Happy 21st Birthday Roy Chung!! =D
I first knew Roy Chung as "boy52," this random male who was perpetually online on my freshman year ex-roomie's buddy list. Haha. I thought that was the stupidest name ever. She also told me the history of her relationship to this mysterious Roy fellow. Wow. I can't even begin to describe what I thought "boy52" Roy was like and how those initial thoughts completely changed after meeting the real Roy. I must admit however, I like the real Roy better. Except the fact that "boy52" Roy was manlier and wasn't quite as pale and pretty as the real Roy is...
Thanks for your friendship Roy Chung. I hope you have the greatest day today. =]
Wednesday, February 26, 2003
Sunday, February 23, 2003
Just got back to Berkeley a little while ago. Even though I was only gone a little over a day, I was still sad that I had to return back to Berkeley.
Thank you Roy for driving the whole time both to and from Berkeley.
The really ugly side of people comes out during long drives. Ugly Roy lies to his umma twice, tailgates and twice highbeams an old man with white hair, and takes one bite of his criss-cut fry, puts it down, takes a bite of another fry, puts that down, picks the original fry back up again, takes one bite, and then goes back to the second fry.
Roy had to stop by Simi Valley on the drive up to purchase his Taylor 414ce guitar. It is officially christened as "Berry" cuz there's a nice little story behind it. Anyways, I don't even know anything about guitars and I know it's really nice. I touched the curvy part and it was really soft and smooth. It's made of this special wood and it (I quote Roy): "has the best sound out of all the different Taylor 414 ce's that I've played." YAY. I'm very happy for you Roy. Congrats again on your second love. =]
Thank you Roy for driving the whole time both to and from Berkeley.
The really ugly side of people comes out during long drives. Ugly Roy lies to his umma twice, tailgates and twice highbeams an old man with white hair, and takes one bite of his criss-cut fry, puts it down, takes a bite of another fry, puts that down, picks the original fry back up again, takes one bite, and then goes back to the second fry.
Roy had to stop by Simi Valley on the drive up to purchase his Taylor 414ce guitar. It is officially christened as "Berry" cuz there's a nice little story behind it. Anyways, I don't even know anything about guitars and I know it's really nice. I touched the curvy part and it was really soft and smooth. It's made of this special wood and it (I quote Roy): "has the best sound out of all the different Taylor 414 ce's that I've played." YAY. I'm very happy for you Roy. Congrats again on your second love. =]
Saturday, February 22, 2003
Happy 21st Birthday Nancy Kim!!
I first knew Nancy Kim as "tHaGiRaFFe" from those mass emails we all used to do in high school. I later had the privilege of meeting her up here in Berkeley when she approached me one Friday after FICB at Ghetto Durant. She wanted to know if I was me and when I said that I was, she was like oh, ok and then smiled at me. I honestly was a bit freaked out cuz she was this random tall chick who said she knew me, but then she explained that she went to Cerritos HS with Danny and that he told her to talk to me cuz I was nice. So she took the initiative and did just that. I'm glad she had enough balls to do so cuz now I have the honor of being good friends with the wonderful and beautiful Nancy Kim. May lots of love and blessings be with you today. =D
I first knew Nancy Kim as "tHaGiRaFFe" from those mass emails we all used to do in high school. I later had the privilege of meeting her up here in Berkeley when she approached me one Friday after FICB at Ghetto Durant. She wanted to know if I was me and when I said that I was, she was like oh, ok and then smiled at me. I honestly was a bit freaked out cuz she was this random tall chick who said she knew me, but then she explained that she went to Cerritos HS with Danny and that he told her to talk to me cuz I was nice. So she took the initiative and did just that. I'm glad she had enough balls to do so cuz now I have the honor of being good friends with the wonderful and beautiful Nancy Kim. May lots of love and blessings be with you today. =D
I just came back from meeting with Suzy, Linda, and Jeniffer. It was good that we could all get together and talk. But I'm very worried about Suzy. She feels a tremendous amount of guilt for putting Andy through a lot of crap and I think she's trying to compensate for those feelings by feeling obligated to prepare all the funeral arrangements herself. She hasn't been sleeping well and hasn't been eating. She's currently under 90 lbs. I pray that God will soon appease all her fears and anxieties. There's so much she's going through right now, so much sadness and pain she's feeling. I also pray that I will be the best possible friend to her throughout this time. I was only able to sleep half an hour the previous night and right when I got home I had to drive to Rowland and then to Glendale to meet up with Suzy. I was physically exhausted when I finally got to talk to her, but I pray I didn't make it evident to them. I feel that we just all have to stay strong together and be there for each other as much as possible.
