I've been spending more time talking with my sister these days. That's always a good thing.

KSA culture show with PK and Ken Oak. Pat bing soo party at my place and watching Ken's band pore over one extra-large bowl of bing soo. Stefon Taylor is one of the nicest people I've ever met.

"If we would build on a sure foundation in friendship, we must love our friends for their sakes rather than for our own." -Charlotte Bronte.


Watching the sister gingerly step around the upper bunk bed in order to search for her book while trying her best to not wake Alice, who is contentedly sleeping in it. Alice looks happy even while she sleeps. =]

I don't like selfish people. I understand that we are all inherently selfish brats, but I'm sick of people who are flagrant selfish brats who continually make their lives take precedence over everyone else's.

Shopping with Janet, Jane and Nancy. Janet's good story. All guys are dicks. Crankiness over food deprivation being resolved by Panda Express and a root beer float. To be so emotionally and psychologically attached to food that it makes us cry or makes us extremely extremely happy. To not care about certain supposed friends any longer. Jane was French Club VP. A skirt that only I think is too short. Betsy Johnson dresses are fun and cute. Janet's teal panties. Dragging the girls to help me find tops. Nancy's favorite brown halter she kept advocating for. Genova Delicatessen. The Last Ficb. A resolution to no longer waste time.

Being sick of the same boys. No one cares about them anymore. The Porno Palace renovated with Korean movie posters. New secrets and oaths. Not having laughed so hard in such a long time. Laughing until the point of a throbbing headache, sore cheeks, and tears. Hannah's convenient recorder. Hannah's heartfelt prayer: "Thank you for this happy moment." A scary, weird, and confusing movie. Judy and Sewon being the only ones watching the scary parts.

A night for sure I'll never forget for as long as I live.

Elvin Jones Jazz Machine was AMAZING.
That's all. Words are paltry. It was music such as I have never heard before.

Elvin Jones: drums
Sherman Irby: alto saxophone
Mark Shim: tenor saxophone
Carlos McKinney: piano
Gerald Cannon: bass

"If you can't live without him, then you can't live with him."

I can't even begin to describe how much I'm going to miss nursery. Sigh. It's slowly starting to dawn on me that this is the beginning of the end.

One of the many highlights from dinner: Andy being nervous about being the only guy, finding temporary relief that Kook was there to balance out the estrogen, and then having that relief snatched away when Kook joined in the Andy-bashing and bluntly told us he thought Andy was "secretly gay."



J0hn: STUDY
J0hn: would it be funny if i had a sn named "Hanah-neem"
J0hn: and then i said, study jayne

I spoke of Calvin's lucky red rocketship underpants and Sam called me kinky.

I didn't know that tightie-whities were available in leopard or zebra-print, or that they could be made out of silk.


As Eugene Shin put so eloquently, today I got "nailed in the ass."

preppykc: i think you've matured a lot
jAhNdEe: me personally?
preppykc: weren't you kind of a superficial punk your first year?
preppykc: hahaha
jAhNdEe: ...
preppykc: at least that's the impression i got
jAhNdEe: hahaha
preppykc: when i first met you
jAhNdEe: that one day?
preppykc: yea
jAhNdEe: when i met you in teh dor,ms?
preppykc: and just all your stories

Finally doing something that I've wanted to do for the past four years.


"Andy Oppa." Listening with a different ear. A good talk with Ms. Scratchy. =]

Seabiscuit. =D Wanting to sleep once without hearing wretched little birds chirp. Delirious laughter and wheezing. Bagel bites and cookies 'n cream ice cream.

Calvin just walked me home right now. Well, after a weak and futile attempt to refuse to let him, he did. That was weird, but nice.

I've been spending my entire week in the computing center. Calvin and I joked about how we come into the center when it's light and leave when it's starting to get light again. What struck me tonight was the fact that I haven't been too lonely spending all this time by myself. My co-workers have been really great, asking me how I've been holding up, checking up on my progress every day, and Monica, my boss-lady, giving me extra munchies for sustenance. I haven't spoken with anyone who I normally speak with in a week and a half or so, but I've gotten to know my co-workers even better. I've had some great talks with them, and I realize just how much I'm going to miss them. For example, Calvin and John: relationships and going on "dates" vs. just hanging out; Kevin: about the difference between Iowa and California and how there is no racism in Iowa because everyone's only one race. I'm on one end of the spectrum in regards to culture schock while he's on the other; Calvin: music, music, music.

