Today has been a pretty good day so far...
-It was nice and breezy when I woke up today. The weather was around 65 degrees, and not hot at all. =]
-I heard some good news from Andy Chon and I got happy for him. Happiness is contagious.
-I went bowling with Kwansoo, Karen, Danny Yoon, and Albert Kae. I think I bowled one of my highest scores ever.
-I am going to go to Las Vegas for the first time in my life in a couple of weeks. I'm really excited.
-I am going to go HOME after the Vegas trip for UC graduations and Father's Day. =D
-Karen, Albert, and I are going to visit Seattle, Washington and are going to pick apples.
Wednesday, May 28, 2003
I had lunch with Julie Kim at CPK today. I haven't had a lunch date with her for quite some time so it was good just catching up with what had happened since our last date a little over a month ago.
I talked to her about becoming a small group leader and we discussed my apprehensions and anxieties about it. She brought up a really good point that she left me with: that no matter, it is ultimately all about the heart and how much I'm willing to serve God. It doesn't matter what doctrine I believe in, or what types of questions I ask... all that matters is my own personal relationship with God and how much my heart is open enough to trust him enough to let Him do His will with me.
With that, I still do not know what I should do. I know that what Julie said is what ultimately matters, but I can't help but feel that what she said is also really idealistic. If it only were that simple... However, in the real world, no matter what, there are certain expectations and standards that I need to abide by and live according to.
I talked to her about becoming a small group leader and we discussed my apprehensions and anxieties about it. She brought up a really good point that she left me with: that no matter, it is ultimately all about the heart and how much I'm willing to serve God. It doesn't matter what doctrine I believe in, or what types of questions I ask... all that matters is my own personal relationship with God and how much my heart is open enough to trust him enough to let Him do His will with me.
With that, I still do not know what I should do. I know that what Julie said is what ultimately matters, but I can't help but feel that what she said is also really idealistic. If it only were that simple... However, in the real world, no matter what, there are certain expectations and standards that I need to abide by and live according to.
Senior reception was tonight. The place was really nice, and the food was really yummy. I respect this year's seniors a lot. I feel that they are all genuinely nice people and they have never ceased to show concern when an underclassmen is in need.
Dancing was awkward in the beginning, but it was fun watching everyone get their groove thang on. I love how the freshie boys dance. All they care about is having fun, so they completely let go and unabashedly dance however they wish.
It took a while, but the junior guys finally danced also. Well, three of them did. Andy, Kwansoo, and Robert.
Afterwards, while we were leaving, I said a casual goodbye to Julie Oh and started to walk towards my car, until she hugged me and said that this was going to be the last time I see her for a while. I couldn't process what she said cuz I was preoccupied by figuring out rides, so I stared at her for like five seconds until I realized that tonight was the last night that I would ever see some of the seniors again. I started crying even though I didn't want to and even though heartless tin woman Julie told me to stop. =/ It's ridiculous, but it's still a really sad thought once you honestly think hard about it. I believe that every person I meet during my life has somehow influenced me and shaped me to be who I am today and who I will be in the future. There's a reason why I've met the individuals in my life, and it makes me sad to think that once that person has served their purpose, I might never see him or her again. I know that in the end we'll all be in the same place together, but the fickleness of my being a human cannot help but feel a bit sad at this very moment.
Dancing was awkward in the beginning, but it was fun watching everyone get their groove thang on. I love how the freshie boys dance. All they care about is having fun, so they completely let go and unabashedly dance however they wish.
It took a while, but the junior guys finally danced also. Well, three of them did. Andy, Kwansoo, and Robert.
Afterwards, while we were leaving, I said a casual goodbye to Julie Oh and started to walk towards my car, until she hugged me and said that this was going to be the last time I see her for a while. I couldn't process what she said cuz I was preoccupied by figuring out rides, so I stared at her for like five seconds until I realized that tonight was the last night that I would ever see some of the seniors again. I started crying even though I didn't want to and even though heartless tin woman Julie told me to stop. =/ It's ridiculous, but it's still a really sad thought once you honestly think hard about it. I believe that every person I meet during my life has somehow influenced me and shaped me to be who I am today and who I will be in the future. There's a reason why I've met the individuals in my life, and it makes me sad to think that once that person has served their purpose, I might never see him or her again. I know that in the end we'll all be in the same place together, but the fickleness of my being a human cannot help but feel a bit sad at this very moment.
Monday, May 26, 2003
My sister and I had dinner with Danny's family at Chevy's. Danny's mom told me that my mother was taking care of their fishies for them while they were up in Berkeley. My dad sent me an email saying to call her frequently cuz he was going to be in Mexico on a missions trip. I talked to my mom, and then Danny's mom did cuz she wanted to check up on the fishies. I really really wish I could be at home with my family right now.
Woke up really late for the Haas graduation and made it just in time to thrust bouquets at Julie Oh and Chris Son.