How do you make the pain go away? How do you make the fear go away?
How do you make the pain go away? How do you make the fear go away?
Thursday, February 20, 2003
Andy: It sucks how I found out the way I did. I have so many great memories of you. I know you're at a better place now up above and I am sorry that you had to leave all of us so soon. Help us to understand why God took you away now and not later. And watch over Suzy, okay? Thanks for all the good times and laughs, Andy. I'll cherish them until we meet again.
Suzy: My dearest Suzy, I know that you're hurting a lot and you must be very confused and angry right now. I just pray that you know Andy is in a better place and is watching you from up above. He'll be able to protect you from up there just as he was able to when he was with us. Suzy, I know you're so scared right now, but I pray that you keep holding onto your faith and trust that He will get you through this. It honestly doesn't make sense right now, but it eventually will. Stay strong and don't lose faith. I love you, and you're in my prayers.
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." -John 14:27.
Suzy: My dearest Suzy, I know that you're hurting a lot and you must be very confused and angry right now. I just pray that you know Andy is in a better place and is watching you from up above. He'll be able to protect you from up there just as he was able to when he was with us. Suzy, I know you're so scared right now, but I pray that you keep holding onto your faith and trust that He will get you through this. It honestly doesn't make sense right now, but it eventually will. Stay strong and don't lose faith. I love you, and you're in my prayers.
"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." -John 14:27.
Tuesday, February 18, 2003
I finally have some time to myself. It's been a long day, probably cuz I was so tired. But anyways, the junior bbq was really fun. There was so much meat I felt queasy. Today I discovered that:
1. I don't know how to peel potatoes properly so that chunks of potato fly all over the place and hit Kwansoo. This shows how horrible a cook I am.
2. My hands are so sensitive that when I was rinsing the raw ribs in water, I got some nasty scratches on my hands and wrists where the rib bones cut me. This again shows how horrid of a cook I am cuz I have no experience whatsoever using my hands to prepare food.
A list of the fun times that I remember:
-Watching Roy wander aimlessly around by himself. Cuz Roy had no friends that would play with him, he ended up playing by himself by throwing pieces of grass and twigs into the air and watching them fall back down.
-Watching Esther eat her rib bones clean and then watching her teach Kristy and Billy her method to do the same.
-Finally getting to eat Nancy's famous ribs
-Hearing Kwan respond to "Isn't it ironic?" with "Don't you think?"
-Seeing the ducks and geese
-Walking around enjoying the beautiful scenery and the weather
-Everyone thinking that there was a duck with two heads in the water. Everyone trying to figure how that could be. Roy finally enlightening everyone by saying that there were two different birds on one rock, with their backs facing each other and their heads looking in opposite directions.
I immediately went to Nancy's place afterwards so that I could get my stuff and we could discuss how much fun we had. After a while though, I decided I needed to take a nap to rejuvenate myself before work at 6:30. I went to sleep at 5:55 and told Nancy to wake me up at 6:05 exactly. At 6:00 I woke up to Nancy's hysterical laughter. I thought I started farting or snoring in my sleep. Instead I open my eyes to see her cackling at her computer screen. And then, in between gasps of air, she proceeds to tell me that she's laughing at ME. I was really sad when I saw that picture. I look absolutely ugly and repulsive. =[
I have not studied one bit this entire weekend. But I have had a lot of fun. =]
1. I don't know how to peel potatoes properly so that chunks of potato fly all over the place and hit Kwansoo. This shows how horrible a cook I am.
2. My hands are so sensitive that when I was rinsing the raw ribs in water, I got some nasty scratches on my hands and wrists where the rib bones cut me. This again shows how horrid of a cook I am cuz I have no experience whatsoever using my hands to prepare food.
A list of the fun times that I remember:
-Watching Roy wander aimlessly around by himself. Cuz Roy had no friends that would play with him, he ended up playing by himself by throwing pieces of grass and twigs into the air and watching them fall back down.
-Watching Esther eat her rib bones clean and then watching her teach Kristy and Billy her method to do the same.
-Finally getting to eat Nancy's famous ribs
-Hearing Kwan respond to "Isn't it ironic?" with "Don't you think?"
