cuz we don't control our lives and we abide by what He says. He is the current that carries us where He sees fit and our efforts to go against that are utterly futile. everything else will be fine if we just lie back and let God lead the way. it's essential to have that faith... just like even though i was simultaneously snorting up nasty river water and swallowing mad chunks of it and thought i was going to die, i also had faith that the lifeguard man would come and rescue me. which he did. so hooray for him. =] *moment of profound silence*
needless to say, after that exciting event, the rest of the time spent rafting rather dragged and was almost tedious at times. however, there were parts along the river where we just floated along, letting the river's natural currents take our little raft of me and josei wherever it pleased, and that was quite nice. later josei and i were talking and we were both amazed that something so simple as a river could wield so much power over us. it made me realize how little of my life is actually controlled by me. in the large scope of things, we are so very insignificant and our existence can be obliterated if fitting. it was so easy to be swept away by the river's current... especially during the crazy mother. no matter how much josei or i struggled against the current, we were no match for the river's strength. *watch me now connect my thoughts* thinking back always puts things into perspective for me. our lives are already destined to run a certain way according to God's plan. basically, there's no use fighting Him cuz we don't control our lives and we abide by what He says. He is the current that carries us where He sees fit and our efforts to go against that are utterly futile. everything else will be fine if we just lie back and let God lead the way. it's essential to have that faith... just like even though i was simultaneously snorting up nasty river water and swallowing mad chunks of it and thought i was going to die, i also had faith that the lifeguard man would come and rescue me. which he did. so hooray for him. =] *moment of profound silence*
Thursday, August 01, 2002
an account of the different things i've done that's taken forever to write about cuz im lazy:
a cote: a small, cozy restaurant i went to with judy and sewon sometime last week. entrees were served tapas style, meaning that portions were small and it was a given to order several different entrees to share amongst one's party. the food was relatively tasty, despite the minute portions and costly prices. after ordering four entrees and two slivers of cheese, the three of us concluded that we were quite content in our tummies: we weren't brimming with fullness, but it was just enough to be satisfied.
crepevine: delicious as always. i recommend the rockridge, which consists of strawberries and nutella and a generous scoop of vanilla bean ice cream on the side. sewon and judy both declared that the rockridge was very pleasing to their palettes as well.
great kahn: for those unfortunate enough to have not yet tried this exquisite mongolian bbq place... *sigh* i feel utterly sorry for you. the set price of 6.45 may at first be a little appalling, but for the amount you get, it is well worth the price. there are four types of meat to choose from: beef, chicken, lamb and pork, and you are able to pack in however much you want to eat inside a bowl. from there, you select from a wonderful array of veggies such as carrots, broccoli, onions, and mushrooms to add to your meat. then u choose how to flavor it, with sauces from mild to fiery hot sauces, oyster sauce, teriyaki sauce, and other msg-laden goodies. once chow-mein like noodles are piled high on top of all this craziness, you then proceed to walk to a separate line where the food is cooked on a large circular grill/pan sorta thingie by men walking around the grill with elongated chopsticks. shake on some sesame seeds, grab a bottle of sriracha sauce... and you're golden. =D
y tu mama tambien: [not affiliated with food at all, but i added it cuz it deserves as much merit as i am giving these restaurants] foreign film i watched with ylee and sayuri, my two ex-roomies. not a movie i'd recommend for people who can't even say the word sex w/out blushing or thinking that they have to go wash out their potty mouths with soap. bottom line: there's a whole lot of obscene sex scenes that even took me by surprise [ie the opening scene] and lots of other naughty vulgarities that may stun some people. however, by watching this film is not to say that i'm some sex-obsessed maniac all into pornographic films. there's an incredible underlying theme about friendship and truth that is extremely refreshing and simultaneously, somewhat disturbing and unsettling. needless to say, one needs to look beyond all the flashes of naked skin and sexual innuendos to grasp this concept, but once it is found, it is quite profound and it enables one to re-evaluate the meaning of friendship in a context different from what is typically expected. or~ if you're like ylee and take the film for its face value of sex, sex, and more sex... i'm sure you'd walk away from the film feeling a lil bit more physically moved rather than emotionally. *wink wink*
a cote: a small, cozy restaurant i went to with judy and sewon sometime last week. entrees were served tapas style, meaning that portions were small and it was a given to order several different entrees to share amongst one's party. the food was relatively tasty, despite the minute portions and costly prices. after ordering four entrees and two slivers of cheese, the three of us concluded that we were quite content in our tummies: we weren't brimming with fullness, but it was just enough to be satisfied.
crepevine: delicious as always. i recommend the rockridge, which consists of strawberries and nutella and a generous scoop of vanilla bean ice cream on the side. sewon and judy both declared that the rockridge was very pleasing to their palettes as well.
great kahn: for those unfortunate enough to have not yet tried this exquisite mongolian bbq place... *sigh* i feel utterly sorry for you. the set price of 6.45 may at first be a little appalling, but for the amount you get, it is well worth the price. there are four types of meat to choose from: beef, chicken, lamb and pork, and you are able to pack in however much you want to eat inside a bowl. from there, you select from a wonderful array of veggies such as carrots, broccoli, onions, and mushrooms to add to your meat. then u choose how to flavor it, with sauces from mild to fiery hot sauces, oyster sauce, teriyaki sauce, and other msg-laden goodies. once chow-mein like noodles are piled high on top of all this craziness, you then proceed to walk to a separate line where the food is cooked on a large circular grill/pan sorta thingie by men walking around the grill with elongated chopsticks. shake on some sesame seeds, grab a bottle of sriracha sauce... and you're golden. =D
y tu mama tambien: [not affiliated with food at all, but i added it cuz it deserves as much merit as i am giving these restaurants] foreign film i watched with ylee and sayuri, my two ex-roomies. not a movie i'd recommend for people who can't even say the word sex w/out blushing or thinking that they have to go wash out their potty mouths with soap. bottom line: there's a whole lot of obscene sex scenes that even took me by surprise [ie the opening scene] and lots of other naughty vulgarities that may stun some people. however, by watching this film is not to say that i'm some sex-obsessed maniac all into pornographic films. there's an incredible underlying theme about friendship and truth that is extremely refreshing and simultaneously, somewhat disturbing and unsettling. needless to say, one needs to look beyond all the flashes of naked skin and sexual innuendos to grasp this concept, but once it is found, it is quite profound and it enables one to re-evaluate the meaning of friendship in a context different from what is typically expected. or~ if you're like ylee and take the film for its face value of sex, sex, and more sex... i'm sure you'd walk away from the film feeling a lil bit more physically moved rather than emotionally. *wink wink*
Wednesday, July 31, 2002
introducing... my buddy called roy.
amazingly enough, this oddity of a person is indeed a living, breathing twenty year old male. *gasp*
despite his boyish charms and deluded visions of his greatness, poor misguided foolio roy does have good intentions at heart and is overall, a very endearing person. hurray for roy. =]
b o y 52 (2:12:36 PM): there once was a story
b o y 52 (2:12:43 PM): about how i got my life turned upside down
b o y 52 (2:12:47 PM): so sit right back and relax
b o y 52 (2:13:01 PM): of a story of how roy became the prince of bel-air
b o y 52 (2:13:55 PM): and thats the story of how roy became the prince of bel-air
b o y 52 (2:13:58 PM): gyeaH!
b o y 52 (2:18:50 PM): wudduP wuDDUP wUDDUP yAll, this is dJ rOY-DawG heRe uP in Da HoUUse..roLLin-boLLin-weSsiDE repResenTIn..donT fRONT yA'LL!
b o y 52 (2:18:58 PM): gYEAh
Kpxgrlx012 (2:19:38 PM): oh wow
Kpxgrlx012 (2:19:43 PM): thats lovely roy
b o y 52 (2:20:34 PM): u think so?
b o y 52 (2:20:40 PM): i made that all up by myself
Kpxgrlx012 (2:21:01 PM): wow
Kpxgrlx012 (2:21:03 PM): pure genius
b o y 52 (2:21:35 PM): *bow*
Kpxgrlx012 (2:21:42 PM): *applause*
b o y 52 (2:21:43 PM): donT fRONT!