Went to Gilroy's Outlets with Sewon and Karen where I proceeded to spend money that I did not have. My bargain purchases included $5 man pajama pants inspired by Eugene Shin and a $5 hat from JCrew. Unfortunately, the pj pants are incredibly itchy and my sister said that the hat is ugly, so I am no longer pleased with my bargain purchases.
I started reading The Remains of the Day. It was a little slow in the beginning, but I'm finding that it's getting more and more interesting.
I accidentally slept over at Karen's so Lila and I were held hostage in the bedroom while they had an officers' meeting in the living room.
Karen, Jenny, and I taught Slum and Andy how to play Hwat-Do. They're really fun people to play with.
Robert, Nancy, Alice, Karen, Slum, Kwansoo, Andy, Jennifer Lee, Jenny, Rebecca, and I went to Ranch 99 to eat pho. It was dang yummy. I don't understand people who do not take time to savor their pho. It was Jennifer Lee's first time eating pho and I taught her the proper pho-eating etiquette. I was happy when she said she liked it. =]
Woke up really late for the Haas graduation and made it just in time to thrust bouquets at Julie Oh and Chris Son.
Went to Gilroy's Outlets with Sewon and Karen where I proceeded to spend money that I did not have. My bargain purchases included $5 man pajama pants inspired by Eugene Shin and a $5 hat from JCrew. Unfortunately, the pj pants are incredibly itchy and my sister said that the hat is ugly, so I am no longer pleased with my bargain purchases.
I started reading The Remains of the Day. It was a little slow in the beginning, but I'm finding that it's getting more and more interesting.
I accidentally slept over at Karen's so Lila and I were held hostage in the bedroom while they had an officers' meeting in the living room.
Karen, Jenny, and I taught Slum and Andy how to play Hwat-Do. They're really fun people to play with.
Robert, Nancy, Alice, Karen, Slum, Kwansoo, Andy, Jennifer Lee, Jenny, Rebecca, and I went to Ranch 99 to eat pho. It was dang yummy. I don't understand people who do not take time to savor their pho. It was Jennifer Lee's first time eating pho and I taught her the proper pho-eating etiquette. I was happy when she said she liked it. =]
Saturday, May 24, 2003
I went to the PEIS and MCB graduations. I got to see Danny and Brian so I was happy.
Kwan, Kristy, Andy, Fred, and I ranked 8 guys in our class on their coquettish tendencies. Then we tried to do it for the most feminine but that got to be too tiring, so we just ended up making the five or six categories that we would use to rank the guys. That was a lot of fun. There was a lot of bias, but it was greatly satisfying when we reached a consensus amongst the five of us.
We went to In-N-Out with a group of random people. Jason, Andy, Kevin, Kristy, Fred, Kwansoo, Jung, Carolina, Karen, Robert, and Josei. Random people are fun. I brought up a gross topic so our side of the table began to talk about guys' and girls' abilities to peepee. There's a lot to be learned about the male and female anatomy. I wanted to know more but I think Jason was getting disgusted. At one point during the night I wanted to cry cuz I was the focus of everyone's attention for about 5 minutes. Everyone was literally staring at me and my monstrous ears, which were fortunately hidden underneath my hair. That part of the night wasn't that fun.
Kwansoo, Kristy, Carolina, Fred, Karen and I went to Karen's afterwards while Andy Chon, the big pooper, went home to do laundry. Fred taught Carolina, Kristy and Karen to play Hwat-Do as well. Kwan's friend, Carlos, came up from SD, and I was embarassed that he remembered me as the chick who yelled, "Kwan, show me the money!!" during our trip to Salinas.
Fred, Karen, and I watched 집으로 afterwards. I haven't cried so much during a movie for a really long time. The 할머니 in there made me realize how wonderful my own 할머니들 are. I really wish I could go home today.
Kwan, Kristy, Andy, Fred, and I ranked 8 guys in our class on their coquettish tendencies. Then we tried to do it for the most feminine but that got to be too tiring, so we just ended up making the five or six categories that we would use to rank the guys. That was a lot of fun. There was a lot of bias, but it was greatly satisfying when we reached a consensus amongst the five of us.
We went to In-N-Out with a group of random people. Jason, Andy, Kevin, Kristy, Fred, Kwansoo, Jung, Carolina, Karen, Robert, and Josei. Random people are fun. I brought up a gross topic so our side of the table began to talk about guys' and girls' abilities to peepee. There's a lot to be learned about the male and female anatomy. I wanted to know more but I think Jason was getting disgusted. At one point during the night I wanted to cry cuz I was the focus of everyone's attention for about 5 minutes. Everyone was literally staring at me and my monstrous ears, which were fortunately hidden underneath my hair. That part of the night wasn't that fun.
Kwansoo, Kristy, Carolina, Fred, Karen and I went to Karen's afterwards while Andy Chon, the big pooper, went home to do laundry. Fred taught Carolina, Kristy and Karen to play Hwat-Do as well. Kwan's friend, Carlos, came up from SD, and I was embarassed that he remembered me as the chick who yelled, "Kwan, show me the money!!" during our trip to Salinas.