I listened to the same 2 songs for about 35 hours until Calvin was generous enough to let me borrow some of his songs. Thanks, Calvin. =]

My days have also become much simpler, spending 4-5 hours sleeping, 1 hour showering and getting ready, 1 hour for eating, and 16-17 hours for the center. I find that I enjoy simple days.


He always, always provides.

The Big C. One patch of sunshine hitting the water. Kevin's accurate weather predictions thus resulting in RAIN. =]

Pocket Rockets or Rocket Pockets? Befriending strangers while playing Hold Em. "I like your scales." Pills that make me act like I'm on "crack." Frozen apples, pears, and oranges. But especially icy orange slices. Realizing how much I'm going to miss these sessions next year.

"Fine Jayne, cuz you're my sugar momma."
"Did you just say sugar momma??"
"Yeah. You can be my sugar momma."
"Go away. I don't want to be your sugar momma."

Hold Em and Westcoast's chicken tomato pizza. Praise songs at 5 in the morning. Having 3 out of 4 requested songs played.

"Whenever I'm feelin' low
I call Your name (it lifts me up)
No other words feel the same
I call Your name
I call out Your name

I stopped runnin'
I stopped hidin'
'Cause now I know it was meant to be
Love so strong
Brings me to my knees"
-Clay Crosse, I Call Your Name.

And when it seems like you've hit rock bottom, all of a sudden, it doesn't seem so bad. Thanks, boys. =]

This is how rotten a person I am.

I've been stealing rolls of toilet paper from work for the past few days. Since my sister and I use about a roll every 1.5 days, I've already been forced to steal three rolls so far. Yet I perform this illegal activity with absolutely no qualms or misgivings.

jAhNdEe: gimme some inspiration
preppykc: UHm
preppykc: STUDY HARD!
jAhNdEe: ...
jAhNdEe: thanks buddy
jAhNdEe: hahhaa
preppykc: how about...
preppykc: if you STUDY hard
preppykc: you'll find a nice boy to date
preppykc: and his name will either be [blank]
preppykc: or [blank]
preppykc: hahah
preppykc: isn't that inspiring?

At work there are two bathrooms that we use. They are located in front of the elevators of Deustch Hall so that anyone who lives in the hall has access to the bathrooms.

For about a week now, one of the bathroom doors has been broken so there's only been one available. This means that all the revolting squalid hygienics of feshmen boys and girls are concentrated on only one toilet.

I had one of the most miserable urinating experiences yesterday. I went inside the bathroom, and saw that on the right side of the toilet, there was a little conglomerate pile of pubies gathered on the ground and a couple straggly ones on the seat. They were curly and light brown. I was so sad that I needed to pee. And while I was gingerly perched upon that toilet seat wrapped in three toilet seat covers, all I could do was stare at that pile and wonder what the hell the guy must have been doing to himself to accumulate that mass of pubic hair on the ground.

I realized today it was my turn to assuage any fears or doubts about small group leading. Even now I often feel like I'm at the beginning again.

Good Friday service: To taste the sweet water even amongst times of bitterness.

I like Stanford people a lot, especially the girls. I have absolutely no regrets in coming out tonight.

Speaking with various people today, I couldn't help but be jealous while listening to their struggles and dilemmas: deciding what prestigious law school to accept, debating between two Ivy League grad schools, etc. etc. And while people were sharing with me, I kept thinking to myself: "This is what you have to deal with right now? These are your worries and concerns??" Sigh. Then I would tell myself: "Shut the hell up. You know that if you were in their positions right now, you would realize how important and life-changing these struggles really are." I realized how spiteful and selfish a person I really am.

Theo from Stanford tells Jo, his younger sister, that he loves her before ending a conversation with her. When asked why he does that, he simply replied: "It's important."

"You can tell a lot about a guy or a girl if they have more friends of the opposite sex than they have of the same sex."