-Seeing the ducks and geese
-Walking around enjoying the beautiful scenery and the weather
-Everyone thinking that there was a duck with two heads in the water. Everyone trying to figure how that could be. Roy finally enlightening everyone by saying that there were two different birds on one rock, with their backs facing each other and their heads looking in opposite directions.
I immediately went to Nancy's place afterwards so that I could get my stuff and we could discuss how much fun we had. After a while though, I decided I needed to take a nap to rejuvenate myself before work at 6:30. I went to sleep at 5:55 and told Nancy to wake me up at 6:05 exactly. At 6:00 I woke up to Nancy's hysterical laughter. I thought I started farting or snoring in my sleep. Instead I open my eyes to see her cackling at her computer screen. And then, in between gasps of air, she proceeds to tell me that she's laughing at ME. I was really sad when I saw that picture. I look absolutely ugly and repulsive. =[
I have not studied one bit this entire weekend. But I have had a lot of fun. =]
Monday, February 17, 2003
Crazy day today at church. I was up until 5am playing literati, a new game that Kristy introduced me to. Then at church, Josei and I laughed a lot at Rev Ryan's message. He was saying a lot of random nonsensical stuff. At nursery, I discovered that Heidi knows another word... fish. She kept pointing at the pictures of fish and the goldfish and saying something that sounded like "fwhish." Hehe. Then Heidi's mom gave me a Christmas gift even though it's already February. It's a handmade star-shaped ornament with a picture of Heidi on her first birthday. =D Anyways, after nursery, this random man told me that I had a flat tire. I didn't believe him at first cuz I refuse to allow such things like that happen to me. But yeah, it really was flat so TKD Andy had to come and change it since no one in my car knew how to. After I dropped everyone off, I went straight to Costco with my sister and Nancy cuz Nancy had to buy more meat for the bbq tomorrow. The wait for the tire change took about two hours so we decided to be ghetto funk and wander up and down the same aisles like 5 times getting LOTS of free samples. Then we felt guilty so we bought a pre-made chinese chicken salad kit and a bag of lettuce and made our own salad while sitting in the farthest corner of the concession food area.
Afterwards, I went bowling with the freshies. It was Josei, Jenny, Kristy, Kwansoo, Roy, Lori, Amanda, Abe, Danny, and Fred. I had a LOT of fun even though the freshies rocked us both games. haha. =] Then we went to In n Out and Fred told us about how he likes to cry and how he always tends to cry in "Pyun Gi" with Choi Jin Sil. Then we started speaking in Korean and started making fun of Roy and Danny for their minimal knowledge and pathetic attempts to speak our native language. Then we continued our fun night at Kristy's and watched Jacob's Ladder. That is one mind stimulating psychologically scary movie. I psyched myself out cuz I was trying so hard to follow along with the thought process that whenever something sudden would happen, I jumped or twitched or shrieked. Btw, Kwan and Fred are quite the movie buffs.
Oh, and the people in my car had a good conversation about Korean songs and groups. We discussed the old groups and how crazy good their songs still are. I remember having a similar conversation with Andy and Nancy on the way home from our boarding trip. Dang. Fred and I have some good taste in Korean music. We both know which songs are the og classics that are a must sing at every nrb opportunity. What a great feeling. =D
After the movie, the Roy, Kwan, Kristy, and I went to Safeway so that they could buy side dishes/desserts for the bbq tomorrow. I'm excited. I think it'll be a lot of fun. But now I must sleep to wake up in a few hours to help Nancy cook the obscene amount of meat we bought. hehehe. I can't wait. =]
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Afterwards, I went bowling with the freshies. It was Josei, Jenny, Kristy, Kwansoo, Roy, Lori, Amanda, Abe, Danny, and Fred. I had a LOT of fun even though the freshies rocked us both games. haha. =] Then we went to In n Out and Fred told us about how he likes to cry and how he always tends to cry in "Pyun Gi" with Choi Jin Sil. Then we started speaking in Korean and started making fun of Roy and Danny for their minimal knowledge and pathetic attempts to speak our native language. Then we continued our fun night at Kristy's and watched Jacob's Ladder. That is one mind stimulating psychologically scary movie. I psyched myself out cuz I was trying so hard to follow along with the thought process that whenever something sudden would happen, I jumped or twitched or shrieked. Btw, Kwan and Fred are quite the movie buffs.