Fred, Karen, and I watched 집으로 afterwards. I haven't cried so much during a movie for a really long time. The 할머니 in there made me realize how wonderful my own 할머니들 are. I really wish I could go home today.
Friday, May 23, 2003
I had fun at the DC today. My hunger + my delirium + my elation in finishing finals + my being surrounded by cool people = ecstatically happy me.
However, I soon succumbed to food coma until Kwansoo inconsiderately awoke me from my slumber by incessantly calling my house and cell. [I only got about an hour or so of sleep the night before.] Kwansoo was consistently mean to me for the rest of the night as well. Granted I don't remember specifically what happened, but I do remember how mean he was.
Went to Americana and played Speed Scrabble and Clue with Tommy, Kwansoo, Jenny, and Basile. Tommy's funny. Both him and I were delirious from lack of sleep. Kwansoo tried to teach us Hwat-do/Go Stop, but failed miserably. We had to wait until Fred came to really learn how to play the game.
Kwansoo, Basile, Jenny, Amanda, and Fred came to my place and played more Hwat-do and ate Chapaghetti. Out of those people, only Basile and Amanda had ever come to my place before. haha. Fred couldn't understand how rare an occasion it is to have people visit me at my place. Fred's cast also smells really bad.
I had a great girlie talk with Amanda. I must reiterate the fact that I like Amanda immensely. "Towel." =]
I wanted to correct my sleeping schedule today, but I think that's going to have to wait until tomorrow.
However, I soon succumbed to food coma until Kwansoo inconsiderately awoke me from my slumber by incessantly calling my house and cell. [I only got about an hour or so of sleep the night before.] Kwansoo was consistently mean to me for the rest of the night as well. Granted I don't remember specifically what happened, but I do remember how mean he was.
Went to Americana and played Speed Scrabble and Clue with Tommy, Kwansoo, Jenny, and Basile. Tommy's funny. Both him and I were delirious from lack of sleep. Kwansoo tried to teach us Hwat-do/Go Stop, but failed miserably. We had to wait until Fred came to really learn how to play the game.
Kwansoo, Basile, Jenny, Amanda, and Fred came to my place and played more Hwat-do and ate Chapaghetti. Out of those people, only Basile and Amanda had ever come to my place before. haha. Fred couldn't understand how rare an occasion it is to have people visit me at my place. Fred's cast also smells really bad.
I had a great girlie talk with Amanda. I must reiterate the fact that I like Amanda immensely. "Towel." =]
I wanted to correct my sleeping schedule today, but I think that's going to have to wait until tomorrow.
Thursday, May 22, 2003
Kpxgrlx012: howd it go?
kwanshu: you know the sound a bomb makes when its flying through the air?
kwanshu: and right before it hits the ground, there's this kind of high pitched squeal and the sudden anxious attack of the fact that you're about to die a horrible and painful death?
kwanshu: yeah
Kpxgrlx012: wow
Kpxgrlx012: i didnt do so great either
Kpxgrlx012: =[
kwanshu: really?
kwanshu: as in, you think you got a c not so great, or you absolutely bombed it?
Kpxgrlx012: c not so great
Kpxgrlx012: nevertheless
Kpxgrlx012: we have to play
kwanshu: yes
And the playing begins... =]
kwanshu: you know the sound a bomb makes when its flying through the air?
kwanshu: and right before it hits the ground, there's this kind of high pitched squeal and the sudden anxious attack of the fact that you're about to die a horrible and painful death?
kwanshu: yeah
Kpxgrlx012: wow
Kpxgrlx012: i didnt do so great either
Kpxgrlx012: =[
kwanshu: really?
kwanshu: as in, you think you got a c not so great, or you absolutely bombed it?
Kpxgrlx012: c not so great
Kpxgrlx012: nevertheless
Kpxgrlx012: we have to play
kwanshu: yes
And the playing begins... =]
Wednesday, May 21, 2003
My eating habits are messed up right now. I have never consumed so much candy and Diet Coke before in my life. My sleeping schedule is also jacked up right now. My days and nights have completely reversed and I've slept about 10 hours since Sunday. I got about half an hour of sleep today and I need to be up all night tonight for my last final tomorrow. My cough has not yet gone away. Although during the day it isn't too bad, from about 3am to 10am, no matter how many cough drops or how much cough syrup I consume, it mysteriously comes back and I start hacking away again. I look like a raccoon for I have perpetual bags underneath my eyes. I have an ugly open cold sore on the outside of my lip and a huge canker sore right behind it on the inside my mouth so that whenever I drink, talk, eat, smile, I hurt a lot.
Yet, however, I honestly feel like things aren't too bad. I admit that a lot of my time has not been spent studying for my final as it should be, but there are other things that have made me realize that I'm glad I wasn't wasting my time sleeping or studying. Here's what I've learned/discovered:
-I admire Eugene Shin for his candor and frankness. I admire the fact that he is confident enough to speak his mind with no qualms about what he says. I also admire his height and muscular body that instills this great comforting feeling of security and safeness when psychotics who claim that their gay lovers have locked them out of the apartment ask Christians for prayers and help for their gay lovers who aren't Christians and think that the psychotics are gay, when in reality, the psychotics are bisexual.