A wonderful heart-to-heart. It's comforting knowing that you aren't alone in seeing another side of someone that few people rarely ever see.

Fruit of the Spirit with little flock. I don't know how I ended up with so many orange slices.

Another blessing I'm thankful for: Little flock and for our transparency and honesty. =]

I was forced to buy printing pages at the library for the very first time in my college career today. And to my utter dismay, I used up every single cent within the hour.

"telling someone the truth is an act of love
forgiveness is an attribute of strength..."

What is it about popping a pimple and seeing all the pus gush out that makes it such a cathartic pastime?

Sometimes, there just aren't enough pimples.


Small group: n. One of the best things I've ever had in my life.

Senior Retreat came and went in a blur. I have much to say on it, but most likely it won't be an enjoyable read, so I decided to keep it to myself for now.




Actions always speak louder than empty words.

Rain, exactly how I need it.

Quitting work just to make it to my graduation. Knowing best what type of guy suits me. Extra condensed milk. Saving the last strawberries for me because I need the good-luck charm the most. Stupid guys and girls who act stupider because of them.

Today was one of the worser days of my life... it seemed like everything I did was completely wrong. Even though I was able to finish all the errands I needed to do, the way in which they were accomplished were in the most unsatisfactory manners possible.

I also ran into a glass door today. Luckily, I turned my head at the very last second when I realized it was glass, so I hit the door with the side of my face rather than center head-on. Unfortunately, I hit the door so hard the entire building shook, and the man inside the liquor store came out to glare at me. I walked away, stunned and disoriented, with the mocking sound of the glass rattling against the panes ringing in my head.

"Do you have any questions?"
"Yes, I am a Christian."

We celebrated my ���ҸӴ�'s 84th birthday today. In the midst of the conversation, we were talking about how my uncle has a friend in Ireland who he wanted to visit.

Uncle: "Where's Island?"
Susan: "What?"
Uncle: "Island. My friend wants me to visit him there."
Susan: "What?"
��: "Island. You know, Happy St. Patrick's Day."
Me and Susan: "Ireland?"
Uncle and ��: "Island."
Me: "I-r-e-land."
��: "I-r-e-land. Island. All Koreans call it Island."
Susan: "That's wrong."
�� (laughing hysterically): "Ireland. Island. It doesn't matter. As long as we can understand each other."

Koreans are hilarious. It was fun hearing humiliating stories from our childhoods. Apparently, my sister had difficulty controlling her bladder, and thus no one wanted to be next to her for fear that she'd pee on them. She also had yet to learn to speak properly, so she refused to speak to my ���ҸӴ� during the entire 2 months we were visiting Korea.

What is it about Korean parents and their rash decisions?

Andy Chon once told me how his dad randomly went out one day and returned home with a Kia. I remember laughing and thinking to myself how fortunate I was that my parents would never act so thoughtlessly and foolhardy.

My sister and I came home to find a new 2004 silver Camry chilling in our garage. Sigh. Such impulsive expenditures.

"You must increase, I must decrease Lord; I'll bow down and You will be adored." -Matt Redman, "You Must Increase."


To witness one completely imbued with passion and love for our Lord is very blessing and rebuking.


A voice filled with excitement and joy can make all the difference in the world.


It's slowly sinking in. The question now is, what am I going to do about it?


I wish I could make the ugly people in my life disappear.

"You have such an ugly head." =[

Popsicles. The SeaBreeze Restaurant and their soup in a bread bowl. A white heron crane, leading the way. THE most amazing view of the Pier. A black perch. Christopher's Nothing Fancy Cafe. Being treated out because that never happens anymore. Convoluted side streets. A very liberating conversation.

Ms. Nancy Kim. Spenger's and two complimentary chocolate bags filled with mango mousse and fresh berries. NRB with fun, fun people. Watching old Ficb videos, Billy's 12 days of Christmas, talking about our class, listening to Anica's two current favorite songs, and talking about politics and how we as Christians try to balance our culture and beliefs with the rest of the world's.

"I'd rather eat dog food or a dog biscuit than eat pho." -Roy Chung.