b o y 52 (2:21:59 PM): *struttin*
Kpxgrlx012 (2:22:06 PM): *gag*
Kpxgrlx012 (2:22:12 PM): *throwing tomatoes*
b o y 52 (2:22:25 PM): *catching and eating tomatoes*
b o y 52 (2:22:29 PM): *struttin*
amazingly enough, this oddity of a person is indeed a living, breathing twenty year old male. *gasp*
despite his boyish charms and deluded visions of his greatness, poor misguided foolio roy does have good intentions at heart and is overall, a very endearing person. hurray for roy. =]
b o y 52 (2:12:36 PM): there once was a story
b o y 52 (2:12:43 PM): about how i got my life turned upside down
b o y 52 (2:12:47 PM): so sit right back and relax
b o y 52 (2:13:01 PM): of a story of how roy became the prince of bel-air
b o y 52 (2:13:55 PM): and thats the story of how roy became the prince of bel-air
b o y 52 (2:13:58 PM): gyeaH!
b o y 52 (2:18:50 PM): wudduP wuDDUP wUDDUP yAll, this is dJ rOY-DawG heRe uP in Da HoUUse..roLLin-boLLin-weSsiDE repResenTIn..donT fRONT yA'LL!
b o y 52 (2:18:58 PM): gYEAh
Kpxgrlx012 (2:19:38 PM): oh wow
Kpxgrlx012 (2:19:43 PM): thats lovely roy
b o y 52 (2:20:34 PM): u think so?
b o y 52 (2:20:40 PM): i made that all up by myself
Kpxgrlx012 (2:21:01 PM): wow
Kpxgrlx012 (2:21:03 PM): pure genius
b o y 52 (2:21:35 PM): *bow*
Kpxgrlx012 (2:21:42 PM): *applause*
b o y 52 (2:21:43 PM): donT fRONT!
b o y 52 (2:21:59 PM): *struttin*
Kpxgrlx012 (2:22:06 PM): *gag*
Kpxgrlx012 (2:22:12 PM): *throwing tomatoes*
b o y 52 (2:22:25 PM): *catching and eating tomatoes*
b o y 52 (2:22:29 PM): *struttin*
Thursday, July 18, 2002
whoa~ it's been a while since i've updated. haha. crazy. i used to be so dedicated to this too. so much has happened too... it makes me wanna say everything just for the sake of catching up between all these days. but then, that'd just take way too long and it won't be entertaining for anyone else so i'll just proceed with the past few days.
this past weekend was vbs. wow. it was incredibly fun and i was really blessed by not only the kids but also with working with the different teachers and parents. =] good stuff i say. the kids are so dang cute they make me smile just thinking about them. =] hurray. it really makes me contemplate now if i should commit to children's ministry in the fall or not... or if i should still stick with awana. of course, this is all depending on who needs more teachers and stuff but yeah... if there was the opportunity to choose, i wonder what i would do. i know i was all gung ho awana since like day one, but now, after vbs, i really don't know. wow. i'm really glad i did vbs though. i learned a great deal... feels good. =]
hmm~ what else. i got sick which is pretty dang crazy cuz i never get sick. but when i do... it hits me like *wham* and then i recover relatively quickly. ooh. and when i am sick, my germs never infect anyone else. *shrug* interesting lil tidbit about myself i thought i'd add in. aren't i fun? =] so i'm a lot better today but yesterday i was quite a repulsive sight. i sounded like a man and i was congested and achy and just ick all over. ohh~ and i was up all the previous night interspersed with little naps doing my stupid midterm essay for english. *shudder* it was horrible i tell you.
so i have about 2.5 more hours to kill before i get off work. and then... *BOWLING*!!! how exciting. too bad i suck majorly and i'm kinda sad cuz i think people will make fun of the way i bowl. but andy chon somewhat consoled me by saying that he heard taryn's bowling technique is really bad and funny. so hopefully she's worse than me so that she can get the buttend of all the jokes. haha. oops. that's mean huh? =[ hmm~ i hope we're both exceptional bowlers so that everyone else will be blown away by our mad skills. =D
this past weekend was vbs. wow. it was incredibly fun and i was really blessed by not only the kids but also with working with the different teachers and parents. =] good stuff i say. the kids are so dang cute they make me smile just thinking about them. =] hurray. it really makes me contemplate now if i should commit to children's ministry in the fall or not... or if i should still stick with awana. of course, this is all depending on who needs more teachers and stuff but yeah... if there was the opportunity to choose, i wonder what i would do. i know i was all gung ho awana since like day one, but now, after vbs, i really don't know. wow. i'm really glad i did vbs though. i learned a great deal... feels good. =]
hmm~ what else. i got sick which is pretty dang crazy cuz i never get sick. but when i do... it hits me like *wham* and then i recover relatively quickly. ooh. and when i am sick, my germs never infect anyone else. *shrug* interesting lil tidbit about myself i thought i'd add in. aren't i fun? =] so i'm a lot better today but yesterday i was quite a repulsive sight. i sounded like a man and i was congested and achy and just ick all over. ohh~ and i was up all the previous night interspersed with little naps doing my stupid midterm essay for english. *shudder* it was horrible i tell you.
so i have about 2.5 more hours to kill before i get off work. and then... *BOWLING*!!! how exciting. too bad i suck majorly and i'm kinda sad cuz i think people will make fun of the way i bowl. but andy chon somewhat consoled me by saying that he heard taryn's bowling technique is really bad and funny. so hopefully she's worse than me so that she can get the buttend of all the jokes. haha. oops. that's mean huh? =[ hmm~ i hope we're both exceptional bowlers so that everyone else will be blown away by our mad skills. =D
Friday, July 05, 2002
Monday, June 17, 2002
yay~ i'm at work again... pulling an 8 hour shift tonight. woohoo. i know y'all are happy for me. but yeah... so this is my usual time to blog at work, after working "productively" for the first half of my shift. too bad i've wasted the past 3.5 hours playing this online game from shockwave called text twist. AUGH. my brain is fried. it's literally throbbing right now and i'm dizzy. thanks eugene shin who introduced me to the game today while he visited me at work. [i think it was more cuz he needed to use the internet... but i'll give him the benefit of the doubt. hehehe] yeah~ so while i was playing... one of the rcc's called osamu [not osama] came over and got interested in it and then... it was game over. argh. enough said. this guy is so insanse... ahahah he got so addicted, we played for 2.5 hours straight. aigoo. so i kinda didn't feel like updating. but then, i realized that i shouldn't disappoint my blog-reading audience of five people including myself. hehe. plus some kinda fun things happened this weekend that is worth remembering...
this past friday i went to watch bourne identity with kristy, karen, and judy. and all i gotta say is that matt damon is one fine looking hunk of a man. i was salivating on friday, but i think i learned to keep my desires and emotions under some quasi control. wOw. =D ahaha i'm grinning as i'm typing this. ahahaha aren't i so ugly?? =P ahahaha. woohoo~ matt damon is .:HOT HOT HOT:. (_(_) (_I_) (_)_) *cha cha cha* =D
on saturday... i decided to cook my 15 het-ban that were on the brink of expiring and kristy, karen, jane kim and i GRUBBED. eek there was so much stinkin food. and then julie oh came and later kevin and judy came too... and there was still so much. hahaha. feeding people makes me so happy. =D but yeah... after the girlies left, roy came over and him and julie left to her place to study for their ba midterm today. so i was left with kevin chiang and judy which was cool cuz i don't really know kevin and i haven't talked to my booty for a while. ahahaha oh geez kevin's weird. what a hilarious odd boy. hahaha. so i had lots of fun talking to him and judy until julie got mad that i wasn't studying and she and roy came over to regulate. but then we started laughing and talking some more. anyways... essentially, saturday was supposed to be reserved for studying and i gabbed the whole day away. but i totally didn't mind cuz i was loving finding out the little oddities and quirks that everyone has.