-I admire Andrew Chon for his determination in never compromising himself for mediocrity. I admire his ability to grasp meaning from difficult implications, and his ability to not settle for the typical, easier answers. And I admire his creative and imaginative style of writing papers... his method of employing a "surprise element" near the conclusion to wow and amaze the reader into affirming that the paper is the work of a genius.
-I admire my ability to finally understand how to use webdisk so that I can post this very appropriate picture. [Thanks to the abovementioned two people for being patient with me until I finally did understand.] I got this picture off of Glow's Xanga, and I've been wanting to post it ever since finals began.
Yet, however, I honestly feel like things aren't too bad. I admit that a lot of my time has not been spent studying for my final as it should be, but there are other things that have made me realize that I'm glad I wasn't wasting my time sleeping or studying. Here's what I've learned/discovered:
-I admire Eugene Shin for his candor and frankness. I admire the fact that he is confident enough to speak his mind with no qualms about what he says. I also admire his height and muscular body that instills this great comforting feeling of security and safeness when psychotics who claim that their gay lovers have locked them out of the apartment ask Christians for prayers and help for their gay lovers who aren't Christians and think that the psychotics are gay, when in reality, the psychotics are bisexual.
-I admire Andrew Chon for his determination in never compromising himself for mediocrity. I admire his ability to grasp meaning from difficult implications, and his ability to not settle for the typical, easier answers. And I admire his creative and imaginative style of writing papers... his method of employing a "surprise element" near the conclusion to wow and amaze the reader into affirming that the paper is the work of a genius.
-I admire my ability to finally understand how to use webdisk so that I can post this very appropriate picture. [Thanks to the abovementioned two people for being patient with me until I finally did understand.] I got this picture off of Glow's Xanga, and I've been wanting to post it ever since finals began.
This is perfect, don't you think? =]
The library is the bane of my existence [followed shortly by Mejeld Lee], but I'm still drawn to it day after day and night after night. It comforts me knowing that when I completely break down and want to cry miserably or end my meaningless life, there are either those that are willing to do it with me, or there are those that possess the sagacity to say the exact words or smile in such a way that encourages me and uplifts me and prevents me from going completely kookoo. It's a win-win situation.
I wish I had popsicles and watermelon today.
The library is the bane of my existence [followed shortly by Mejeld Lee], but I'm still drawn to it day after day and night after night. It comforts me knowing that when I completely break down and want to cry miserably or end my meaningless life, there are either those that are willing to do it with me, or there are those that possess the sagacity to say the exact words or smile in such a way that encourages me and uplifts me and prevents me from going completely kookoo. It's a win-win situation.
I wish I had popsicles and watermelon today.
Monday, May 19, 2003
I have just created my thesis for my 11-13 page English 100 Junior Seminar Women's Films paper. Now I have approximately 8 hours to do the whole stupid thing.
Anyways, I like Amanda Hwang. I like it when she does triple hip thrusts cuz she's happy or excited and I like it when she conks out during small group while we're all pouring out our hearts. hahaha. =] This is how nice and sweet she is:
Amanda15CW: YOU CAN DO IT
Amanda15CW: GO JAHNDEEEEE
Kpxgrlx012: ahaha
Kpxgrlx012: thank you
Amanda15CW: I'll beee supporting you
Amanda15CW: nooow....go turn your power brain on
Amanda15CW: and be like..."Thesis, I own you!!"
Kpxgrlx012: hahahahhahaaha
Amanda15CW: okies....you can do it! I have faith in you
I am very ambivalent about Roy Chung. He hangs up on people even though he's the one who asks them to wake him up, and he is killing his body by clogging up his arteries with lard and blubber and by refusing to get a good night's rest. This is how unsupportive and ridiculous he is:
b o y 52: wat the freak? another paper?
Kpxgrlx012: yeah
b o y 52: due when?
Kpxgrlx012: today by 4
b o y 52: ..
b o y 52: monday?
Kpxgrlx012: =[
b o y 52: wat the freak
b o y 52: how come you always do papers at the last minute
b o y 52: wat the freak
b o y 52: go work
b o y 52: i got five hours of sleep in the last 60 hours
Kpxgrlx012: ...
Kpxgrlx012: ROYEE
Kpxgrlx012: go sleep
b o y 52: i will soon
Kpxgrlx012: what if u crash later this week when its closer to ur finals?