The next time Roy loses while playing poker, he willingly promised to eat dog food. Rather than pho. Imagine that.

"my whole take on friendships now is... f*ck it, watever comes watever goes."

2 hours turned into an 8-hour cooking party. Eating a whole half gallon of the lime sherbet needed for drinks, and then wanting more. Shrek, Big Momma's House, and Big Daddy. I don't think Wonnie and I are that similar. Kwansoo's under-the-breath comment about "��¥" and as always, being the only one to hear it. Dennis' ability to tie his hair into a ponytail. The funnest puppet ever. Fred's manly sweater. A huge scoop of yummy raspberry pineapple swirl sherbet. Starsky and Hutch's random appearance by Will Ferrell. "Do it." Playing Blackjack with an invisible dealer. Learning how to play Hold Em, and for once, Billy Ku being scared of me.

"If they don't see how much of a good friend I am to them, then it's just not worth it."

Yes.

A Safeway trip at 2am reveals the different lifestyles college guys and girls lead:

Guy's basket: Frozen pizzas, frozen Banquet meals, spaghetti sauce, pasta, and soda.

Girl's basket: Green leafy spinach, celery, yogurt, bananas, and grapes.

"A long time friend has come back to you." -Fortune cookie at Orchid's. =]

Bathing in the sun... just for you.

"it sounds so cheesy, but the main reason i feel we get apathetic is the whole forgetting our first love."

Today I vowed to no longer be friends with Kwansoo Jun, Carolina Park, Kristy Cho, and Roy Chung.

"The hardest part is letting go..."


One good thing about this ridiculously hot weather is the popsicles. =D

Being unable to fully appreciate a bowl of pho is a very sad experience for me.

It's hot when a guy can unabashedly cry and not feel the need to hide his emotions. I respect that tremendously.

Among Slum's top things to do with his future wife: Make ���� with her and talk all night, wash the dishes together, and slow dance together in their living room. Dang... lucky, lucky little wife.

And just because I want to tie my hubby's tie for him every morning, have the occasional pillowfight, and wash our cars together, does not mean that I am a crazy killer.

Four yellow Gerbera Daisies that brightened up my entire day.

"=) God smiles in the strangest ways."

Song #12.

"You're such a �ٺ� I bet you'd show off the umbrella you stole from me to me, huh?"


A very open and honest conversation.

b o y 52: its raining

Auto response from me: it's starting to rain. =T

b o y 52: =)
b o y 52: why the "=T" face????
b o y 52: are you betraying rain???
b o y 52: you shekki

To many these comments may seem absolutely ludicrous, but I actually felt a twinge of guilt.

It's raining. =]

I've been in a bit of a slump these past few days. It sure didn't help that the ending for õ���� ��� was one the most emotional ones I have ever seen.

Kristy is right. Last night was one of the most memorable nights I ever had. Four girls bawling their eyes out with Ms. Kristy Cho observing how each one of us cry is a pretty funny sight.

However, waking up the next morning with the repercussion of having no �ֲ�Ǯ is an absolutely horrendous sight.

Thunder, lightning, and lots of rain.


What I wouldn't give to be at the beach right now...

1. I won medium french fries from Jack in the Box. As one leading a life riddled with irony and hard-pressed luck, this is pretty darn impressive.

2. Sewon, Kristy, and I saw this huge rainbow in the sky walking from the Walgreens parking lot to church.

3. I saw Kwansoo Jun for the very first time on campus. It has been 3.67 years.

4. Janet made a very keen observation on a particular person's recent wardrobe change.

5. These "study sessions" with John are becoming increasingly very unproductive.

6. I was sad because it was extremely windy while coming home right now. But then in the midst of all that wind, it started to RAIN.

Breakfast at Rick and Ann's. Roses. Strawberry muffins. A really good onion bagel with strawberry jam and cream cheese.

Small group night recap: Dinner at the DC. Janet's place: Flan, banana pudding, chicken salad, ritz air crisps, celery and peanut butter. "An island of flan surrounded by a sea of caramel." Ding: Janet-bag and Sula-pus, Moon needing to win, "Pusi." The Dirty Mind game, and Moon thinking that it was appropriate to play it during SGN. Scattergories. Bridget Jone's Diary. Berkeley Iceland. Janet, Alice, Julie playing the trivia game where the point of the game is to make the score go up. Kwansoo's nice and slow Christian music. Inner-thigh exercises on the ice. Ellen, Moon, and me being the only three girls left.

