it's amazing how much crap there is to do this week. i'm getting that overwhelmed feeling again. and the fact that my stupid monitor is still not here and i gotta keep using other people's makes life a lot more complicated. it's disgusting how much i depend on the computer. this week sucks... so dang much to do. and it kinda makes me feel more hopeless cuz i'm not getting anywhere. do u ever get like that? for example, i stayed up almost the entire night studying for my stat midterm today, but when i was taking my test, i realized how ill-prepared i still was. i think i really only knew how to do like 2 of the 6 problems. =/ but yeah, sometimes i feel like what's the point of trying cuz no matter how hard i try, i feel like i'm not getting anywhere, as exemplified by my horrid performance on my midterm and just overall in many things. haha i love how i wallow in my own self-pity. i need to shut up and just keep going. you agree with me right? good, cuz i agree with me too.

my fav lil dongseng's coming up this weekend to visit. yayyyyy. i haven't seen him for the longest time, but i totally can't wait to just talk and play with him. =] i think that's one thing that'll keep me going this week... knowing that he'll be up here soon. haha i need to enlighten this lil boy on chickies though... dang hormones. i wonder if it's a high school phase or something... i used to be all namjah crazed too. ahahaha how disgusting. what a waste of time. life seemed to be so much more simpler back then... don't mind my random nostalgic thought. =T good thing pastor eugene's been speaking about relationships recently. hopefully something will sink into my stephen's chickie-crazed mind, and he'll really take pastor eugene's suggestions to heart. =]