Kpxgrlx012: sleep 8 hours today
b o y 52: hm
b o y 52: i havent thought that far ahead
b o y 52: im going to catch sars and die
Kpxgrlx012: yes
Kpxgrlx012: so lsiten to me you freak
Kpxgrlx012: stop being so selfish
b o y 52: how is that being selfish?
b o y 52: look
b o y 52: i continue how im living now
b o y 52: get married, have children
b o y 52: then my daughters are going to stay home and take care of daddy
b o y 52: see? its the circle of love
Kpxgrlx012: if u continue the way ur living now
Kpxgrlx012: there wont be any daughters taking care of you
b o y 52: yes there will be
b o y 52: theyre going to love me more than they love their mom
b o y 52: hahahahahaah
Anyways, I like Amanda Hwang. I like it when she does triple hip thrusts cuz she's happy or excited and I like it when she conks out during small group while we're all pouring out our hearts. hahaha. =] This is how nice and sweet she is:
Amanda15CW: YOU CAN DO IT
Amanda15CW: GO JAHNDEEEEE
Kpxgrlx012: ahaha
Kpxgrlx012: thank you
Amanda15CW: I'll beee supporting you
Amanda15CW: nooow....go turn your power brain on
Amanda15CW: and be like..."Thesis, I own you!!"
Kpxgrlx012: hahahahhahaaha
Amanda15CW: okies....you can do it! I have faith in you
I am very ambivalent about Roy Chung. He hangs up on people even though he's the one who asks them to wake him up, and he is killing his body by clogging up his arteries with lard and blubber and by refusing to get a good night's rest. This is how unsupportive and ridiculous he is:
b o y 52: wat the freak? another paper?
Kpxgrlx012: yeah
b o y 52: due when?
Kpxgrlx012: today by 4
b o y 52: ..
b o y 52: monday?
Kpxgrlx012: =[
b o y 52: wat the freak
b o y 52: how come you always do papers at the last minute
b o y 52: wat the freak
b o y 52: go work
b o y 52: i got five hours of sleep in the last 60 hours
Kpxgrlx012: ...
Kpxgrlx012: ROYEE
Kpxgrlx012: go sleep
b o y 52: i will soon
Kpxgrlx012: what if u crash later this week when its closer to ur finals?
Kpxgrlx012: sleep 8 hours today
b o y 52: hm
b o y 52: i havent thought that far ahead
b o y 52: im going to catch sars and die
Kpxgrlx012: yes
Kpxgrlx012: so lsiten to me you freak
Kpxgrlx012: stop being so selfish
b o y 52: how is that being selfish?
b o y 52: look
b o y 52: i continue how im living now
b o y 52: get married, have children
b o y 52: then my daughters are going to stay home and take care of daddy
b o y 52: see? its the circle of love
Kpxgrlx012: if u continue the way ur living now
Kpxgrlx012: there wont be any daughters taking care of you
b o y 52: yes there will be
b o y 52: theyre going to love me more than they love their mom
b o y 52: hahahahahaah
Sunday, May 18, 2003
These are the encouraging words from a friend[?] of mine. I won't disclose his name for it will only shock the multitudes of chickies that worship the ground he walks on. Fools, they are, FOOLS.
"I only like you cuz I have to like you."
"God will punish you and you will fail all of your finals."
...
This time next week it'll all be over.
"I only like you cuz I have to like you."
"God will punish you and you will fail all of your finals."
...
This time next week it'll all be over.
Saturday, May 17, 2003
I hate the library. It is horrible. But the one good thing about it is that I get to talk to people I don't normally get to and we can stress, be ugly, eat, and encourage one another if need be.
I got raped on my PS 150 final today. I ran in late so that my thoughts were all scattered when I started my essay. And there was frigid air blowing directly into my face so that I was really cold and coughing a lot. Also, the girl gsi decided to be nice and bake cookies, and brought them for everyone in the class to eat after they turned in their finals. However, since I was late, I had to sit in the very front, and the very front of the room were where the cookies were situated. I kept eyeing the cookies for three hours and my mind kept wandering as I thought about what type of cookies they were and how much I wish I was done with my final so that I could get a cookie.
...
bCxaNgeL143 (4:55:27 AM): u're such a freakin girl
Kpxgrlx012 (4:55:41 AM): what??
bCxaNgeL143 (4:56:03 AM): u are
Kpxgrlx012 (4:56:13 AM): WHAT
bCxaNgeL143 (4:56:18 AM): despite that man voice of urs...
bCxaNgeL143 (4:56:27 AM): and ur frequent obnoxious burps
bCxaNgeL143 (4:56:42 AM): and ur ignorance of girly facial hygiene products
bCxaNgeL143 (4:56:56 AM): and ur refusal to wear a dress
Kpxgrlx012 (4:57:02 AM): ...
bCxaNgeL143 (4:57:07 AM): u're such a girl
Kpxgrlx012 (4:57:08 AM): yeah
Kpxgrlx012 (4:57:12 AM): im sorry
bCxaNgeL143 (4:57:34 AM): it's a compliment!!
Kpxgrlx012 (4:57:49 AM): HOW IS THAT A COMPLIMENT
bCxaNgeL143 (4:57:53 AM): IT IS!!!
bCxaNgeL143 (4:57:54 AM): OMG
bCxaNgeL143 (4:58:14 AM): it means u're really sensitive inside
bCxaNgeL143 (4:58:25 AM): thass why u don't like things that hurt..things that taste nasty
bCxaNgeL143 (4:58:36 AM): and why u cry so easily in movies
I still don't understand how anything Sewon mentioned above compliments me in any way.