Oh, and the people in my car had a good conversation about Korean songs and groups. We discussed the old groups and how crazy good their songs still are. I remember having a similar conversation with Andy and Nancy on the way home from our boarding trip. Dang. Fred and I have some good taste in Korean music. We both know which songs are the og classics that are a must sing at every nrb opportunity. What a great feeling. =D
After the movie, the Roy, Kwan, Kristy, and I went to Safeway so that they could buy side dishes/desserts for the bbq tomorrow. I'm excited. I think it'll be a lot of fun. But now I must sleep to wake up in a few hours to help Nancy cook the obscene amount of meat we bought. hehehe. I can't wait. =]
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Sunday, February 16, 2003
I've been going through some rampant mood swings. This past weekend though was good so I feel like I've been able to overcome all the crap that I was feeling before.
I ate Baja Fresh with Nancy, Kwan, Billy, and Andy and then went to prayer meeting. It was the first one I went to this school year, so I was a bit unfamiliar with the process. There was some time where we prayed for ourselves, and I prayed earnestly to God to give me peace of mind and heart so that I could better focus on Him. I've been very bogged down these days by stupid nonsensical things so I asked for His forgiveness and that Pastor Eugene's message would really convict me. And then Pastor Eugene spoke about Job and all the madness he went through. What I've been feeling is nothing compared to the intensity of loss in Job's life and yet I denounce God all the more easily. It doesn't make sense.
Later I watched The Shining with Nancy. It was scary and for most of the movie I was either hiding behind a pillow or pushing myself closer and closer to Nancy. I was really impressed with one thing that Stanley Kubrick did though. There's this shot of the little boy riding his tricycle and it's taken from his perspective so we see his back. The crazy thing is the sound of the tricycle as he rides around on hardwood floors and rugs. The alternating sounds between the muffled softness of the rug and then the harsh loudness of the floor totally made the scene more suspenseful and it freaked me out. After the movie we talked until 7am. This is one of the reasons why I like Nancy Kim so much. I like finding myself being able to be honest with her as to what sort of person I am. She thinks I am very pessimistic about certain things and that is very true. She is very perceptive and I like that cuz I can really open up to her and she understands me for me. It was a really good talk. Thanks Nancy. =D
I'm very excited about the bbq on Monday. Nancy and I went to Costco earlier and bought 6 steaks and 9 racks of ribs. I've never seen so much meat before. =] Then we had pho for lunch, which was dang yummy cuz I haven't had it for so long. Hehe. Then we went to Ranch 99 where we looked at all the body parts of a pig that were being sold including the fetus, the ears, the feet, the brain, and some sex organ that I forgot the name of. Was it gonads? testicles? Something gross like that.
Afterwards I went to the North Korea meeting at Carroll's place. I'm so glad I went cuz initially I was very tempted to not go at all. I've lost focus of what and why I'm still participating in the organization. John Chong showed us a video giving background information on what Dr. Park was doing in North Korea. It reminded me of why I was doing this, that God has ultimately called us to help those being persecuted and undergoing suffering. Although what I do may not be much, I earnestly pray that my heart will be in the right place and I can better serve NK Missions in a way that is to my fullest capability.
I've done a lot of talking these past days... thus resulting in a lot of thinking and re-evaluating of myself. I don't think about stuff like that often. And I especially tend to not vocalize my thoughts.
... I think I'm all talked out.
I ate Baja Fresh with Nancy, Kwan, Billy, and Andy and then went to prayer meeting. It was the first one I went to this school year, so I was a bit unfamiliar with the process. There was some time where we prayed for ourselves, and I prayed earnestly to God to give me peace of mind and heart so that I could better focus on Him. I've been very bogged down these days by stupid nonsensical things so I asked for His forgiveness and that Pastor Eugene's message would really convict me. And then Pastor Eugene spoke about Job and all the madness he went through. What I've been feeling is nothing compared to the intensity of loss in Job's life and yet I denounce God all the more easily. It doesn't make sense.
Later I watched The Shining with Nancy. It was scary and for most of the movie I was either hiding behind a pillow or pushing myself closer and closer to Nancy. I was really impressed with one thing that Stanley Kubrick did though. There's this shot of the little boy riding his tricycle and it's taken from his perspective so we see his back. The crazy thing is the sound of the tricycle as he rides around on hardwood floors and rugs. The alternating sounds between the muffled softness of the rug and then the harsh loudness of the floor totally made the scene more suspenseful and it freaked me out. After the movie we talked until 7am. This is one of the reasons why I like Nancy Kim so much. I like finding myself being able to be honest with her as to what sort of person I am. She thinks I am very pessimistic about certain things and that is very true. She is very perceptive and I like that cuz I can really open up to her and she understands me for me. It was a really good talk. Thanks Nancy. =D
I'm very excited about the bbq on Monday. Nancy and I went to Costco earlier and bought 6 steaks and 9 racks of ribs. I've never seen so much meat before. =] Then we had pho for lunch, which was dang yummy cuz I haven't had it for so long. Hehe. Then we went to Ranch 99 where we looked at all the body parts of a pig that were being sold including the fetus, the ears, the feet, the brain, and some sex organ that I forgot the name of. Was it gonads? testicles? Something gross like that.