yesterday, sunday... i went to san jose taqueria after church... oh WOW they give you a lot and it was dang yummy. haha. so i was happy again. =] and then naturally i napped and woke up around 5/6ish panicked cuz i didn't start my paper. so i was working on it kinda half-heartedly until about midnight or so when judy julie and i went to visit andy chon and kevin chiang bang. that proceeded to a session of "let's hate on jayne" led by andy chon. i kno he's never gonna read this so i can be as brutally honest as i want. what a freakin meanie. =[ it's not my fault i was cursed with dumbo-like flappy ears that protrude out the side of my head like a man. =[ how sad that he uses my deformities against me to make fun of me... boo. what a poop. but i grudgingly won't hate on him too much right now cuz he was nice enough to let me use his printer to print out my essay that was due today... speaking of which~ i was up till 6:30 this morning working on the stupid thing. eek. and by that point i was so tired i couldn't focus well while i was typing... so i don't really recall what i mentioned in my paper and if what i did mention was deserving of any merit. blah. =/
today at work three people visited me today. i am very thankful for these people who stopped to say hello and entertained me for a bit. =] yay~ you guys made my day... hehe. thanks! =D
ooh. i just pulled out a pubie. =D yayyy. today is getting better and better by the minute.
this past friday i went to watch bourne identity with kristy, karen, and judy. and all i gotta say is that matt damon is one fine looking hunk of a man. i was salivating on friday, but i think i learned to keep my desires and emotions under some quasi control. wOw. =D ahaha i'm grinning as i'm typing this. ahahaha aren't i so ugly?? =P ahahaha. woohoo~ matt damon is .:HOT HOT HOT:. (_(_) (_I_) (_)_) *cha cha cha* =D
on saturday... i decided to cook my 15 het-ban that were on the brink of expiring and kristy, karen, jane kim and i GRUBBED. eek there was so much stinkin food. and then julie oh came and later kevin and judy came too... and there was still so much. hahaha. feeding people makes me so happy. =D but yeah... after the girlies left, roy came over and him and julie left to her place to study for their ba midterm today. so i was left with kevin chiang and judy which was cool cuz i don't really know kevin and i haven't talked to my booty for a while. ahahaha oh geez kevin's weird. what a hilarious odd boy. hahaha. so i had lots of fun talking to him and judy until julie got mad that i wasn't studying and she and roy came over to regulate. but then we started laughing and talking some more. anyways... essentially, saturday was supposed to be reserved for studying and i gabbed the whole day away. but i totally didn't mind cuz i was loving finding out the little oddities and quirks that everyone has.
yesterday, sunday... i went to san jose taqueria after church... oh WOW they give you a lot and it was dang yummy. haha. so i was happy again. =] and then naturally i napped and woke up around 5/6ish panicked cuz i didn't start my paper. so i was working on it kinda half-heartedly until about midnight or so when judy julie and i went to visit andy chon and kevin chiang bang. that proceeded to a session of "let's hate on jayne" led by andy chon. i kno he's never gonna read this so i can be as brutally honest as i want. what a freakin meanie. =[ it's not my fault i was cursed with dumbo-like flappy ears that protrude out the side of my head like a man. =[ how sad that he uses my deformities against me to make fun of me... boo. what a poop. but i grudgingly won't hate on him too much right now cuz he was nice enough to let me use his printer to print out my essay that was due today... speaking of which~ i was up till 6:30 this morning working on the stupid thing. eek. and by that point i was so tired i couldn't focus well while i was typing... so i don't really recall what i mentioned in my paper and if what i did mention was deserving of any merit. blah. =/
today at work three people visited me today. i am very thankful for these people who stopped to say hello and entertained me for a bit. =] yay~ you guys made my day... hehe. thanks! =D
ooh. i just pulled out a pubie. =D yayyy. today is getting better and better by the minute.
Saturday, June 15, 2002
i had a really good talk with a friend last night for about two hours... so i wanted to say thanks since i can't really articulate my gratitude in spoken words that well. i have to admit, i was surprised at the extent that i was able to confide in this person and to the extent that this person understood me and was able to help me. sorry~ i know that it sounds like i have little trust in people. maybe it's the deep skepticism and low expectation rule that i carry with people. but yes... i was pleasantly surprised by how much this buddy was able to empathize with me. big thanks. i was encouraged immensely and as a result had a pretty good day today. it's a great feeling to find someone who you can relate to... especially if it's due to your matching personalities and beliefs. haha. i thought i was the only crajee one out there... =T jk. i only hope that i can be as good a friend as you were to me last night. thanks again for calming my out of control nerves...
wow. God has truly been showing me awesome signs of his great love for me. i am very blessed to have such beautiful people in my life. =]
"If I could give you one gift my friend, I would give you the ability to see yourself as others see you, so you would know how very special you are." -Unknown
wow. God has truly been showing me awesome signs of his great love for me. i am very blessed to have such beautiful people in my life. =]
"If I could give you one gift my friend, I would give you the ability to see yourself as others see you, so you would know how very special you are." -Unknown
Thursday, June 13, 2002
wUtdAbUnG (5:21:42 PM): oh my gosh
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:21:47 PM): ?
wUtdAbUnG (5:21:49 PM): i just read your blog
wUtdAbUnG (5:21:52 PM): hahahahahahhahaa
wUtdAbUnG (5:21:56 PM): youre so funny!!
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:21:59 PM): ? which entry?
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:04 PM): the last one
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:09 PM): the boobie one?
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:12 PM): isnt it amazing?
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:15 PM): i seriously was cracking up so hard
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:27 PM): its not that , its the "cluck: that got me
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:31 PM): i cant believe her
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:32 PM): oh
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:33 PM): haha
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:40 PM): awww u jsut made me day kristy!
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:45 PM): hahahaahaha
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:50 PM): so did you jahnd
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:54 PM): ahhhh
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:57 PM): that was a good laugh
wUtdAbUnG (5:23:25 PM): freekin hillarious
it is awesome how friends are such a God-sent gift. i've had such a crappy day today with what seems like everything is crashing down on me, and all of a sudden, when i feel like i'm at my lowest... comes sauntering along a friend who i am blessed to have. =]
"Friends are God's way of taking care of us." -Unknown
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:21:47 PM): ?
wUtdAbUnG (5:21:49 PM): i just read your blog
wUtdAbUnG (5:21:52 PM): hahahahahahhahaa
wUtdAbUnG (5:21:56 PM): youre so funny!!
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:21:59 PM): ? which entry?
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:04 PM): the last one
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:09 PM): the boobie one?
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:12 PM): isnt it amazing?
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:15 PM): i seriously was cracking up so hard
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:27 PM): its not that , its the "cluck: that got me
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:31 PM): i cant believe her
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:32 PM): oh
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:33 PM): haha
jAhNdEeShEkKi (5:22:40 PM): awww u jsut made me day kristy!
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:45 PM): hahahaahaha
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:50 PM): so did you jahnd
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:54 PM): ahhhh
wUtdAbUnG (5:22:57 PM): that was a good laugh
wUtdAbUnG (5:23:25 PM): freekin hillarious
it is awesome how friends are such a God-sent gift. i've had such a crappy day today with what seems like everything is crashing down on me, and all of a sudden, when i feel like i'm at my lowest... comes sauntering along a friend who i am blessed to have. =]
"Friends are God's way of taking care of us." -Unknown
hmm... so i dunno. i think i'm crashing from my happy stage cuz right now i feel kinda blah and contemplative. like a sad realization of something. i really do think i suffer from bipolar disorder...
there's very few people in the world that can be trusted completely... or that i can trust i suppose. i have this sort of feeling like what's the point in confiding in anyone cuz in the end, somehow they screw you over and betray that confidence. is that being too cynical? or am i being cautious? i remember i had a convo kinda related to this with a good friend a while back and basically it was about how i tend to build up this wall around me... and it's hard to reach me cuz of this huge emotional barrier. and she concluded that the wall was stupid and that she was gonna break it down. hehe. wow. i haven't had such an honest, open talk like that in a while. it's weird... cuz even as i'm chatting online to different people right now i feel like the person chatting isn't who i really am at all. odd. i guess that's kinda what eugene meant in his blog bout how online conversations have that kind of effect. i'm an exemplary model of his spiel on aim conversations. there's no sympathy for me.
anyways... back to this wall concept. for me... i consider it as a defense mechanism. i know i'm being selfish, but this is something i feel like i need to do in order to protect myself from the big, bad world out there. like why do i have to keep putting myself out there to the rest of the world so that in the end what happens is that i'm the one getting screwed? life ain't fair... and i know it isn't. and i know that i shouldn't just give up and completely lose myself to hide behind this great thick wall i've built... but sometimes... and recently, more often than not... i honestly feel like what's the freakin point. i'm sick of trying... and even though i'm sick of it, that scares me. cuz then it's like i've given up on everything in life and i'm dead in many aspects.