I got raped on my PS 150 final today. I ran in late so that my thoughts were all scattered when I started my essay. And there was frigid air blowing directly into my face so that I was really cold and coughing a lot. Also, the girl gsi decided to be nice and bake cookies, and brought them for everyone in the class to eat after they turned in their finals. However, since I was late, I had to sit in the very front, and the very front of the room were where the cookies were situated. I kept eyeing the cookies for three hours and my mind kept wandering as I thought about what type of cookies they were and how much I wish I was done with my final so that I could get a cookie.
...
bCxaNgeL143 (4:55:27 AM): u're such a freakin girl
Kpxgrlx012 (4:55:41 AM): what??
bCxaNgeL143 (4:56:03 AM): u are
Kpxgrlx012 (4:56:13 AM): WHAT
bCxaNgeL143 (4:56:18 AM): despite that man voice of urs...
bCxaNgeL143 (4:56:27 AM): and ur frequent obnoxious burps
bCxaNgeL143 (4:56:42 AM): and ur ignorance of girly facial hygiene products
bCxaNgeL143 (4:56:56 AM): and ur refusal to wear a dress
Kpxgrlx012 (4:57:02 AM): ...
bCxaNgeL143 (4:57:07 AM): u're such a girl
Kpxgrlx012 (4:57:08 AM): yeah
Kpxgrlx012 (4:57:12 AM): im sorry
bCxaNgeL143 (4:57:34 AM): it's a compliment!!
Kpxgrlx012 (4:57:49 AM): HOW IS THAT A COMPLIMENT
bCxaNgeL143 (4:57:53 AM): IT IS!!!
bCxaNgeL143 (4:57:54 AM): OMG
bCxaNgeL143 (4:58:14 AM): it means u're really sensitive inside
bCxaNgeL143 (4:58:25 AM): thass why u don't like things that hurt..things that taste nasty
bCxaNgeL143 (4:58:36 AM): and why u cry so easily in movies
I still don't understand how anything Sewon mentioned above compliments me in any way.
Wednesday, May 14, 2003
This is my bad day...
-My cough hasn't gotten better despite the fact that I've been o'ding on Kristy's cough syrup and sleeping with the heater on. My throat, head and abs hurt from the incessant coughing. I also cannot return to the library as a result of my chagrining experience last night.
-Today was hot. I despise it when it's hot and I don't have any popsicles.
-I gave myself a horrible migraine that lasted for approximately 6 hours. Causes included the heat, my coughing, and the smell of my hair. I've changed my shampoo and the new smell of it makes me want to rip my hair out. The heat makes the smell especially worse and the stench from my own head engulfed me in the most overwhelmingly oppressive way possible.
-Unpleasant experience at Bing Ling's.
-Korean 100B. Words cannot describe the way I feel right now. *sigh*
-My cough hasn't gotten better despite the fact that I've been o'ding on Kristy's cough syrup and sleeping with the heater on. My throat, head and abs hurt from the incessant coughing. I also cannot return to the library as a result of my chagrining experience last night.
-Today was hot. I despise it when it's hot and I don't have any popsicles.
-I gave myself a horrible migraine that lasted for approximately 6 hours. Causes included the heat, my coughing, and the smell of my hair. I've changed my shampoo and the new smell of it makes me want to rip my hair out. The heat makes the smell especially worse and the stench from my own head engulfed me in the most overwhelmingly oppressive way possible.
-Unpleasant experience at Bing Ling's.
-Korean 100B. Words cannot describe the way I feel right now. *sigh*
Tuesday, May 13, 2003
I got kicked out of Moffit library for coughing so much. I was so humiliated. =[
I had my once-a-year talk with Andy just now. We talked outside my apartment for a few hours with my coughing spurts and his red, itchy eye from rubbing it after playing with Dooli. This is my conclusion: I can't understand why it is that Andy and I never get the chance to talk until it is too late. It is mind-boggling. *sigh* And I can't help but wonder if things would be different had we the chance to have talked to each other when we needed to.
I had my once-a-year talk with Andy just now. We talked outside my apartment for a few hours with my coughing spurts and his red, itchy eye from rubbing it after playing with Dooli. This is my conclusion: I can't understand why it is that Andy and I never get the chance to talk until it is too late. It is mind-boggling. *sigh* And I can't help but wonder if things would be different had we the chance to have talked to each other when we needed to.
Saturday, May 10, 2003
Reading everyone's blogs have made me feel weird. I sense the urgency in making the most of this last year left at Berkeley, but at the same time, I don't want to force the memories and experiences to occur simply for the sake of it being my senior year. I just want to go with the flow, and hope that God will continue to show me his blessings and love through the people that surround me.