Afterwards I went to the North Korea meeting at Carroll's place. I'm so glad I went cuz initially I was very tempted to not go at all. I've lost focus of what and why I'm still participating in the organization. John Chong showed us a video giving background information on what Dr. Park was doing in North Korea. It reminded me of why I was doing this, that God has ultimately called us to help those being persecuted and undergoing suffering. Although what I do may not be much, I earnestly pray that my heart will be in the right place and I can better serve NK Missions in a way that is to my fullest capability.
I've done a lot of talking these past days... thus resulting in a lot of thinking and re-evaluating of myself. I don't think about stuff like that often. And I especially tend to not vocalize my thoughts.
... I think I'm all talked out.
Thursday, February 13, 2003
"I will praise You, Lord my God
Even in my brokenness I will praise You Lord
I will praise You, Lord my God
Even in my desperation I will praise You Lord
And I can't understand all that you allow
I just can't see the reason, but my life is in Your hands
And though I cannot see You I choose to trust You
Even when my heart is torn, I will praise You Lord
Even when I feel deserted, I will praise You Lord
Even in the darkest valley I will praise You Lord
And when my world is shattered and it seems all hope is gone
Yet I will praise You Lord
I will trust You, Lord my God
Even in my loneliness I will trust You Lord
I will trust You, Lord my God
Even when I cannot hear You, I will trust You Lord
And I will not forget that You hung on a cross
Lord You bled and died for me
And if I have to suffer, I know that You've been there
And I know that You're here now
Even when my heart is torn, I will trust You Lord
Even when I feel deserted, I will trust You Lord
Even in the darkest valley I will trust You Lord
And when my world is shattered and it seems all hope is gone
Yet I will praise You Lord"
"Yet I Will Praise You" by Vineyard
Even in my brokenness I will praise You Lord
I will praise You, Lord my God
Even in my desperation I will praise You Lord
And I can't understand all that you allow
I just can't see the reason, but my life is in Your hands
And though I cannot see You I choose to trust You
Even when my heart is torn, I will praise You Lord
Even when I feel deserted, I will praise You Lord
Even in the darkest valley I will praise You Lord
And when my world is shattered and it seems all hope is gone
Yet I will praise You Lord
I will trust You, Lord my God
Even in my loneliness I will trust You Lord
I will trust You, Lord my God
Even when I cannot hear You, I will trust You Lord
And I will not forget that You hung on a cross
Lord You bled and died for me
And if I have to suffer, I know that You've been there
And I know that You're here now
Even when my heart is torn, I will trust You Lord
Even when I feel deserted, I will trust You Lord
Even in the darkest valley I will trust You Lord
And when my world is shattered and it seems all hope is gone
Yet I will praise You Lord"
"Yet I Will Praise You" by Vineyard
I just came back from a two hour meeting with Sewon, Basile, and Hyewon for the junior/senior fellowship. WOW. I'm really excited about it. I think it's going to be lots of fun and I hope that a lot of people will be able to make it. ACK! I'm so excited!!! ahahaa. =]
Today was a good day largely due to the beautiful rain.
I cooked dinner for Karen and Sewon today. Well, I mostly defrosted and microwaved a bunch of food. I was going to do this arduous task all by myself but they came early so they ended up preparing a large part of it. Haha. My mentality is so different from Karen and Sewon's. While I was going to microwave some ban chan, Sewon took out a frying pan and reheated the food that way. I must admit, the food did taste much better. =]
I also learned how to play Scrabble for the first time today. We wanted to play the famous speed scrabble but there weren't any directions to follow. I suppose that it was better that I started off with the og version though since the original way was already confusing enough. Scrabble is so HARD. I could only come up with two or three letter words. Sometimes four. *sigh* What a pitiful result from a Whitney and Berkeley education.
Today was a good day largely due to the beautiful rain.