*sigh*
i read this off my friend's profile today... man... i haven't talked to him forever. it's astonishing to see how quickly time can pass by without me thinking twice about someone i once considered a friend. and then... it's amazing how a random emotion or memory can trigger something inside me and make me reminisce and wonder how the same person has been. and it jolts me in such a way that sometimes i'm ashamed to be me...
"they say to always reach for the stars...
but what if they can't be found?"
there's very few people in the world that can be trusted completely... or that i can trust i suppose. i have this sort of feeling like what's the point in confiding in anyone cuz in the end, somehow they screw you over and betray that confidence. is that being too cynical? or am i being cautious? i remember i had a convo kinda related to this with a good friend a while back and basically it was about how i tend to build up this wall around me... and it's hard to reach me cuz of this huge emotional barrier. and she concluded that the wall was stupid and that she was gonna break it down. hehe. wow. i haven't had such an honest, open talk like that in a while. it's weird... cuz even as i'm chatting online to different people right now i feel like the person chatting isn't who i really am at all. odd. i guess that's kinda what eugene meant in his blog bout how online conversations have that kind of effect. i'm an exemplary model of his spiel on aim conversations. there's no sympathy for me.
anyways... back to this wall concept. for me... i consider it as a defense mechanism. i know i'm being selfish, but this is something i feel like i need to do in order to protect myself from the big, bad world out there. like why do i have to keep putting myself out there to the rest of the world so that in the end what happens is that i'm the one getting screwed? life ain't fair... and i know it isn't. and i know that i shouldn't just give up and completely lose myself to hide behind this great thick wall i've built... but sometimes... and recently, more often than not... i honestly feel like what's the freakin point. i'm sick of trying... and even though i'm sick of it, that scares me. cuz then it's like i've given up on everything in life and i'm dead in many aspects.
*sigh*
i read this off my friend's profile today... man... i haven't talked to him forever. it's astonishing to see how quickly time can pass by without me thinking twice about someone i once considered a friend. and then... it's amazing how a random emotion or memory can trigger something inside me and make me reminisce and wonder how the same person has been. and it jolts me in such a way that sometimes i'm ashamed to be me...
"they say to always reach for the stars...
but what if they can't be found?"
Wednesday, June 12, 2002
i'm at work again... and incredibly bored. like... shoot me out of my misery kinda bored. =[ i can't even play spider solitaire for like two consecutive hours anymore. gosh~ how depressing. so after i checked the status of everyone's blogs... i then proceeded to check everyone's profiles and away messageys. and one of them was my friend's... who i haven't really talked to in a while... probably for at least six months or so. but anyways... so i decided to check her webpage and see how she's been doing [she was away btw... cuz otherwise i would have talked to her. uhmm... no wait. i take that back.] so i was looking at her website and this girl is crajee. like she's on some radio show or something where i guess she has her own show and talks about sex and relationships and stuff. whoa there buddy. and like on air i guess guys call in and she supposedly has such a sexy voice that they always wanna hook up with her. so she gives out her website addy to anyone who asks. something like that. anyways... on her webpage she has this message board thingie where anyone can post messageys and one of them is from this anonymous guy claiming how much he loves my friend's boobies. hahaha crajee. and then she was saying in her journal how her boobie size is a 36D cup. i was stunned. GEEEZ!! those are some HUGE tig ol bitties. can you imagine? i think i'd fall over from the weight. *clunk* wow.
i just wanted to share my astonishment with the rest of the world. i am sure i have enlightened all your lives significantly. thank you for reading. =P
i just wanted to share my astonishment with the rest of the world. i am sure i have enlightened all your lives significantly. thank you for reading. =P
oh. i forgot to add this earlier. hehe =P
so there's this place down south in cypress called albert taco's. and it has some stinkin good food... ahahha especially their carne asada fries. disregard the fact that they probably have no nutritional value to them at all. oh, but DAYAM are they good. my sis used to eat them and make like moaning noises while she ate them. ahahahaha was that a little too much information? =] haha just wanted to show the extent of how delicious they are.
when i was home for like the 1.5 days, i went and got some of those fries and on my away messagey i said that i was eating them... and danny, who was still up here at the time imed me and was like oh wow... yum... etc etc. well~ he wouldn't say oh yum persay but you get the point. this is like an orange county delicacy. ahahaha. so i was talking to him online today and i asked if he had them yet cuz this is like a must-get whenever you go home item. and he was like yeah~ i had them twice already... the second time being last night at midnight. and then he said he ate them with billy ku. meaning billy drove all the way from glendale to cypress in the middle of the night to eat these carne asada fries.
ahahaha i think THAT exemplifies true epicurean skills...
and then i find out earlier this evening that billy ku just drove up to berkeley to visit. ahahaha this boy cracks me up too. talk about a spur of the moment, fly by the seat of your pants kinda guy... how fun that must be. to just up and leave to your intended destination without a second thought. crazy... =]
so there's this place down south in cypress called albert taco's. and it has some stinkin good food... ahahha especially their carne asada fries. disregard the fact that they probably have no nutritional value to them at all. oh, but DAYAM are they good. my sis used to eat them and make like moaning noises while she ate them. ahahahaha was that a little too much information? =] haha just wanted to show the extent of how delicious they are.
when i was home for like the 1.5 days, i went and got some of those fries and on my away messagey i said that i was eating them... and danny, who was still up here at the time imed me and was like oh wow... yum... etc etc. well~ he wouldn't say oh yum persay but you get the point. this is like an orange county delicacy. ahahaha. so i was talking to him online today and i asked if he had them yet cuz this is like a must-get whenever you go home item. and he was like yeah~ i had them twice already... the second time being last night at midnight. and then he said he ate them with billy ku. meaning billy drove all the way from glendale to cypress in the middle of the night to eat these carne asada fries.
ahahaha i think THAT exemplifies true epicurean skills...
and then i find out earlier this evening that billy ku just drove up to berkeley to visit. ahahaha this boy cracks me up too. talk about a spur of the moment, fly by the seat of your pants kinda guy... how fun that must be. to just up and leave to your intended destination without a second thought. crazy... =]
Tuesday, June 11, 2002
i'm in a very jolly mood today. =] hehe. do u ever get one of those days where everything just feels good? that's me right now. heehee =] i think this is largely due to the fact that the weather today is very nice... i didn't feel icky at all. =]
anyways~ so i changed my template for my blog. i wanted this one when i first started off cuz the colors looked so yummy but andy chon already had it so i refrained myself. but oh wells... i'm jolly today so i felt like i should make my blog more pretty too. =] the colors remind me of sherbert...lime, tangerine, and lemon. yummy. that little chunk of blue in the corner can be raspberry... like the icee kind. bah. but that doesn't fit too well with my citrus motif i got going on here. *shrug* still yummy. i love how i can related anything to food. hahaha ooh~ and with this format, i can write a lot more and it looks like i didn't write that much cuz its not as condensed as my other format. hurray!
so what did i do today... it was kinda hard to wake up today but i overcame it and went to class. and then i ended up sitting next to my gsi which made me all pressured to act like a good student and copiously take notes. but i kept dozing off so i was doing the whole rocking back and forth action of my body and the dropping head but then suddenly jerking it back up motion. eek. ahh wells.
class ended and i went home and took a wonderful nap for about 2 hours. it was fun cuz i had the window open and there was this slight breeze blowing gently on my face while i slept. haha. i love sleeping like that. ooh and on a tangent... i love sleeping and having my pillows not get hot. yanno what i mean? i hate it when the weather's hot so your pillows get hot and you gotta keep rotating them around and around so you can find that little bit of coolness you can desperately cling to until a few seconds later that part also gets hot and you gotta rotate again.