Last night at Robert and John Song's house is an example. I had a lot of fun, despite the fact that we didn't get to watch "집으로" and cry as planned. Instead, we watched Kings of Comedy and Kung Pow, and played countless rounds of speed scrabble. There was a really diverse group of people so that made me happy cuz I got to know other people better and also see their oddities and quirks fully exposed late at night. The night passed by sort of in a blur cuz it was so fun and was so frequently punctuated by coughing fits. But this is some of the stuff I remember:
-John Song's niceness. Examples include: getting Fred glasses of milk, getting Fred a LOT of vanilla bean ice cream, making me green tea, giving me a band-aid AND Neosporin, and letting us eat all his munchies.
-Hearing James Song, Kwansoo, and John Im be the only ones in the entire room laughing uproariously at Kung Pow.
-Watching Fred spend many many minutes making only 5+ letter words with his Scrabble pieces and my being thoroughly impressed when he finished.
-Liz and her dirty Scrabble words. =]
-Albert telling me that I sound like a manly baby. Kwansoo telling me that my voice is lower than his.
-Jack in the Box late at night. [Thanks Rob, Josei, and Nancy for getting the food for all of us.]
-Being kidnapped to Kwan's house to watch The Ring 2.
-Listening to The Ring 2 after seeing the first scene and concluding that 1. it was going to be too scary and 2. it would take too much effort to read the blurry Korean subtitles.
-Waking up with Fred to go home in the morning. Seeing everyone else still conked out and sprawled out in a disgusting manner either on the floor or on the bed.
Last night at Robert and John Song's house is an example. I had a lot of fun, despite the fact that we didn't get to watch "집으로" and cry as planned. Instead, we watched Kings of Comedy and Kung Pow, and played countless rounds of speed scrabble. There was a really diverse group of people so that made me happy cuz I got to know other people better and also see their oddities and quirks fully exposed late at night. The night passed by sort of in a blur cuz it was so fun and was so frequently punctuated by coughing fits. But this is some of the stuff I remember:
-John Song's niceness. Examples include: getting Fred glasses of milk, getting Fred a LOT of vanilla bean ice cream, making me green tea, giving me a band-aid AND Neosporin, and letting us eat all his munchies.
-Hearing James Song, Kwansoo, and John Im be the only ones in the entire room laughing uproariously at Kung Pow.
-Watching Fred spend many many minutes making only 5+ letter words with his Scrabble pieces and my being thoroughly impressed when he finished.
-Liz and her dirty Scrabble words. =]
-Albert telling me that I sound like a manly baby. Kwansoo telling me that my voice is lower than his.
-Jack in the Box late at night. [Thanks Rob, Josei, and Nancy for getting the food for all of us.]
-Being kidnapped to Kwan's house to watch The Ring 2.
-Listening to The Ring 2 after seeing the first scene and concluding that 1. it was going to be too scary and 2. it would take too much effort to read the blurry Korean subtitles.
-Waking up with Fred to go home in the morning. Seeing everyone else still conked out and sprawled out in a disgusting manner either on the floor or on the bed.
Wednesday, May 07, 2003
Today was a really good day except I didn't get anything academically productive done. I have yet to find a topic for my English 100 paper due Thursday that is worth virtually 99% of my grade. And I realized the sad fact that I have hesitations around certain people who other people think I'm "good friends" with. These hesitations usually indicate that I have trouble confiding in these supposed "friends."
On a much happier note, the definite highlight of the day was our last small group meeting at the Super DC, treated by the super cool little freshies of our group. =D
Afterwards, Amanda, Liz, Jenny, Esther, Janet, Carolina, and myself headed over to Esther's place for a time of sharing and talking. It was such a great time cuz everyone just opened up and shared all their different issues and dilemmas. There were many different emotions felt tonight... a lot of sad and frustrated tears in the beginning, but a lot of happy and obnoxious laughter at the end. Wow... if there is anything that I can be thankful for this year, it is my small group this year. I seriously find it such a blessing to have found such a great group of people that I could really open up with and share all my problems. I get so incredibly happy whenever I get to spend time with them... and so I don't know how I'll be able to cope next year without all of them.
The funny moments of tonight:
-Pet names shared between significant others.
-Janet Kwak's ugly new hairstyle.
-Amanda and her future mate.
-Jenny and her "8" previous boyfriends.
-Why guys and girls cannot be "best friends."
On a much happier note, the definite highlight of the day was our last small group meeting at the Super DC, treated by the super cool little freshies of our group. =D
Afterwards, Amanda, Liz, Jenny, Esther, Janet, Carolina, and myself headed over to Esther's place for a time of sharing and talking. It was such a great time cuz everyone just opened up and shared all their different issues and dilemmas. There were many different emotions felt tonight... a lot of sad and frustrated tears in the beginning, but a lot of happy and obnoxious laughter at the end. Wow... if there is anything that I can be thankful for this year, it is my small group this year. I seriously find it such a blessing to have found such a great group of people that I could really open up with and share all my problems. I get so incredibly happy whenever I get to spend time with them... and so I don't know how I'll be able to cope next year without all of them.