I cooked dinner for Karen and Sewon today. Well, I mostly defrosted and microwaved a bunch of food. I was going to do this arduous task all by myself but they came early so they ended up preparing a large part of it. Haha. My mentality is so different from Karen and Sewon's. While I was going to microwave some ban chan, Sewon took out a frying pan and reheated the food that way. I must admit, the food did taste much better. =]
I also learned how to play Scrabble for the first time today. We wanted to play the famous speed scrabble but there weren't any directions to follow. I suppose that it was better that I started off with the og version though since the original way was already confusing enough. Scrabble is so HARD. I could only come up with two or three letter words. Sometimes four. *sigh* What a pitiful result from a Whitney and Berkeley education.
Wednesday, February 12, 2003
Yay for long talks. =D I just came back from a four hour long talk with Sewon and Karen. A list of the topics we discussed: food, potch, praise at ficb, praise in general, pastor eugene, our class, the ministry, the other classes, the guys in our class, marriage, boys, and our struggles/opinions/experiences/stories about all of the above mentioned.
*This is one thing Sewon mentioned that I really took to heart: Our walks with God basically determine how everything else in our lives play out. When our walks are strong and happy, our lives completely reflect that. Difficulties and struggles arise when we place anything else above our walks with God.
Earlier today before we went to study, Sewon and Karen and I played about an hour and a half's worth of Taboo. I love Taboo. It's so great playing with close friends cuz you can say the most random stuff and they'll still be able to get what the heck you're saying. Especially since every other word is always somehow related to food. =]
This is a new word I learned today in Taboo: hearse.
Definition: The vehicle that carries a coffin to the cemetary.
Example of the word in a sentence: Karen knew a girl in high school who drove around a hearse for fun.
*This is one thing Sewon mentioned that I really took to heart: Our walks with God basically determine how everything else in our lives play out. When our walks are strong and happy, our lives completely reflect that. Difficulties and struggles arise when we place anything else above our walks with God.
Earlier today before we went to study, Sewon and Karen and I played about an hour and a half's worth of Taboo. I love Taboo. It's so great playing with close friends cuz you can say the most random stuff and they'll still be able to get what the heck you're saying. Especially since every other word is always somehow related to food. =]
This is a new word I learned today in Taboo: hearse.
Definition: The vehicle that carries a coffin to the cemetary.
Example of the word in a sentence: Karen knew a girl in high school who drove around a hearse for fun.
Tuesday, February 11, 2003
I just came back from studying at Denny's with Karen and Sewon. I had a lot of fun, partly because I haven't seen either of the two for a while and also cuz we had two orders of seasoned fries with lots of ketchup and tabasco and an oreo sundae. There were also a lot of people at Denny's tonight: Sneve Noh, Unjung, Alex Song, Andrew Park, and SueJong. One unhappy thing that deterred me from having too much fun was seeing the incredible amount of reading that I need to do. It's depressing actually. But I'm going to try my best to catch up. Hopefully...
The drive up back to Berkeley wasn't too bad except that I was very very tired and so it became difficult. My contacts were really dry so I was blinking a lot and I did a lot of swaying between the lanes. I know it's not safe, but I thought that both Jane and my sister were sleeping and I didn't want to bother them. And the last thing I wanted to do was to stop and rest and end up crashing the whole night. I wanted to hurry up and get home as soon as possible. Yeah, my logic is retarded.
We arrived back in Berkeley at 5am. I was exhausted so I slept in today and missed my two classes, rationalizing with myself on why it was okay to miss class. I finally dragged myself out of bed around 5pm, took a shower, ate, and went to work.
Now I want to talk about food: I had Thai for lunch yesterday with my sister, Jeniffer, and Cindy. We all hadn't eaten Thai for a long time so we each ordered something so that we could sample each other's food. We had pad thai, chicken pad see-ew, bbq chicken, and chicken chow mein. For dinner I had mandoo guk and chicken and ban-berry pie from Polly's. It was delicious. I also brought up an obscene amount of food from home. Oodles of yummy goodies, including a freakin cow, lots of munchies, and apples, strawberries, and tangerines. wow. If you be hungry, please come over and partake in my plethora of food.
My parents are really cool people. I realize more and more how much I appreciate them and love them for who they are. =D My dad is so freaking obnoxious and my mom's a little brat. It's so great. =D But no matter how obnoxious or bratty they are, they have continuously sacrificed themselves for me and my sister. I just realized how supportive they are of me. I don't know why I always take that for granted. I suck. *sigh*
I also rummaged through some old photo albums and brought up some of my baby pictures. Gosh I was ugly when I was little. There was this one where I had particles of rice stuck all over my face. It was so freaking disgusting cuz I was grinning like an idiot. Or one where I was running around barenaked except for my diaper with a BOY. My parents let me romp with a naked boy. hahaha. How sick. But dang, there were some good memories.