and now i'm at work. even walking to work wasn't too bad cuz of the nice weather. =] ohh but then this horrible incident happened. i was strolling down dwight from capri and right when i passed hillegass i got this horrendous whiff of some nasty smell. so i was like eh? and i looked around but there wasn't anything really that could have caused the smell. so i disregarded it and then continued to walk and then the foul smell hit me smack up my nostrils. and THEN i realized... there was this truck kickin it in the middle of the street and it had this pipe thingie coming from it leading to those houses that they're building on dwight between regent and hillegass. i have no idea what was pumped out or into that truck and honestly i don't wanna know. so i held my breath and after i passed that truck i breathed, and was happy again. =]
i didn't eat at all yet since last night when i had jack in the crack with kristy and rob at like one am [bad bad me] so i went to cheese and stuff and got pink lemonade, a turkey on sweet roll with monteray jack cheese, and pretzels. and i'm chomping away on them now. =] yummy yummy i'm very content =D
what else what else... ohh i just talked to my sister online. she's very excited cuz she just went with my mom to get her new celly. haha. and then my mom went to go eat dinner at tony roma's with sharona's mom and danny's mom and other mommas from our goo yuk. ahaha how cute is that? =] and so my sis and my dad are gonna go eat dinner at vip. just them two. =] hehe. man~ i wish i was there. hehe so i told my sis to tell my appa hi and he said to write him an email in korean. man... that's going to take forever cuz typing in korean takes so much time. =T oh wells. hehe. that should be interesting =]
ohh... brb i gotta go peepee.
ohh and for some reason today i was chatting with a lot of people online [well, not even a lot, but a lot for me cuz normally i end up just sitting and reading people's profiles] and there's all these interesting things i wanted to record.
look what nice thing hannah said to me. awwww =D
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:03:58 PM): oh ar eyou doing legal studies?
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:01 PM): are you all set?
Kpxgrlx012 (5:04:11 PM): hahaha
Kpxgrlx012 (5:04:13 PM): i guess
Kpxgrlx012 (5:04:15 PM): =/
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:30 PM): no tha's good
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:39 PM): alteast you are set and you have a direction and a path to follow
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:41 PM): it'll be all good
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:42 PM): heheh
Kpxgrlx012 (5:04:44 PM): i hope so
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:44 PM): i believe in you
k, now look at kevin's im.
Kpxgrlx012 (5:11:59 PM): whats ur other job?
preppykc (5:14:27 PM): i work some professor doing data entry on excel
preppykc (5:14:51 PM): i work for some professor doing data entry on excel
Kpxgrlx012 (5:15:04 PM): why are u typing this twice?
preppykc (5:15:20 PM): cuz i left out the preposition "for"
ahahahha. i dunno why~ but i thought that that comment was so funny. first of all, i know very few who retype their entire comments for one measly word and second of all, who uses the word "preposition" in everyday common language? hahaha what a funny fellow. i like the little oddities and quirks people have. makes them more interesting and adds to their individuality. =]
k and now, danny's im.
dank IM91 (4:27:34 PM): what u doin?
Kpxgrlx012 (4:27:49 PM): work =[
Kpxgrlx012 (4:28:56 PM): im bored
dank IM91 (4:30:37 PM): haha, go do work
dank IM91 (4:30:47 PM): ask people to visit you
Kpxgrlx012 (4:31:13 PM): no one visits me =[
dank IM91 (4:31:47 PM): u kno if i was at berkeley....i probably wouldn't visit you either
dank IM91 (4:32:13 PM): haha
Kpxgrlx012 (4:32:52 PM): i KNO
Kpxgrlx012 (4:32:53 PM): =[
Kpxgrlx012 (4:32:57 PM): how depressing
dank IM91 (4:33:30 PM): haha
dank IM91 (4:33:43 PM): unless u get some hot girls there....haha
Kpxgrlx012 (4:33:57 PM): what bout foreign chickies?
dank IM91 (4:35:47 PM): haha, naw...
dank IM91 (4:35:56 PM): i like the koreans
dank IM91 (4:37:33 PM): so yeah....u kno when to holla at me
hmm so that wasn't that funny but still... kinda interesting. actually... it's not even kinda interesting either but for some reason, i'm liking people today. i'm getting thoroughly entertained from everyone. =D
woohoo i wrote a lot =] however... it looks a lot less cuz of my new template! ahahaha. hurray hurray =]
k... time for spider solitaire. =D
anyways~ so i changed my template for my blog. i wanted this one when i first started off cuz the colors looked so yummy but andy chon already had it so i refrained myself. but oh wells... i'm jolly today so i felt like i should make my blog more pretty too. =] the colors remind me of sherbert...lime, tangerine, and lemon. yummy. that little chunk of blue in the corner can be raspberry... like the icee kind. bah. but that doesn't fit too well with my citrus motif i got going on here. *shrug* still yummy. i love how i can related anything to food. hahaha ooh~ and with this format, i can write a lot more and it looks like i didn't write that much cuz its not as condensed as my other format. hurray!
so what did i do today... it was kinda hard to wake up today but i overcame it and went to class. and then i ended up sitting next to my gsi which made me all pressured to act like a good student and copiously take notes. but i kept dozing off so i was doing the whole rocking back and forth action of my body and the dropping head but then suddenly jerking it back up motion. eek. ahh wells.
class ended and i went home and took a wonderful nap for about 2 hours. it was fun cuz i had the window open and there was this slight breeze blowing gently on my face while i slept. haha. i love sleeping like that. ooh and on a tangent... i love sleeping and having my pillows not get hot. yanno what i mean? i hate it when the weather's hot so your pillows get hot and you gotta keep rotating them around and around so you can find that little bit of coolness you can desperately cling to until a few seconds later that part also gets hot and you gotta rotate again.
and now i'm at work. even walking to work wasn't too bad cuz of the nice weather. =] ohh but then this horrible incident happened. i was strolling down dwight from capri and right when i passed hillegass i got this horrendous whiff of some nasty smell. so i was like eh? and i looked around but there wasn't anything really that could have caused the smell. so i disregarded it and then continued to walk and then the foul smell hit me smack up my nostrils. and THEN i realized... there was this truck kickin it in the middle of the street and it had this pipe thingie coming from it leading to those houses that they're building on dwight between regent and hillegass. i have no idea what was pumped out or into that truck and honestly i don't wanna know. so i held my breath and after i passed that truck i breathed, and was happy again. =]
i didn't eat at all yet since last night when i had jack in the crack with kristy and rob at like one am [bad bad me] so i went to cheese and stuff and got pink lemonade, a turkey on sweet roll with monteray jack cheese, and pretzels. and i'm chomping away on them now. =] yummy yummy i'm very content =D
what else what else... ohh i just talked to my sister online. she's very excited cuz she just went with my mom to get her new celly. haha. and then my mom went to go eat dinner at tony roma's with sharona's mom and danny's mom and other mommas from our goo yuk. ahaha how cute is that? =] and so my sis and my dad are gonna go eat dinner at vip. just them two. =] hehe. man~ i wish i was there. hehe so i told my sis to tell my appa hi and he said to write him an email in korean. man... that's going to take forever cuz typing in korean takes so much time. =T oh wells. hehe. that should be interesting =]
ohh... brb i gotta go peepee.
ohh and for some reason today i was chatting with a lot of people online [well, not even a lot, but a lot for me cuz normally i end up just sitting and reading people's profiles] and there's all these interesting things i wanted to record.
look what nice thing hannah said to me. awwww =D
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:03:58 PM): oh ar eyou doing legal studies?
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:01 PM): are you all set?
Kpxgrlx012 (5:04:11 PM): hahaha
Kpxgrlx012 (5:04:13 PM): i guess
Kpxgrlx012 (5:04:15 PM): =/
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:30 PM): no tha's good
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:39 PM): alteast you are set and you have a direction and a path to follow
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:41 PM): it'll be all good
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:42 PM): heheh
Kpxgrlx012 (5:04:44 PM): i hope so
MUsHrOoMhAnNaH (5:04:44 PM): i believe in you
k, now look at kevin's im.