The funny moments of tonight:
-Pet names shared between significant others.
-Janet Kwak's ugly new hairstyle.
-Amanda and her future mate.
-Jenny and her "8" previous boyfriends.
-Why guys and girls cannot be "best friends."
Monday, May 05, 2003
I watched X2: X-Men United with a bunch of juniors. I haven't seen the first one though and I have very limited knowledge of these mutants and their powers. Kwansoo got mad at me cuz he was really excited about the characters and wanted to discuss them, but I was completely useless. But I liked the movie even though I didn't understand why and how the white man who looked like Gandalf was in jail in the first place and why the Rogue chick was so close to Wolverine. [Hugh Jackman is freakin hot btw. WOW. That other guy that turns into metal also had a very delicious body~ it was chock full of well-defined abs, pecs, and other yummy muscles.] There were some sad moments in the movie too where I could feel my eyes starting to sting and feel my chest tighten, but those moments would quickly disappear when hearing Nancy and Alex's snickers and snorts at the cheesiness of the movie. Which, I admit, was quite cheesy at times, but I like cheesy and how the movieworld jerks my emotions around. Haha. But the part where the sunglasses guy was talking to the bald man was pretty ugly. His face was all squished and contorted in what was supposed to be heart-breaking pain and angst, but it was just straight-up ugly cuz it looked like he had one of those vein-popping-out-of-your-forehead-cuz-you-have-to-push-so-damn-hard ddong experiences.
Then Esther, Nancy, Andy, Kwansoo, Roy, Billy, Slum, and I went to Denny's. We spent over two hours there. I'm getting annoyed by my sister's stupid keyboard so here's my quick recap:
-Nancy, Esther and I getting scared that no one was at Denny's and that everything was so deathly quiet.
-Nancy and I thinking that the waiter man at Denny's knew that Roy was a magician.
-Good convo with Nancy while we were waiting for the boys to come and reading the menu over and over again discussing the level of fat we wanted to taste in our foods and what dessert looked good.
-Roy's stupid superpowers that failed miserably: having photographic memory [normal people already have], not needing oxygen to live so that he could live under the sea by himself and be a lonely old hag who plays with imaginary mer-people, and being 2-dimensional so that people could carry him in their pockets and people could use him to shade themselves or to fan fires.
-Billy and Slum shooting down every single one of Nancy's ideas cuz they were too evil and selfish.
-Roy's face turning all wrinkled and scrunchy and red from laughing so hard and watching him dab his tears like a girl.
-Nancy as *Condiment Girl* and having the wonderful superpower of squirting out any desired condiment through her fingers. [This was one of my favorites. Can you imagine?? The possibilities would be endless...]
-Slum's comment of how we all already possess our own superpowers. He gave three examples and then stopped. [Slum: to be tall, Billy: ability to not know how to cut his own hair, Roy: pimp power]
It was a time full of lots of fun, laughs, and good company. It made me very happy. =]
Then Esther, Nancy, Andy, Kwansoo, Roy, Billy, Slum, and I went to Denny's. We spent over two hours there. I'm getting annoyed by my sister's stupid keyboard so here's my quick recap:
-Nancy, Esther and I getting scared that no one was at Denny's and that everything was so deathly quiet.
-Nancy and I thinking that the waiter man at Denny's knew that Roy was a magician.
-Good convo with Nancy while we were waiting for the boys to come and reading the menu over and over again discussing the level of fat we wanted to taste in our foods and what dessert looked good.
-Roy's stupid superpowers that failed miserably: having photographic memory [normal people already have], not needing oxygen to live so that he could live under the sea by himself and be a lonely old hag who plays with imaginary mer-people, and being 2-dimensional so that people could carry him in their pockets and people could use him to shade themselves or to fan fires.
-Billy and Slum shooting down every single one of Nancy's ideas cuz they were too evil and selfish.
-Roy's face turning all wrinkled and scrunchy and red from laughing so hard and watching him dab his tears like a girl.
-Nancy as *Condiment Girl* and having the wonderful superpower of squirting out any desired condiment through her fingers. [This was one of my favorites. Can you imagine?? The possibilities would be endless...]
-Slum's comment of how we all already possess our own superpowers. He gave three examples and then stopped. [Slum: to be tall, Billy: ability to not know how to cut his own hair, Roy: pimp power]
It was a time full of lots of fun, laughs, and good company. It made me very happy. =]
Sunday, May 04, 2003
Senior banquet was tonight. I can't believe how quickly it came and passed. I also can't believe that this time next year, I will be attending my last senior banquet. Everyone looked amazing tonight. Everything was so great.. the skits, Royee's quasi-magic show, the performances, the videos, the slide show. Andy Chon's talent is extraordinary. The slideshow he created for the seniors was incredible. I hope the seniors were able to see just a glimpse of how important they are to all of us. There's something about pictures that can encapsulate one's true feelings and intentions without having to blatantly state it. I think Andy's slideshow did just that.