The day after it rains is always the best. The North Reading Room. Red tortilla chips. A humiliating berating for taking too much salsa and too many chips. Scooby-Doo Pop Tarts. Good news, especially nowadays, is always something to be thankful for.


The view from my new and secret place. Beautiful, isn't it? =]

Quote of the day: "He's not clever. Only stupid things come out of his mouth."


"Studying" with John. Blackjack talk. Tent-sized umbrellas. A new definition for being "useless." John's huge golf-sized umbrella and the rain pouring and pouring, just for me. =]


"Some people walk in the rain, others just get wet." -Roger Miller.

More rain quotes: =D

"I am sure it is a great mistake always to know enough to go in when it rains. One may keep snug and dry by such knowledge, but one misses a world of loveliness." -Adeline Knapp.

"I believe in rain though there are no clouds in the sky." -Author Unknown.

"Anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain." -Author Unknown.


"I'm singing in the rain
Just singing in the rain
What a glorious feelin'
I'm happy again.

Let the stormy clouds chase
Everyone from the place
Come on with the rain
I've a smile on my face.

Dancin' in the rain
I'm happy again.
I'm singin' and dancin' in the rain."
-Gene Kelly, Singin' in the Rain.


=]

"True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable." -Dave Tyson Gentry.

"Court blocks Cooper's execution
Appeals panel grants a stay -- murder evidence to be tested"
[click and read]


"For godly sorrow produces repentance leading to salvation, not to be regretted; but the sorrow of the world produces death. For observe this very thing, that you sorrowed in a godly manner: What diligence it produced in you, what clearing of yourselves, what indignation, what fear, what vehement desire, what zeal, what vindication! ... For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds..." -2 Corinthians 7:11, 10:4.

=]

How to ascertain the will of God:

"I seek at the beginning to get my heart into such a state that it has no will of its own in regard to a given matter.

Nine-tenths of the trouble with people is just here. Nine-tenths of the difficulties are overcome when our hearts are ready to do the Lord's will, whatever it may be. When one is truly in this state, it is usually but a little way to the knowledge of what His will is." -George Muller.

An incredibly starry night.

Praying now that it won't dissolve...

"God is more interested in making us what He wants us to be than giving us what we think we ought to have. "


"Don't pray when it rains if you don't pray when the sun shines." -Satchel Paige.

Discussing penmanship and drawing caricatures. Witnessing a random act of kindness. The Life of David Gale. Mr. Luther Vandross.

"so the clouds asked me what troubled my heart...

and the moon observed that my dream had dissipated...

and the stars screamed at me that peace shall come...

and so i slowly turned to them and quietly whispered... nevermore..."

"Just let me say how much I love You
Let me speak of Your mercy and grace
Just let me live in a shadow of Your beauty
Let me see You face to face

And the earth will shake as Your Word goes forth
And the heavens will tremble and fall
But let me say how much I love You
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend

Just let me hear Your finest whispers
As You gently call my name
And let me see Your power and Your glory
Let me feel Your spirit's flame

Let me find You in the desert
Till this sand is holy ground
And I am found completely surrendered
To You my Lord and Friend

So let me say how much I love You
With all my heart I long for You
For I am caught in this passion of knowing
This endless love I've found in You

And the depth of grace, the forgiveness found
To be called a child of God
Just makes me say how much I love You
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend

Just makes me say how much I love You
Oh my Savior, my Lord and Friend."

-"Just Let Me Say" Hillsongs.

"When we take a bigger view of things, God will give us more grace and love for others. We'll find ourselves responding to the needs and to the goodness; we'll find ourselves angered by the injustice to others." -Rich Mullins, Remember to Forget Yourself.

"And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." -1 Corinthians 13:13.

"It is not how much we do, but how much love we put in the doing. It is not how much we give, but how much love we put in the giving." -Mother Teresa.

