Literally ran into him for the first time since last semester and I was more than a little flustered. Interesting.


K-movie caramel popcorn. 참치 김밥. 순대. 냉면. These are a few of my favorite things.

My last first day of school.

A new beginning para mi. BIG. HUGE.

Saw two rainbows side-by-side driving home on the 5.

Am I the only one sad that all the rain and storms have ended?

:resigned face:
Out of sight, out of mind. Senor, I have kicked yo ass to the curb. Be gone with you.

:sad face:
I just got home from the library after being delayed an extra 30 minutes because the 110 was closed. It normally doesn't take me too long to find an alternate route, but for various reasons, tonight happened to be the night where I drove around downtown LA twice, ended up on Sunset, and wandered around in Silver Lake until I found the 101. And throughout this most not fun ordeal, I thought that a GPS would be awfully handy. And then my tired brain reminded me that I actually do have a brand spanking new one sitting unopened in its box because I don't know yet how to use it. And then the 48 degree Fahrenheit chill crept up my feet and legs and reminded me that I also have yet to learn how to operate the heater in the new car.

:tentative happy face:
I made a promise with someone to openly share once committed and able to do so. With a thumb 도장.

Good night.

Back in college, Roymund and I once made lists of the reasons why we loved the rain. If I remember correctly, people thought we were ridiculous, particularly Roy. hahaha

I thought of yet another reason tonight. It rarely rains in LA these days, but back at Cal with all the crazy downpours and storms, I used to watch the water gush along the side of the roads into the storm drains, carrying with it filth, gunk, and trash. And no matter how gloomy and dark it was that day, the next morning would always be bright, and new, and shining. It'd be a cathartic sweeping away of the gross and ugly with the promise of better things to come.

I wish I could wash away everything that happened tonight down a similar storm drain (without subsequent pollution of the nearby oceans and rivers) and make it be gone forever. And wake up tomorrow morning, *poof* with all the ugliness gone and only excitement and happiness of what the day has in store for me.

I'm so effed for finals. And now I want a gusher.

Who knew that hearing the word, "negative," could carry such positive meaning and significance?

What sometimes scares me is how quickly I'm getting older (and not necessarily wiser) as everyone younger seems to be growing faster.

Why the rush? What's the hurry? I'd like to live on a farm and churn my own butter. And pick fruit.

My second day back from a prolonged hiatus was naturally spent reacquainting myself with the past. Albeit a bit embarrassing, it's times like these I regret not having been more dedicated. But there's some major comfort in knowing that some things have remained the same... family during the holidays, friends who've been here through thick and thin, and of course, random excited utterances about food.

Easter effs > Easter eggs.

God created us to live with a single passion: to joyfully display his supreme excellence in all the spheres of life. The wasted life is the life without this passion. God calls us to pray and think and dream and plan and work not to be made much of, but to make much of him in every part of our lives. - John Piper.


One step at a time...

Okay, so that didn't last long. In fact, it was over the next day.


But these games are starting to wear thin and I just don't know what they mean.


I get as giddy as a junior high-schooler when I talk to the cute, younger guy from my section. I'm hopelessly pathetic.


Thanksgiving's this week and for the first time in my life, I'm not thinking about the dinner itself but just trying my best to stay thankful despite impending finals. I have good moments and bad moments.


On the last day of crim, we had a guest speaker who was incarcerated for the past 25 years for a murder he didn't commit. He's fighting back after teaching himself the law while in prison and his case is pending in front of the USSC. It kinda puts life into perspective...

My fingers and hands have been tingling with pain and in the mornings I can barely squeeze my hands into fists. It doesn't help that my typing is abysmal, so I have to concentrate extra hard to make sure my note-taking makes sense. How sad.


I will never take a 5'9" 남자 for granted again. God has definitely been humbling me in law school.



언제 까지 버틸 수 있을까? 참 궁금하다...

My poor neglected blog. I thought I'd never see the day where I'd stop writing in this thing, but a better part of the year has gone by since my last entry.


"Though the questions still fog up my mind
With promises I still seem to bear
Even when answers slowly unwind
It's my heart I see you prepare
But it's now, that I feel, your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip, washing away my pain

I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see, I still believe"


I believe...

... that Brian will get better and the family will be healed.
... that friendships can be mended and that I will have the chance to talk to him again.
... that though I desperately want to be taken care of, I'm already in the hands of the ultimate Provider and Caretaker.
... that God spoke to me yesterday, and for once, I was able to listen.


"I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge — that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." - Ephesians 3:16-19.

"Lift your eyes and look to the heavens:
Who created all these?
He who brings out the starry host one by one,
and calls them each by name.
Because of his great power and mighty strength,
not one of them is missing.

Why do you say, O Jacob,
and complain, O Israel,
"My way is hidden from the LORD;
my cause is disregarded by my God"?

Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."

Isaiah 40:26-31


I remember the first night we arrived in Phnom Penh, Cambodia and riding in the back of the truck. I remember the bumps, the dust, and animals croaking. I remember singing old school praise songs and gazing up at the thousands and thousands of brightly shining stars, scattered throughout the endlessly black night. I remember the awe and wonder of seeing something so beautiful and grand. And I remember the sudden realization that He alone is greater than even this...

Happy 1 Year Anniversary to ME! =]


Praise God for His unending love, mercy and grace.

"After my all has been run through
I'll give what's left of me to You
Knowing in time I'll be renewed
And walking again

Teach me to know that I need You
Simply because, Lord I need You
Not cause I'm tired from what I do

So before my all has been run through
I'll give the whole of me to You
Wait for Your will in all I do
And walk in Your strength."


A new focus and a new vision for my remaining time here in Korea. There's a grander purpose in everything, and I need to open my eyes and heart to allow Him to show me.

Cafe Harue waffles are delicious.

Happiness is...

-a light dusting of snow over everything.
-reading The Princess Bride.
-watching 현 play computer games.
-snuggling under a cozy blanket.
-establishing real, God-centered friendships.
-an already peeled tangerine.
-Tim Oh and his 된장찌개-encrusted lips.

2008

I don't know why, but I'm filled with peace and excitement for this upcoming year. No doubt this year will present its fair share of drama and hardship, but rather than be afraid and overthink everything, I'm going to resolve to allow God to take control by depending on Him more.

Though there's been this funk hovering over me since I returned back to Korea, I'm trusting that there is a reason for this, and that in due time, it will all be revealed. In the meantime, I am so thankful for the time I've spent here and the remaining time I have left here... it is seriously only by the grace of God that I was brought out here to Korea and stripped of my familiarities and comforts to rediscover Him on His terms.

So with that, I eagerly anticipate that this year will be particularly different, and in all that may happen in 2008, I pray that I will continue to be obedient to His calling.

Happy New Year! =]

"Like the appearance of a rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the radiance around him. This was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the LORD. When I saw it, I fell facedown, and I heard the voice of one speaking." - Ezekiel 1:28