The drive up back to Berkeley wasn't too bad except that I was very very tired and so it became difficult. My contacts were really dry so I was blinking a lot and I did a lot of swaying between the lanes. I know it's not safe, but I thought that both Jane and my sister were sleeping and I didn't want to bother them. And the last thing I wanted to do was to stop and rest and end up crashing the whole night. I wanted to hurry up and get home as soon as possible. Yeah, my logic is retarded.
We arrived back in Berkeley at 5am. I was exhausted so I slept in today and missed my two classes, rationalizing with myself on why it was okay to miss class. I finally dragged myself out of bed around 5pm, took a shower, ate, and went to work.
Now I want to talk about food: I had Thai for lunch yesterday with my sister, Jeniffer, and Cindy. We all hadn't eaten Thai for a long time so we each ordered something so that we could sample each other's food. We had pad thai, chicken pad see-ew, bbq chicken, and chicken chow mein. For dinner I had mandoo guk and chicken and ban-berry pie from Polly's. It was delicious. I also brought up an obscene amount of food from home. Oodles of yummy goodies, including a freakin cow, lots of munchies, and apples, strawberries, and tangerines. wow. If you be hungry, please come over and partake in my plethora of food.
My parents are really cool people. I realize more and more how much I appreciate them and love them for who they are. =D My dad is so freaking obnoxious and my mom's a little brat. It's so great. =D But no matter how obnoxious or bratty they are, they have continuously sacrificed themselves for me and my sister. I just realized how supportive they are of me. I don't know why I always take that for granted. I suck. *sigh*
I also rummaged through some old photo albums and brought up some of my baby pictures. Gosh I was ugly when I was little. There was this one where I had particles of rice stuck all over my face. It was so freaking disgusting cuz I was grinning like an idiot. Or one where I was running around barenaked except for my diaper with a BOY. My parents let me romp with a naked boy. hahaha. How sick. But dang, there were some good memories.
Saturday, February 08, 2003
Today was Christina's wedding. She was my old Bible study teacher in high school. Words can't describe how truly beautiful she was and the whole wedding ceremony. I don't think I've ever seen a couple so much in love or so blessed by God. =D
Today was so great though. I saw all my old teachers and jdsns who I haven't seen since high school. It was towards the end of high school where things started falling apart and the majority of them all left OMC. But it was this huge OMC reunion today. =] I felt so old seeing Charles and Kathy with not only Calvin, but their new 18 month old son Caleb. Or remembering Solomon as a baby when he left, and now seeing him as David and Grace's adorable two year old toddler. They also have a newborn son Aaron, who is barely two months old. And everyone is engaged... Peter is engaged, Kani is engaged, Jenny is engaged, and my former APC at Unit 3, Christina, is also engaged. I ran into her today at the wedding and was completely shocked that she was there. It turns out that she was Christina's old small group leader when they were undergrads at UCSD. So ironic cuz Christina was my Bible study teacher my last couple years of high school. Another crazy story... Tom's brother, is engaged to Peter's finance's sister. So now all those rumors about Peter and Tom being homosexual lovers are finally dispelled. =D I had so much fun today... lots of emotions and tears but they were all very happy and very good. =]
Today was so great though. I saw all my old teachers and jdsns who I haven't seen since high school. It was towards the end of high school where things started falling apart and the majority of them all left OMC. But it was this huge OMC reunion today. =] I felt so old seeing Charles and Kathy with not only Calvin, but their new 18 month old son Caleb. Or remembering Solomon as a baby when he left, and now seeing him as David and Grace's adorable two year old toddler. They also have a newborn son Aaron, who is barely two months old. And everyone is engaged... Peter is engaged, Kani is engaged, Jenny is engaged, and my former APC at Unit 3, Christina, is also engaged. I ran into her today at the wedding and was completely shocked that she was there. It turns out that she was Christina's old small group leader when they were undergrads at UCSD. So ironic cuz Christina was my Bible study teacher my last couple years of high school. Another crazy story... Tom's brother, is engaged to Peter's finance's sister. So now all those rumors about Peter and Tom being homosexual lovers are finally dispelled. =D I had so much fun today... lots of emotions and tears but they were all very happy and very good. =]
Home is so dang great. I love it here. And I love my parents. =]
Lush green grass is very beautiful... unfortunately, gold grass is not. Mike Tainatongo told me in the 8th grade that gold grass was what nice green grass turns into during the summer when there is no water and the plants are withered and desiccated due to the scorching sun. He then pointed to a field of this dead grass as an example and told me that was what I was. Hideous. Maybe that is why I despise the sun so much.