I've been thinking lately about what true love must really entail and if I am capable of such a love.

...

And what is it about boys trying so hard with baby's breath, tissue paper, and red carnations that makes them so endearing?

"How else but through a broken heart may Lord Christ enter in?" -Oscar Wilde.

"And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him." -1 John 4:16.


"I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality. This is why right, temporarily defeated, is stronger than evil triumphant." -Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

I was rebuked tonight in a way that I could have never imagined.


"This however is just one side of the story, and now I have opened my eyes and my heart to the truth, and because I have now done this I must now admit as well as acknowledge that despite all of these negative things, I am a very blessed man." -Kevin Cooper, "I Now Acknowledge."


How easily and willingly we forget...

"What? You don't think Andy's cute? Good-looking? Pretty? Handsome?"

"Umm, I think he looks like he's... aging."

"What a wonderful thing when you are so caught up in a moment when you are so lost in an experience that you forget to straighten your tie or to comb your hair. Why esteem yourself? Forget yourself. You'll have a lot more fun."
-Rich Mullins

Even though I can't change the world, I can always change my world.

Sometimes it's too difficult to encapsulate everything that you feel about a particular moment and to try to articulate that feeling into words. And during those times, I believe that it's better to just feel and bask in the sheer existence of the moment.


"The least of things with a meaning is worth more in life than the greatest of things without it." -Carl Jung.

10 things to be happy about:

1. A walk at twilight.
2. Happy, rumbling furnaces.
3. Watching a heated card game.
4. Starting a brand-new book.
5. Hiking a steep trail.
6. Warm pockets for cold hands.
7. Appreciating music.
8. Cheering yourself up.
9. Comfortable new boots.
10. Postcards from foreign lands.

After much deliberation, I finally found the perfect location for my fat guy picture.

Where else would be more appropriate than on the refrigerator door?


Small group leader's retreat. Learning to use my strengths and to do all that I can with what I have control over.

A passport today for the first time ever. Never having so much stuff in the car before. A quick ride with some good company. =]

Gene Kelly is amazing. How can one movie make you feel so happy inside?

A delicious brunch. A family event. Coffee Lovers' from Coldstones. A burst of laughter from the mother at the "Good, God" comment.

I guess I was proven wrong tonight. =]

"and why is your typing so unlike the way you talk? its like you're an englishperson writing in your journals in the 1800s about your experience with the native peoples."

Hahaha.

...

I believe that karma has led me to make my decision in pursuing my long-neglected interest in basketball. Here are my notes from tonight's game:

The Lakers always lose whenever I watch one of their games. I like Derek Fisher and his hairband. Luke Walton looks like a curly-haired Ben Affleck and although he tries very hard, he can't shoot very well. Mike Bibby looks like Dr. Evil's Mini-me. The Sacramento Kings, and not the Lakers, are #1 in the Pacific chunk of the national conference.

I also cannot wait to finally get my long-awaited foam hands. =]

Quality time spent with the mother over Dae Jang Kum. Maruki 98 cents store. Tuxie sprawling his body over ours. =]

Being called "Butterball" without the implication of being a fat piece of lard. "Bbah dah ball". A monkey-face, covered by go-goo-mah ash.

The male Jang Kum who cooks dinner for his family. =D I love my dad's throwing together all the leftovers and dousing it with cham gee rum and calling it delicious cuisine.

Some old faces at OMC: Arem, James, William, Paul. Beloved Thai BBQ: L2, Chicken pad see-ew, Pad Thai. The hunt for ice cream near the Burbank AMC theaters. In America. Eli's sexy 'do.


"Oh gaze of love so melt my pride
That I may in Your house but kneel
And in my brokenness to cry
Spring worship unto Thee."
-Hymn, Jars of Clay.

"Gratitude can transform common days into thanksgivings, turn routine jobs into joy, and change ordinary opportunities into blessings." -William Arthur Ward.

There were only a couple of things that I wished for while I was here in New York, and both of them came true.


Here's one of them:

Esther and I were coming out of Century 21 when we got caught in a little snow flurry. =D

Finding out that I can do Legal Studies 195. Wasting two hours talking with Karen about Roy. Praying that I will never be as susceptible to the affections of a guy. Buying two sweaters for $25. Ugly thermal underwear.