Kpxgrlx012 (5:11:59 PM): whats ur other job?
preppykc (5:14:27 PM): i work some professor doing data entry on excel
preppykc (5:14:51 PM): i work for some professor doing data entry on excel
Kpxgrlx012 (5:15:04 PM): why are u typing this twice?
preppykc (5:15:20 PM): cuz i left out the preposition "for"
ahahahha. i dunno why~ but i thought that that comment was so funny. first of all, i know very few who retype their entire comments for one measly word and second of all, who uses the word "preposition" in everyday common language? hahaha what a funny fellow. i like the little oddities and quirks people have. makes them more interesting and adds to their individuality. =]
k and now, danny's im.
dank IM91 (4:27:34 PM): what u doin?
Kpxgrlx012 (4:27:49 PM): work =[
Kpxgrlx012 (4:28:56 PM): im bored
dank IM91 (4:30:37 PM): haha, go do work
dank IM91 (4:30:47 PM): ask people to visit you
Kpxgrlx012 (4:31:13 PM): no one visits me =[
dank IM91 (4:31:47 PM): u kno if i was at berkeley....i probably wouldn't visit you either
dank IM91 (4:32:13 PM): haha
Kpxgrlx012 (4:32:52 PM): i KNO
Kpxgrlx012 (4:32:53 PM): =[
Kpxgrlx012 (4:32:57 PM): how depressing
dank IM91 (4:33:30 PM): haha
dank IM91 (4:33:43 PM): unless u get some hot girls there....haha
Kpxgrlx012 (4:33:57 PM): what bout foreign chickies?
dank IM91 (4:35:47 PM): haha, naw...
dank IM91 (4:35:56 PM): i like the koreans
dank IM91 (4:37:33 PM): so yeah....u kno when to holla at me
hmm so that wasn't that funny but still... kinda interesting. actually... it's not even kinda interesting either but for some reason, i'm liking people today. i'm getting thoroughly entertained from everyone. =D
woohoo i wrote a lot =] however... it looks a lot less cuz of my new template! ahahaha. hurray hurray =]
k... time for spider solitaire. =D
Monday, June 10, 2002
i'm at work now with shinelun. [he wanted me to write that btw... he wants to be included in my blog. haha]
i had my midterm today for ls 160... there was only one essay question as the midterm, and the prof gave us study questions to prepare in advance, but i think i still screwed up. in lecture the professor kept reiterating the point that since there was going to be only one essay and that there will be more than enough time in the two hour block of time to finish, the paper was expected to be quite well written, especially in terms of organization and clarity. bah. too bad i ended up writing about 6.5 pages... there was no organization to the paper at all; i merely regurgitated what info i remembered cramming in from last night and i'm sure the overall paper was very sloppy and ineffective. *sigh* ahh wells...
i picked up jane kim from the airport today with karen and then we grubbed at alameda sushi house. mmmm~ that place is so delicious =] lip-smacking good. hehe but i was so freakin disappointed at myself cuz i couldn't finish what i ordered. normally i can eat two rolls easy, but today... i left like half of each of my rolls. aigoo~ i felt like such a failure =[ i think my heiferish skills have been lacking these days due to this freakin nasty weather... it makes me cranky and contentious and hence i cannot partake in my regular delightful act of eating an obscene amount of food. =[ but... by the time i get off work it'll be nice and cool again so i will be able to proceed with gorging myself with yummy leftover power roll and a's roll. =]
hmm what else... andy chon got me all riled up when he said he was going to visit me today at capri... i was so happy and of course honored cuz it's a privilege to have him visit [he said that himself ahahaha] but then he found out i was at work and he was like oh. so i think that means he's not going to come visit after all. =[ i thought that was kinda sad.
hahaha. my co-worker, shinelun, and i just had like a ten minute convo about cheese. lol. well, first we were talking about meat cuz he just bought a package of sandwich beef meat and was just chomping on slices of it. it looked so weird. and then i thought of karen and how she and i were talking about cheese but how she's like obsessed with it and continually just snacks on it. so i brought that up with shinelun and we were discussing about the yummy characteristics of cheese and comparing how much we can consume of it in one sitting. he claims that he doesn't like mozzarella cheese cuz he feels like it needs to be eaten with something else while i disagree cuz i love string cheese. and i was saying how i always wanted to try that string cheese with pizza sauce in the middle of it and how i love eating those babybel cheeses... the one's in the little red waxy circle =] and then he told me that his favorite cheese was chedder and that if he could, he would eat hunks of it. and then i got repulsed... i got a very vivid image of myself, sitting crosslegged on the floor with a huge hulking chunk of cheese in each hand and me just chomping large bites out of it. ugh. *shudder*
.:pause:. i just read what i just typed and i realize how freakin pointless all this was. gosh~ i can't believe i just spent all this time talking about CHEESE. ahahahaha~ i crack myself up =D
ooh... sy's gonna come up next week and visit... hence it is time for some hard core frolicking. yaaaay~ i cannot wait =D
man... just a little under one more hour before i get to finally go home. poop. 8 hour shifts are annoying. even if i did play spider solitaire for 60%, read people's blogs for 15%, chat on aim for 10%, update my blog for 10%, and do my homework assignment for 5% of the total time... it still sucks. =[
i love providing constant reminders to show how much of an idiot i can be. it is a perpetual shoe continuously wedged up my (_I_) cuz i'm always kicking myself out of disgust for my oafishness. yes. it is so fun, indeed.
i had my midterm today for ls 160... there was only one essay question as the midterm, and the prof gave us study questions to prepare in advance, but i think i still screwed up. in lecture the professor kept reiterating the point that since there was going to be only one essay and that there will be more than enough time in the two hour block of time to finish, the paper was expected to be quite well written, especially in terms of organization and clarity. bah. too bad i ended up writing about 6.5 pages... there was no organization to the paper at all; i merely regurgitated what info i remembered cramming in from last night and i'm sure the overall paper was very sloppy and ineffective. *sigh* ahh wells...
i picked up jane kim from the airport today with karen and then we grubbed at alameda sushi house. mmmm~ that place is so delicious =] lip-smacking good. hehe but i was so freakin disappointed at myself cuz i couldn't finish what i ordered. normally i can eat two rolls easy, but today... i left like half of each of my rolls. aigoo~ i felt like such a failure =[ i think my heiferish skills have been lacking these days due to this freakin nasty weather... it makes me cranky and contentious and hence i cannot partake in my regular delightful act of eating an obscene amount of food. =[ but... by the time i get off work it'll be nice and cool again so i will be able to proceed with gorging myself with yummy leftover power roll and a's roll. =]
hmm what else... andy chon got me all riled up when he said he was going to visit me today at capri... i was so happy and of course honored cuz it's a privilege to have him visit [he said that himself ahahaha] but then he found out i was at work and he was like oh. so i think that means he's not going to come visit after all. =[ i thought that was kinda sad.
hahaha. my co-worker, shinelun, and i just had like a ten minute convo about cheese. lol. well, first we were talking about meat cuz he just bought a package of sandwich beef meat and was just chomping on slices of it. it looked so weird. and then i thought of karen and how she and i were talking about cheese but how she's like obsessed with it and continually just snacks on it. so i brought that up with shinelun and we were discussing about the yummy characteristics of cheese and comparing how much we can consume of it in one sitting. he claims that he doesn't like mozzarella cheese cuz he feels like it needs to be eaten with something else while i disagree cuz i love string cheese. and i was saying how i always wanted to try that string cheese with pizza sauce in the middle of it and how i love eating those babybel cheeses... the one's in the little red waxy circle =] and then he told me that his favorite cheese was chedder and that if he could, he would eat hunks of it. and then i got repulsed... i got a very vivid image of myself, sitting crosslegged on the floor with a huge hulking chunk of cheese in each hand and me just chomping large bites out of it. ugh. *shudder*
.:pause:. i just read what i just typed and i realize how freakin pointless all this was. gosh~ i can't believe i just spent all this time talking about CHEESE. ahahahaha~ i crack myself up =D
ooh... sy's gonna come up next week and visit... hence it is time for some hard core frolicking. yaaaay~ i cannot wait =D
man... just a little under one more hour before i get to finally go home. poop. 8 hour shifts are annoying. even if i did play spider solitaire for 60%, read people's blogs for 15%, chat on aim for 10%, update my blog for 10%, and do my homework assignment for 5% of the total time... it still sucks. =[
i love providing constant reminders to show how much of an idiot i can be. it is a perpetual shoe continuously wedged up my (_I_) cuz i'm always kicking myself out of disgust for my oafishness. yes. it is so fun, indeed.