Lush green grass is very beautiful... unfortunately, gold grass is not. Mike Tainatongo told me in the 8th grade that gold grass was what nice green grass turns into during the summer when there is no water and the plants are withered and desiccated due to the scorching sun. He then pointed to a field of this dead grass as an example and told me that was what I was. Hideous. Maybe that is why I despise the sun so much.
Friday, February 07, 2003
Warm happy feeling of the day: Julie Kim and I were walking to our Poli Sci 150 lecture in Cory when I saw our professor ahead of us. Professor Robert Kagan is very very cute. He seems to be in his mid-60's, has an ample supply of white hair except at the very top of his head [at which point there are only a few wispy strands], has a red wrinkled face, and has squinty twinkling friendly eyes. He was riding a bicycle. Our professor not only had a helmet on, but also wore Velcro straps around the bottom of each pant leg to prevent his pants from catching on the gears of the bicycle. To carry his green bookbag of lecture material, he had a small basket protruding out of the left side of his bicycle. =]
I ate at the super dc tonight with Jung and Janet, after Alice Byun swiped us in. She had already left the dc, but we forced her to stand back in line with us, just to swipe us in. She's so nice. I know we suck. =/ Oh, and my feet hurt a lot. I never realized until today how much it pays to look good. The dc had soft serve vanilla today, so I was excited. Unfortunately, it was on the verge of running out so we were forced to literally pump the handle. It reminded me of taking a ddong and the strenuous effort one has to exert in order to force out a "log-like" ddong. "Log-like" meaning that it's very thick and dry and very difficult to push out. For every inch we pumped out, when we lifted the handle back up, half an inch would go back in. It took forever to get a substantial amount.
I've been not studying and instead cleaned and organized my desk. That led to discovering old letters and pictures and delving into the past memories and feelings for the past couple of hours. There is always this tinge of sadness whenever I am reminded of old times.
I ate at the super dc tonight with Jung and Janet, after Alice Byun swiped us in. She had already left the dc, but we forced her to stand back in line with us, just to swipe us in. She's so nice. I know we suck. =/ Oh, and my feet hurt a lot. I never realized until today how much it pays to look good. The dc had soft serve vanilla today, so I was excited. Unfortunately, it was on the verge of running out so we were forced to literally pump the handle. It reminded me of taking a ddong and the strenuous effort one has to exert in order to force out a "log-like" ddong. "Log-like" meaning that it's very thick and dry and very difficult to push out. For every inch we pumped out, when we lifted the handle back up, half an inch would go back in. It took forever to get a substantial amount.
I've been not studying and instead cleaned and organized my desk. That led to discovering old letters and pictures and delving into the past memories and feelings for the past couple of hours. There is always this tinge of sadness whenever I am reminded of old times.
Thursday, February 06, 2003
I shouldn't be blogging, but everyone signed off already and I'm feeling lonely.
Today was a very long day. It started late at 11am, but it officially ended at 1am.
This is something interesting that I discovered today: People study at the library... during the day. *gasp* I had to go to the library to meet someone and while I was walking there, imagine my surprise seeing Andy Chon about 10 feet in front of me, headed towards the library as well. Imagine my greater surprise to see him actually enter the library. And then imagine my astonishment when I go down to level D in pursuit of Andy to instead find, Danny, Alice, Esther, John Song, and Alex there... studying. I couldn't believe it. But I have been inspired and challenged to go to the library on a more frequent basis now.
Today was a very long day. It started late at 11am, but it officially ended at 1am.
This is something interesting that I discovered today: People study at the library... during the day. *gasp* I had to go to the library to meet someone and while I was walking there, imagine my surprise seeing Andy Chon about 10 feet in front of me, headed towards the library as well. Imagine my greater surprise to see him actually enter the library. And then imagine my astonishment when I go down to level D in pursuit of Andy to instead find, Danny, Alice, Esther, John Song, and Alex there... studying. I couldn't believe it. But I have been inspired and challenged to go to the library on a more frequent basis now.