Young Nak EM service on who we are. Roly-poly Byung-chan. Nancy and her sister not wanting to attend service. Carnitas. 1 bite rice, 1 bite meat. Sewon and I's uselessness. Hannah and Scott. Crepes at Farmer's Market. Dispelling ideals about New York. Scott's horrible asking to take a picture. Whipped cream. Forgettting Scott's sn: spped? scoot? Sweating when arriving to LA. Chilling at Crate and Barrel. Andre's Restaurant. Free drinks and free garlic bread. Spaghetti and veggie lasagna. Cafeteria style. Cranky irritable girls from traffic and the cold. "Can we get out of here? There's so many f*n weird people here!"-Jeniffer. 8 girls in Linda's Civic. Hannah's gum. Missing the 5 N and going back home. Driving back around and going to Burbank. Odd reactions. Guy thongs. Andy and Roy rolling around in bed. Calvin and Hobbes!!! Getting smacked in the face repeatedly by Roy. Halcyon.

Drive through Downey on Firestone Blvd. Unexpected conversation at Costco. Weird smiles. House-cleaning.

LA and old friends. ��� turned into Sool-dogg. Spending half an hour deciding what to eat, only to return to Curry Factory. Hamburger steak and chicken �. Little ����. Cafe Home and the ����. Paying $10 for ���� to sing 2 songs. New York and Chicago talk and of all the good food there. Plans to meet again tomorrow. Sticker and camera touristy pictures. R. Kelly on the way home.

Thankfulness for some great times.

Grand Lux Cafe. Jo's generous attempt. Karen's unwanted open-faced curry chicken salad sandwich. Cafe Home and ���� ���, Ŀ�� �Ϻ��, and �v���. Old memories. Connect Four. Chinese checkers with Kristy, the advanced player. Linda and my preoccupation with the food. Friendly chat with Mona. Finding the perfect card. Playing with the family.

A rainy Christmas. Remembering Christ's unconditional love for us.

ū����, �ƺ�, and me at �η��� with the ���� and the �����. A boy friend nicknamed ���� who I crushed on. "�׷��� ����� ��f �߻��� ���ھ�."

Grinning foolishly at happy scenes in a movie. I want to frolick at the beach again.

I can look at the ocean forever.

Decorated houses. Driving with the windows open and the heater on. The rain.

A 4.5 hour talk. "Hey, I like punching you." Pinching, tickling, scratching, punching, prodding, and best of all, biting. The 5th wheel and getting out. Being truly happy.

Homemade cards. A very Merry Christmas. =]

Evaluting different things. The true meaning of Christmas. Making dinner for the family. Ice cream. "100 years" by Five for Fighting.

One of the quickest Costco trips ever. Not wanting to pack. Being the only person to burn mandoo. The Last Samurai. A plethora of movie candy. EZ Stop Deli's tuna sandwich. Being more emotional than before. Awkward gift-giving under the clever pretense of a vacuum. Why must things always be so awkward with Kwansoo?

Two hours of sleep. Fremont with Andy and Kwansoo. The horrible and not subtle way. Bacchus. Tri-City. Not being articulate in my descriptions and pointing to ambiguous objects under the impression that people can read my mind. Choosing things based on their aesthetics rather than level of comfort. Andy and Kwansoo like being gay lovers dressed alike and romping around the store together. Outback Steakhouse being a bust. Hometown Buffet. Awkward prayers. =[ Discussion of Chomp and perfecting the art of over-eating. Coughing and choking on food. Needing to survey the food before consumption. A boy's method is to get only one plate at a time. Over-chattiness. Winged Migration. A nap in Kwansoo's car. Lord of the Rings 3. Jenny getting too scared easily. Obnoxious comments made by Frank and Kwansoo the entire movie. Cheesy lines that made me cringe and groan. Justin McRoberts' Untitled CD. An unexpected but much appreciated DVD player. No more caffeine for a long time.