Friday, June 07, 2002
so i'm at work again and literally just came back from a crajee excursion at the jelly belly factory.
oh but before that, i gotta talk about last night. so after work last night, karen, kristy and i went to koko house where we ate lots of yummy carbs and where i got really gassy cuz i don't think i can handle much fermented things anymore. but anyways... then we went to pick roy up and went to karen's so that my buddies could partake in the exhilarating first time experience of watching moulin rouge with me. hehe i was very excited. so overall, some parts were freakin weird... like that virgin part and the beginning and stuff, but all in all i liked it =] esp the scenes with nicole kidman and ewan mcgregor. ooh la la~ they can sing. =] so yeah~ by the time that was over it was like 5 and kristy and i were trying to wake roy up to go home. and i thought it'd be clever if we pulled on one of his leg hairs to get his lazy posterior up. too bad he was already awake and when we pulled he sat up and screamed and scared the CRAP out of me. augggggh. my heart couldn't stop pounding. freakin roy >:[ and THEN... a little later when we were again trying to get him up he scared us again. =[ stupid punk. so naturally i had to regulate on this idiotic fool by pummeling him with pillows and heads of animal pillows. i got home around like 8:30 in the morning and was like hmm~ i'm gonna take a nap until 12 so i can go to price club. but too bad karen called and disrupted my slumber at 11 so that we could go to price club together. man~ it was so hard to get up. but rather than face her wrath i somehow managed and off we went to price club where i got gas and dropped off rob's pics. it was a disappointing trip however cuz i expected my pictures to be back but they weren't available yet. =[ and then we stopped by ranch 99 where karen went buck wild analyzing different types of dooboo so that she could make this dish that she says is delicious. she even went to the lengths of calling her dad up to ask what kinda dooboo is good. something bout it being silken, soft, not firm, blah blah. crajee stuff. but yeah~ so after that we went back to berkeley where we picked up roy, kristy, and rob and went to jelly belly factory.
so i was designated driver, which was cool cuz i like to drive. =] but then... i think it's in my nature or something but we got into yet another misadventure. man~ this happens everytime i go somewhere. the addition of insane traffic, the fact that we got lost, and that time was running out before the factory tour would close made my head hurt incredibly. but miraculously, we made it on time and it was fun watching how the jelly bellys get formed and stuff. i bought a bertie's botts every flavor jelly bean bag and bought a few bags of belly flops [the retarded jelly bellys] for andy chon and myself. i love jelly bellys. their colors are immensely fascinating. =]
today was quite fun cept for this pounding headyache i have now and the fact that i have work till stinkin 10. btw... there is not one single resident in here at the moment. oh wait... jk one just came in. =P luckily that big mob of indians haven't come in yet and i hope they aren't planning to today cuz i'm not really in the mood to be patient with them. hehe. and then tonight i still gotta finish unpacking and start studying for my freakin midterm on monday. eek. i calculated how much reading i have and its about 200 pages. oh joy.
i'm pooped. so i'm gonna play some more spider solitaire now. hehe. you should see me and my co-worker chiyo. that's literally alllll we do on shift. but all good. i'm not complaining at all. =P
have a nice weekend everyone. =]
aigoo~ i just dozed off... ugh~ just 2.5 more hours to go...
oh but before that, i gotta talk about last night. so after work last night, karen, kristy and i went to koko house where we ate lots of yummy carbs and where i got really gassy cuz i don't think i can handle much fermented things anymore. but anyways... then we went to pick roy up and went to karen's so that my buddies could partake in the exhilarating first time experience of watching moulin rouge with me. hehe i was very excited. so overall, some parts were freakin weird... like that virgin part and the beginning and stuff, but all in all i liked it =] esp the scenes with nicole kidman and ewan mcgregor. ooh la la~ they can sing. =] so yeah~ by the time that was over it was like 5 and kristy and i were trying to wake roy up to go home. and i thought it'd be clever if we pulled on one of his leg hairs to get his lazy posterior up. too bad he was already awake and when we pulled he sat up and screamed and scared the CRAP out of me. augggggh. my heart couldn't stop pounding. freakin roy >:[ and THEN... a little later when we were again trying to get him up he scared us again. =[ stupid punk. so naturally i had to regulate on this idiotic fool by pummeling him with pillows and heads of animal pillows. i got home around like 8:30 in the morning and was like hmm~ i'm gonna take a nap until 12 so i can go to price club. but too bad karen called and disrupted my slumber at 11 so that we could go to price club together. man~ it was so hard to get up. but rather than face her wrath i somehow managed and off we went to price club where i got gas and dropped off rob's pics. it was a disappointing trip however cuz i expected my pictures to be back but they weren't available yet. =[ and then we stopped by ranch 99 where karen went buck wild analyzing different types of dooboo so that she could make this dish that she says is delicious. she even went to the lengths of calling her dad up to ask what kinda dooboo is good. something bout it being silken, soft, not firm, blah blah. crajee stuff. but yeah~ so after that we went back to berkeley where we picked up roy, kristy, and rob and went to jelly belly factory.
so i was designated driver, which was cool cuz i like to drive. =] but then... i think it's in my nature or something but we got into yet another misadventure. man~ this happens everytime i go somewhere. the addition of insane traffic, the fact that we got lost, and that time was running out before the factory tour would close made my head hurt incredibly. but miraculously, we made it on time and it was fun watching how the jelly bellys get formed and stuff. i bought a bertie's botts every flavor jelly bean bag and bought a few bags of belly flops [the retarded jelly bellys] for andy chon and myself. i love jelly bellys. their colors are immensely fascinating. =]
today was quite fun cept for this pounding headyache i have now and the fact that i have work till stinkin 10. btw... there is not one single resident in here at the moment. oh wait... jk one just came in. =P luckily that big mob of indians haven't come in yet and i hope they aren't planning to today cuz i'm not really in the mood to be patient with them. hehe. and then tonight i still gotta finish unpacking and start studying for my freakin midterm on monday. eek. i calculated how much reading i have and its about 200 pages. oh joy.
i'm pooped. so i'm gonna play some more spider solitaire now. hehe. you should see me and my co-worker chiyo. that's literally alllll we do on shift. but all good. i'm not complaining at all. =P
have a nice weekend everyone. =]
aigoo~ i just dozed off... ugh~ just 2.5 more hours to go...