At Costco:

Nice man: Do you only have that? [pointing at my chest]
Me: What?
Nice man: Do you want to go in front of me?
Me: Huh?
Nice man: Is that all you're going to buy?
Me: Yes.
Nice man: Well, you can go ahead of me then.
Me: Really?
Nice man to woman behind me: She only has one thing. That's incredible.
Nice man to cashier woman: Can you believe it? Look at her. She's only buying one thing.
Cashier woman: Haha.
Nice man: There should be an award for this. She should be "Customer of the Month." Who goes to Costco and comes out with one thing? How did she bypass everything else?
Cashier woman: Well, maybe next time.
Me: Yes, there's always next time. Haha. Thank you. Good-bye.
Nice man: Good-bye!


At Ikea:

Little boy who looks like the little boy from Love Actually: "Mommy, what about Pepsi?"
Mommy: "That's a soda. And those are yucky."
Mommy to Grandma: "Can you take him to get some water?"

2 minutes later:
The little boy, clutching an Aquafina water bottle to his chest, and beaming while literally skipping with glee.


... Simple pleasures. =]

preppykc: hahah sewon is so your biotch!!!
preppykc: you should marry her

bCxaNgeL143: breathe in deep
bCxaNgeL143: and count ur blessings
bCxaNgeL143: and not ur curses
bCxaNgeL143: :-)

A cute and encouraging e-card from Janet. LOCKY.

"Come fly with me, let's fly, let's fly away

Once I get you up there where the air is rarified
We'll just glide, starry-eyed
Once I get you up there I'll be holding you so near
You may hear angels cheer 'cause we're together

Weather-wise it's such a lovely day
You just say the words and we'll beat the birds
Down to Acapulco Bay
It's perfect for a flying honeymoon, they say
Come fly with me, let's fly, let's fly
Pack up, let's fly away!!"

How great is Frank Sinatra? =]

3-5am Fat Guy feast: Cream cheese walnut rolls, stale soybean crisps, Ƣ�� ����, Sapporo Ichiban ���, ¥¯��� ��ġ, ��ġ��, and H�agen-Dazs Mocha Almond Fudge.

Throwing your head all the way back and laughing until the muscles on the side of your body start to cramp up and hurt.

This is the life. =]

"And how's my favorite CA doing today?"
"Hi John. Not so great, actually. But wow. Thanks for asking."

Heifer International My namesake. =]

Comfort activity: Listening to Michael Bubl� and baking English toffee bit cookies.

Determination to do what's right.


... And suddenly, everything is a tiny bit clearer.

Bay Street with Nancy, Fred, Kenneth, and Sewon. No more Rubio's for a while. My secret santa. =] Rolling around and not studying. Justin McRoberts. The storm. =] Dae Jang Kum: rather wanting to get hit 100 times. Mandoo.

Sushi House with Nancy. =] Walking in the rain. Chardonnay with Roy. Nancy's Christmas party. 3 shots plus/minus one. Jajnet taking pictures forever. Talking with Roy and finding that Andy and Kwansoo left me. Promise of more future talks. To rainy days. 25 to 21. Kwansoo saying that I reek of alcohol. =[ A random Safeway trip. I don't understand Andy Chon. One cup of water and promising to return it before winter break. An emotional night. What have I done wrong now??

snobunnynk (4:15:06 AM): dont GO to capri
snobunnynk (4:15:11 AM): thye're like vampires

A stunning new discovery: Every car has what I've coined the "engine thermostat." It informs the driver of the temperature of the car's engine. For example, on a cold night such as this, the "engine thermostat" is under the C(old), indicating that the engine has yet to be heated. However, while the driver proceeds to drive, the "engine thermostat" reaches somewhere in between the C(old) and the H(ot) letters, thus indicating that the engine has heated up to that level.


Fascinating.

Songs #10 and #11. Frozen hands and nose. Puckered and wrinkled mouths. Relishing fun email exchanges. Being truly fat and overeating. The absurd and inconceivable idea of having ninnies as friends. Osmosis and potatoes. Fond memories of good times. "Concomitant."


"If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Happy moments, praise God.
Difficult moments, seek God.
Quiet moments, worship God.
Painful moments, trust God.
Every moment, thank God."

Thanks Jacob Oppa. =]