Monday, June 03, 2002
man~ the only time i have to update is at work... and it's ironic cuz that's when i should be occupied with helping the international students who cannot speak english and who i have to make repeat their questions ten times before understanding. so i get all happy and excited and read other people's blogs only to find out that they themselves have not updated at all... so i get sad. =[ boo. the only person that seems to consistently update is billy but then i don't even know if i should be reading his blog so i can't tell him how grateful i am to have his blog to read when i'm dying of boredom at work. not to say that that's the only time i'd read his blog cuz i really do read it often it's just that these days with so much other stuff going on this is the only time i get to read people's blogs. ... shut up jayne? ooh i think i will =T
so i missed class again today... *SIGH* that's two out of three days that i've missed class. i kno i kno... i'm a freakin moronic fool. man... i shoulda gone to class last tuesday... but i was so stinkin tired after our lil rendezvous at piedmont with kwan, karen, roy, roach. so of COURSE that day i missed class the professor goes and changes the stinkin room number... augh. so today i went to 166 barrows only to find that the class size has shrunken by at like 60% and that the prof has changed from a white man to an asian man. anyways... i guess this other dude wasn't at lecture either cuz he got up and left after asking someone if this was ls 160. this chick said that it wasn't and it moved to 141 leconte. so i left too and walked to leconte where i roamed up and down all of leconte looking for the room and finally, in despair, i gave up discovering that the stupid room number doesn't exist at all. so i went back to capri and looked it up online and saw that the room number is actually 141 mccone. FREAKIN. what a horrid day. i feel like kicking myself in the (_I_). blah. so then i ate to comfort myself and went to berkeley bowl with kristy and karen and then ate again at kristy's and watched charlie's angels and then came here. unproductive day what?? =P
last night was my first night at capri. karen and i ate dinner with sammy, rob, and danny and then i went home... where it was cold, dark, and smelly. gosh, it felt weird and it was kinda lonely and scary too cuz i was all by myself in this new place. =[ but then i was talking to eugene online and he made me feel so much more better by his caring and thoughtful comments on how sad of a childhood i have had cuz i've never played monopoly in my life. yes... eugene has always had the knack for saying the right thing at the right time. =P
so i missed class again today... *SIGH* that's two out of three days that i've missed class. i kno i kno... i'm a freakin moronic fool. man... i shoulda gone to class last tuesday... but i was so stinkin tired after our lil rendezvous at piedmont with kwan, karen, roy, roach. so of COURSE that day i missed class the professor goes and changes the stinkin room number... augh. so today i went to 166 barrows only to find that the class size has shrunken by at like 60% and that the prof has changed from a white man to an asian man. anyways... i guess this other dude wasn't at lecture either cuz he got up and left after asking someone if this was ls 160. this chick said that it wasn't and it moved to 141 leconte. so i left too and walked to leconte where i roamed up and down all of leconte looking for the room and finally, in despair, i gave up discovering that the stupid room number doesn't exist at all. so i went back to capri and looked it up online and saw that the room number is actually 141 mccone. FREAKIN. what a horrid day. i feel like kicking myself in the (_I_). blah. so then i ate to comfort myself and went to berkeley bowl with kristy and karen and then ate again at kristy's and watched charlie's angels and then came here. unproductive day what?? =P
last night was my first night at capri. karen and i ate dinner with sammy, rob, and danny and then i went home... where it was cold, dark, and smelly. gosh, it felt weird and it was kinda lonely and scary too cuz i was all by myself in this new place. =[ but then i was talking to eugene online and he made me feel so much more better by his caring and thoughtful comments on how sad of a childhood i have had cuz i've never played monopoly in my life. yes... eugene has always had the knack for saying the right thing at the right time. =P
Friday, May 31, 2002
so i am at work again... and there's nothing to do cuz everyone's watching the laker game. i officially moved out last nite and spent the night at karen's. haha i feel so bad cuz karen and roy have been helping me move and i have SOOO much stinkin stuff... and everything's all bulky and heavy too... ahahaha i'm surprised roy hasn't had a hernia or something with all the crap he's had to carry for me. =T mi yan roy... hehe. but yeah... man~ so everyday i've been bummin around... i haven't done anything productive all week. it feels weird. hahaha it's funny cuz me and roy keep trying to watch ocean's eleven on karen's playstation but we keep falling asleep during it. the first night we tried we fell asleep thirty minutes into it, like right when george clooney was introducing the plan to everyone and last night, i have no idea when i fell asleep... i think it was about 15 minutes from that point... like i remember i was like ooh~ i can close my eyes and listen and at one point i opened my eyes and saw julie roberts and then i closed my eyes again... and then i woke up at like 9 to hear karen and roy talking and karen frantically getting ready to go to class. hahaha. eww. i feel like such a bum =T
Thursday, May 30, 2002
i'm at work right now and i was pretty dang bored so i was reading other people's blogs, realizing that many people don't update... ie. roy, who used to update fervently hasn't done so since sunday... *gasp* hehe. that's when i realized that i should update mine... even though not much has happened or anything.
so my 36 hour trip at home was quite fun cuz i got to see my parents =] the drive up by myself wasn't too bad either cept for the times i kept dozing off... but even then that was oki cuz i had sy to call who was driving home at the same time i was driving up to cal. we were gonna meet up together to grab lunch but we didn't know the exits too well so we ended up driving past each other... haha i actually saw her across the freeway driving by me... i was talking to her on the phone and i saw her and started yelling incomprehensible gibberish in my excitement and then we drove by each other. but it was so sad cuz i'm not gonna see sy all summer cuz she's off frolicking about in japan. lucky poop. anyways... so i drove up and made it in time for potluck which was fun cuz a lot of people were there and there was a lot of good food. then i had to leave to help my sis move out of the dorms and then went back to capri for my old sg sleepover. and then my parents came up the next day and i started packing/moving my sis's stuff and my stuff to capri. and then summer school started on tuesday. i'm taking this legal studies class and it seems pretty interesting cept barrows is nice and warm in the morning so i kept conking out. and then i went to senior reception which was really fun. =] and then kwan, roach, kristy, roy, karen, my sis and i played all night. we were playing spoons and whoever got three outs had to make breakfast for everyone else and course roy naturally was the first one to get out. ahahaha. and then my sis and then kwan. but yeah~ so we had this yummmmy breakfast at karen's cuz roy cooks, and kwan cooks and karen cooks... so i ate very well. =] and naturally i didn't make it to my lecture the following day at 10am. =[ i'm a poop. i can't believe i missed the second day of class. but yeah~ and so that was yesterday and i pretty much farted around, took karen and roy to safeway, packed and moved more junk to capri and then progressed to move my stuff to karen's place cuz i have way too much junk. and today, i met with my future landlord, gave him my deposit, grubbed at alameda, watched most of clueless, am currently at work, and now i must go home and pack the rest of my stuff. aigoooooo. haha side comment: i realize that there's no one really to play with up here right now... everyone pretty much disappeared after reception ended. poop. so i've been seeing a LOT of karen and roy these days... actually every day... which is fine with me cuz i like karen. roy, however, is kinda questionable... especially around 3am when he gets freakin psychotic. hahaha i'm kidding roy... =P
so my 36 hour trip at home was quite fun cuz i got to see my parents =] the drive up by myself wasn't too bad either cept for the times i kept dozing off... but even then that was oki cuz i had sy to call who was driving home at the same time i was driving up to cal. we were gonna meet up together to grab lunch but we didn't know the exits too well so we ended up driving past each other... haha i actually saw her across the freeway driving by me... i was talking to her on the phone and i saw her and started yelling incomprehensible gibberish in my excitement and then we drove by each other. but it was so sad cuz i'm not gonna see sy all summer cuz she's off frolicking about in japan. lucky poop. anyways... so i drove up and made it in time for potluck which was fun cuz a lot of people were there and there was a lot of good food. then i had to leave to help my sis move out of the dorms and then went back to capri for my old sg sleepover. and then my parents came up the next day and i started packing/moving my sis's stuff and my stuff to capri. and then summer school started on tuesday. i'm taking this legal studies class and it seems pretty interesting cept barrows is nice and warm in the morning so i kept conking out. and then i went to senior reception which was really fun. =] and then kwan, roach, kristy, roy, karen, my sis and i played all night. we were playing spoons and whoever got three outs had to make breakfast for everyone else and course roy naturally was the first one to get out. ahahaha. and then my sis and then kwan. but yeah~ so we had this yummmmy breakfast at karen's cuz roy cooks, and kwan cooks and karen cooks... so i ate very well. =] and naturally i didn't make it to my lecture the following day at 10am. =[ i'm a poop. i can't believe i missed the second day of class. but yeah~ and so that was yesterday and i pretty much farted around, took karen and roy to safeway, packed and moved more junk to capri and then progressed to move my stuff to karen's place cuz i have way too much junk. and today, i met with my future landlord, gave him my deposit, grubbed at alameda, watched most of clueless, am currently at work, and now i must go home and pack the rest of my stuff. aigoooooo. haha side comment: i realize that there's no one really to play with up here right now... everyone pretty much disappeared after reception ended. poop. so i've been seeing a LOT of karen and roy these days... actually every day... which is fine with me cuz i like karen. roy, however, is kinda questionable... especially around 3am when he gets freakin psychotic. hahaha i'm kidding roy... =P
